AT A CROSSROADS

I KNEW THIS YEAR WOULD START OUT WITH ITS SHARE OF PROBLEMS

I HAVE ALOT OF DECISIONS TO MAKE IN A SMALL AMOUNT OF TIM
SO MANY GOOD THINGS HAVE BEEN HAPPENING LATELY , BUT LIKE ANYTHING ELSE, THEN SHIT STARTS TO HAPPEN.
I FOUND OUT RECENTLY THAT EVERYONE AT WORK READS THIS BLOG...FOR HOW LONG I DONT KNOW. BUT I AM TOLD SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT, BUT YET HAVENT TOLD ME SO. ILL SAY THIS WORK TAKES ENOUGH TOF MY TIME, SO WHAT I DO OUTSIDE OF WORK TRULY IS MY BUSINESS SO I WONT BE CENSORED HERE. BAD ENOUGH I HAVE TO CHECK MY BALLS 90% OF THE TIME ANYWAY. I GENUINELY LIKE THE PEOPLE I WORK WITH, AND I DONT FAKE IT, I KEEP IT VERY REAL..BUT I DO HAVE TO CHECK MY BALLS TO KEEP THE PEACE. SO THERE ITS SAID. I AM TYPING THINKING, AM I GOING TO PISS EVERYONE OFF..THATS NOT MY POINT..BUT THE POINT OF THIS BLOG IS FOR ME TO RANT IN CYBERSPACE SO I AM GOING TO CONTINUE TO
WITH THAT SAD, WORK IS GREAT. TOM AND MAGGIE HAVE BEEN DOING THEIR THING, AS HAVE I. WE ARE DOING OUR SHOW CARDS AND EXPECTING A GOOD SEASON(IF YOU CAN EVER REALLY HAVE A GOOD SEASON IN NYC).
RAN INTO MY EX , THE EX OF MINE WHO FAILED TO TELL ME HE WAS DATING A STRIPPER (FEMALE) AND GOT HER PREGNANT YEARS AGO. YEAH THAT LIL TREASURE, LOL. SAW HIM IN SOUTH BEACH AND THEN HE KEPT ON CALLING AND CALLING AND UGH....I AM LOST..SOMEONE SHOWS ME ATTENTION AND I ACT LIKE ITS MY DUTY TO LAP IT UP LIKE A THRISTY FARM ANIMAL.
LIKE I SAID I HAVE DECISIONS TO MAKE. I AM VERY IN LOVE WITH MY MAN, BUT THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO KEEP IT SO UNDDER WRAPS MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO ENJOY IT FULLY. SO I DONT..ITS SO D.L. THAT I HAVE TO THINK IS IT REAL? I AM PUSHING 40(FUCK!) AND I REALLY NEED TO BE WITH THE ONE(OR DO I?..ISNT 4 THE NEW 30? DONT I GET A FEW MORE YEARS OUT OF THIS?). I AM , AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO WHAT I THINK I HAVE TO ON THE LOVE TIP, BUT I AM TIRED OF HAVING TO HIDE IT FROM MYSELF .
MY SISTER AND THE KIDS ARE HERE, SO I HAVE TO GO
SENDING LOVE AND LIGHT
PLEASE DO THE SAME
BESOS
J