926 AM WEDNESDAY

I WAKE UP AT 6 AM TO CATCH UP ON SUPER TUESDAY RESULTS..ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT THERE IS NO CLEAR CUT DEMOCRATIC WINER...IM OVER IT

LAST NIGHT I HAD DINNER WITH KELLY STREIT OF MODEL MODELS AND A FEW OF HIS MODELS THAT I REP. KELLY IS HILARIOUS AND VERY BLUNT.IT WAS LIKE WATCHING A ONE MAN PLAY CALLED "KELLY!"
SO FUNNY

NEXT WEEK I AM SEEING A NEW SPECIALIST FOR MY THROAT ISSUES. I ALSO HAVE BEEN STAYING HOME MOST OF THE WEEK , BUT WORKING FROM HOME(DONT ASK)....THE TETU SHOOT WAS INTERESTING.I HADNT WORKED ON A SHOOT(IF YOU CALL IT WORK) AS A STYLIST/ART DIRECTOR-ISH) IN OVER A DECADE BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS..HAVING HALF DRESSED MEN LAYING ON FURNITURE ISNT BRAIN SURGERY. SHOULD LOOK HOT I GUESS. TYLER GARCEAU HAS THE MOST AMAZING SKIN AND PROFILE AND DAVID PULLMANN IS NO SLOUCH EITHER. BOTH GUYS WERE VERY TRUSTING AND TOOK THE LEAP OF FAITH NEEDED ETC

TONITES TOM'S BIRTHDAY DINNER AND THEN OUR AGENCY PARTY . ILL HIT THE DINNER BUT NOT THE PARTY OT FEELING IT AT ALL. WORKING AT A MODELLING AGENCY IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN, CHALLENGING AND ASPIRATIONAL...I DONT FEEL LIEK THAT RIGHT NOW. WHEN YOU SEE MARC JACOBS WORK AND TRAVEL AND SEE HIS GENIUS SHINE MODESTLY IT MAKES ME FEEL HOW FAR OFF TRACK I HAVE GONE.

I MOVED TO NYC IN 91 TO LEARN THIS BUSINESS, AND I HAVE. I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED MORE THEN I EVER DREAMED, BUT I DID IT ALL BEFORE I TURNED 30..AND THEN THE PAYDAYS GOT BIGGER AND I GOT MORE "COMFORTABLE"..I THINK OF THE OFFERS I GOT AS A KID (ART AND COMMERCE, CALVIN KLEIN AND EVEN MORE RECENTLY HIGH PAYING GIGS AT BRUCE WEBER AND POLO) AND I THINK WHAT THE F**K AM I DOING? I REMEMBER WHEN I TURNED 30 AND LEFT BOSS I WENT FROM BOSS ON A FRIDAY TO NY MODELS ON A MONDAY ..DIDNT EVEN TAKE A BREAK AND THE FIRST CALL WAS FROM BRUCE WEBER WHO SAID" WHY DIDNT YOU COME AND WORK WITH ME?" AND JUST DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY..I HAD LOST MY CONFIDENCE AS BOSS DESCENDED INTO HELL( SO TO SPEAK)...BUT MAJOR IS DOING VERY WELL AND CERTAINLY THE MENS DIVISION HAS A LARGE CONTRIBUTING FACTOR IN THAT. AND MY CONFIDENCE IS NOT ONLY BACK BUT JUSTIFIED AND UNBREAKABLE NOW. I LOVE MANAGING TALENT, AND I AM HAPPY BEING THAT PERSON..BEHIND THE SCENES AND DEALING FROM THAT POINT. BUT I WANT TO GROW AND EVOLVE AND DO MORE...BUT YOU CAN ONLY DO WHAT YOU CAN DO...IT WILL BE INTERESTING TO SEE WHAT TRANSPIRES OVER 2008. CHANGE IS COMING TO AMERICA...GO OBAMA! GO HILLARY! WATCHING THIS MASSIVE QUAKE IN THIS COUNTRY DURING THESE ELECTIONS HAS DEFINITELY SPARKED SOMETHING IN ME AS WELL.

I AM OFF TO SHOWER AND HEAD TO WORK..I DO LOVE TO WORK,AND I DO LOVE WHAT HAS BEEN DONE AT MAJOR..BUT WHO DOESNT WANT TO FEEL CHALLENGED AND ENVIGORATED?