I AM .

THIS BLOG
WHICH WAS ONCE JUST A SOURCE OF VENTING FOR ME, ANONYMOUSLY
HAS TURNED INTO SOMEWHAT OF A CHORE AND LIABILTY.

THE PURPOSE TRULY FOR ME WAS TO BE HEARD, AND WHOMEVER READ IT DID JUST THAT.
WELL IVE BEEN HEARD AND THEN SOME. AND IN MY OWN WAY, I HAVE FOUND PEACE IN THAT.

SOME PEOPLE IN THE INDUSTRY HAVE BEEN ENTERTAINED BY IT, SOME HAVE TRIED(PITIFULLY) TO USE IT AGAINIST ME. MY MODELS HAVE SEEMED TO FIND SOME HIDDEN JOY IN IT, SOME FEEL LIKE ITS MADE THEM UNDERSTAND ME MORE...LIKE THEY HAVE BEEN TRYING TO UNDERCOVER AND EVEN MAKE SENSE OF ME, LIKE I AM A RIDDLE.

TRUTH BE TOLD, IM STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT ME, SO GOOD LUCK READING THIS AND THINKING" I GET HIM".
WHAT I DO KNOW FOR SURE, ABOUT MYSELF, IS THAT I AM GOOD. NOT GOOD LIKE A CHRISTIAN SOLDIER, GOOD AS IN SOULFUL..THAT THERE IS NO PRETENSE OR FABRICATION TO ME...THAT MY WORD IS SOMETHING YOU CAN COUNT ON. I CAN LIVE WITH BEING "GOOD" LIKE THAT . I ALSO AM A FRIEND; NOT A FASHION FRIEND, NOT A FAIRWEATHER FRIEND, BUT A REAL FRIEND. WHO STANDS BY YOU DURING ALL STOPS ON THE JOURNEY. FOR THAT I AM EQUALLY "GOOD" WITH. I THINK OF THESE TWO VERY IMPORTANT FACTORS AND THINK OF WHERE I COME FROM..THE LIES, THE EVIL, THE ABUSE, THE PAIN AND SOMEWHAT THE TORURE OF MY YOUTH AND I THINK I HAVE COME SO FAR .."LIFE" GAVE ME ITS HARDEST PUNCH, AND I AM STILL STANDING AND IM STRONGER THEN EVER.
SO, I THANK THIS BLOG FOR GIVING ME THAT FORUM TO RANT AND BE HEARD..NOW ITS TIME FOR THE PERSONAL STUFF TO BE KEPT AS SUCH....

I WILL CONTINUE TO KVELL(BRAG) ABOUT MY AMAZING MODELS AND MY EQUALLY AMAZING CAREER...ILL BRAG ABOUT MY NEPHEWS WHEN IT DOESNT GET TOO PERSONAL..MY LOVE LIFE IS MINE AGAIN, AND STAYS PRECIOUS. MY SISTERS, MY FRIENDS, KNOW MY GENUINE AFFECTION. TO ANYONE WHO READ THIS, WHO DOESN T KNOW ME WHO ENJOYED THE CONTENT AND ITS HONESTY, KNOW THAT THE LIGHT AND LOVE HAS HELPED ME IMMEASURABELY. AND TO THE HATERS OUT THERE, AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE..RATHER THEN WORRY ABOUT MY LIFE..I SUGGEST YOU GET YOUR OWN.

FINAL SHOUT OUTS:

MY VERY BEST FRIENDS(JENN JILL DARRYL ARLYND CAMERON )
MY SISTERS
MY MODELS( ALL OF YOU FUCKERS..EVEN THE ONES WHO WEAR ME OUT)
KATIA S
REVS
BENNY/ARNIE AND THAT CREW OF LOVING LOYAL FABULOSITY
ANDY ELLEN & LALLY

I LOVE YOU ALL
IMMENSELY
AND PLAN ON SHOWING IT MORE
MY GRATITUDE WILL SHOW MORE IN MY ATTITUDE


BE GOOD


JASON