725 AM

I FEEL BETTER, I GOT SOME GOOD REST.
SEEING MY DEAR FRIEND MARIA FOR BRUNCH BEFORE I SEND JILL OFF BACK TO ATL
I CANNOT WAIT TIL I GET MY SHADES UP IN MY ROOM, SO I CAN GET SOME REST.

SNL PREMIERED LAST NIGHT, HAD SOME VERY FUNNY ELEMENTS..BUT NOT NECESSARILY LAUGH OUT LOUD FUNNY....KANYE WEST WAS THE GUEST PERFORMER..AND HE DID A SKIT IN ORDER TO MAKE LIGHT OF HIS RIDICULOUS CHILDHISH BEHAVIOR AT AWARDS SHOWS, BUT IT ISNT ALL THAT AMUSING.....

LOOKING FOWARD TO WORK ON MONDAY, SO MUCH HAPPENING...LOTS AND LOTS.

ANYWAY SPEAK LATER

904 PM SATURDAY

I AM SO STRESSED OUT(AND NOT DEALING WITH IT) THAT MY EYES, AND FACE HAVE BEEN NERVOUS TWITCHING ALL DAY. I DONT FEEL STRESSED BUT SUPRESSING IT(ALLEGEDLY)....I DONT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE

I HAVE ALOT TO COME TO GRIPS WITH
I NEED TO DEAL WITH MY RELATIONSHIP ISSUES
I ALSO NEED TO BE HONEST WITH MYSELF ...BRUTALLY HONEST.

I KNOW WHAT IS NECESSARY, BUT I AM SO AFRAID OF BEING SINGLE. I HAVE A HARD TIME MEETING GUYS BECAUSE I AM NOT A STICK FIGURE, A GYM BUNNY OR A LEADING MAN TYPE. I AM JUST ME..ALWAYS WORKING....IN A BUBBLE. KNOWS TONS OF PEOPLE, BUT NO ONE REALLY KNOWS ME

I ALSO LOVE (HIM) ((ALOT))...AND SAYING GOODBYE SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE..I SAY IT, HE CHASES ME AND APOLOGIZES AND "BEGS" TO BE GIVEN ANOTHER SHOT..JUST ON ONLY ONE( TURNS INTO ONE A WEEK) AND I KEEP ON PUSHING THE LINE IN THE SAND FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY ..SOO FAR AWAY/SOMEWHERE THAT I FORGOT WHY I EVEN BOTHERED.

BOTH OF MY PARENTS SUFFERED IN BOTH THEIR FIRST AND SECOND MARRIAGES. MY SISTER SAM HAS SO MUCH TO CONTEND WITH IN HER OWN THAT I WORRY FOR HER(MORE THEN ILL ADMIT) . MY EDEST SISTER SHELLY HAS BEEN ENGAGED TWICE BUT NEVER MARRIED...AND I, HAVE NEVER HAD ANYMORE AS PERMANENT AS POOKS CANUCK.

I AM GOING TO TAKE SOEM TME AND OUT THIS ON HOLD AND SORT THRU THIS WITHOUT A PANEL VOTE; TONS OF TALKING WITH FRIENDS ABOUT SOEMTHING THAT I MUST CHOOSE FROM MY CORE. CAN I JUST BE HIS FRIEND AND HAVE BENEFITS ON THE SIDE? CAN I JUST BE HIS FRIEND AND BE THAT? CAN I BE A LOVER WITH NO STRINGS? CAN I JUST BE?

ITS TIMES LIKE THIS I WISH HE WAS HERE, TO TALK TO ABOUT ANYTHING. SITTING ON MY COUCH , WATCHIG HIM WATCH TV, HIS PROFILE, HIS LOUD LAUGH...HIM LOOKING OVER AT ME AND GRABBING MY HAND TO KISS IT AND THEN SQUEEZING IT HARD ENOUGH TO HURT...MAKING ME FEEL LOVED AND ALIVE. NOW ITS JUST TOGETHER AND ALONE..ME PUSHING HIM AWAY FOR EVERY ERROR , ME TRYING TO HURT HIM BY REMOVING MY LOVE AND SUPPORT FROM HIS AS REJECTION.

I AM GLAD JILL IS HERE, ITS KEEPING ME FOCUSED, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, ON OUR BONDING OVER 2 DECADES OF SUPER LOVING FRIENDSHIP.I WILL BE SAD TO SEE HER GO, BUT I FEEL RECHARGED BY HER LIGHT. SHE SEEMS HAPPY AND GROUNDED..AND WELL ON HER WAY AS WELL.

I CONFIDED IN HER THAT MY FRIENDSHIP WITH DARRYLL SEEM STO HAVE HOT SOME SORT OF NOTHINGNESS, AND I T CONCERNS ME.

SHE FEELS MY SITUATION WITH POOKS HAS TO CHANGE. SHE HAS BEEN VERY "TEAM POOKS" FROM THE DAY SHE MET HIM..BUT SHE HAS SEEN SOME OF THE DRAMA I CINTEND WITH, AND ADD TO..AND SHE IS LIKE " UM, NOT SO MUCH"....IS IT LIEK WATCHING A CAR CRASH IN SLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOW MOTION? OR IS IT WATCHING SOMEONE SIMPY GO THRU THE MOTINS? WHO KNOWS..I AM TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT MYSELF

ANYWAY
MY HEAD IS SLOWLY THROBBING
MY FACE IS TWITCHING
AND JILL IS LISTNEING TO USTIN TIMBERLAKE IN MY LIVING ROOM.....
I NEED TO BREATHE AND LET THIS SITUATION ISSUE BREATHE ON IT S OWN FOR A DAY OR THREE
LOVING YOU
LIVING IN THE LIGHT

J

WHEN DO YOU KNOW ITS TIME?

I HAVE SOMEONE IN MY LIFE WHO HAS BEEN MY MAN GOING ON 3 YEARS. OUR RELATIONSHIP, LIKE MANY PEOPLES RELATIONSHIPS, HAS HAD ITS UP AND DOWNS. WHEN WE FIRST MET, THERE WAS AN INSTANT CONNECTION..WE SAW EACH OTHER EVERY DAY..BECAME EACH OTHERS BEST FRIEND AND TOLD ALL THE STORIES YOU TELL EACH OTHER TO FORM THAT TRUE GROUNDED BOND
I DIDNT THINK ID EVER MEET SOMEONE LIKE HIM, AND SUDDENLY I HAD. HE WAS EVERYTHING TO ME..HE WAS LIKE A COLD DRINK OF WATER ; REVIVING ME. I HAD SPENT SO MUCH TIME WORKING ON MY CAREER; PARTYING ON WEEKENDS..NEVER STOPPING FROM WORK, TO CLUBS, ETC.....ALWAYS DISTRACTED. BUT HERE HE WAS, LOVING ME..NEEDING ME...LISETENING TO ME. I WAS GOBSMACKED. BUT WITH ALL THAT LOVE CAME THE INEVITABLE STORM. THE TSUNAMI OF INSECURITY THAT HAS FED OFF OF ME CAME EVEN HARDER..I STARTED NOT TRUSTING MYSELF, MY INSTICNTS(WHICH ALWAYS SERVED ME AT WORK) MADE ME FEEL UNWORTHY OF THIS TROPHY I HAD BY MY SIDE. WAS HE REALLY INTO ME? WAS THIS ALL AN OPPORTUNISTIC MOVE? ALL MY FRENEMIES , BITH STRAIGHT AND GAY , HAD THEIR OPINIONS, AND SHARED THEN REGARDLESS OF MY WILLINGNESS TO HEAR IT. BUT AS THEY GOT TO SEE US BE US, THEY ALL SAID" HE REALLY REALLY LOVES YOU"..LOVES ME? ME? FAT JASON KANNER? WELL WOW, I GUESS THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS....

WHEN YOU DATE SOMEONE WHO LIVES DEEP IN THE CLOSET, YOU HAVE TO EXPECT ALOT OF DISAPPOINTMENT. I DIDNT CARE(BUT I REALLY DID). WHEN YOU LIE TO YOURSELF, ITS THE MOST MALIGNANT BETRAYAL TO YOUR HEART. YOU MAKE A DEAL WITH YOUR SUBCONCIOUS THAT YOU CAN BLOCK YOU FEELINGS..BUT ITS WEAKENS YOUR SPIRIT. I THOUGHT I COULD DO IT. ACT LIKE WE WERE FRIENDS TO THE PUBLIC, TWO STEPS BEHIND..IN FRONT OF...NEVER HAND IN HAND....IN FRONT OF MY FREINDS WHO WERE "SAFE" WE WERE THE AFFECTIONATE ENVY OF ALL. THE SCRIPT WOUDL FLIP ON A DIME..BUT HOW CAN YOU REALLY ROLL LIKE THAT. I THOUGHT I COULD TURN IT ON AND OFF..BUT I COULDNT. AND BECUASE I TOLD THAT LIKE, IT MADE ME RESENTFUL. AND THAT MANIFESTED IN ANGER. ANGER AT HIM FOR "MAKING ME" LIVE A LIE. ANGRY AT MYSELF ( SO LETS EAT SOME MORE!) FOR ONCE AGAIN BEING IN A HALF OF A RELATIONSHIP. DREADING THE INEVITABLE DISUSSSIONS WITH HIM WHICH WOULD BE MET WITH QUIET APOLOGIES AND INACTION.

NOW WE ARE THREE YEARS DEEP AND I AM STILL IN LOVE, BUT HATE THIS MAN. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO LOVE SOMEONE AND HATE THEM AT THE SAME TIME? ITS SOUNDS LYRICAL, BUT IT ISNT. ITS CONFUSING AND DESTRUCTIVE. I WANT MY LIFE TO SOUND LIEK A JILL SCOTT LOVESONG. " A LONG WALK" , ONE OF HER FIRST SINGLES, TO ME IS PURE LOVE. I SPEAKS OF JUST BEING INTOXICATED BY THE NEWNESS OF A NEW RELATIONSHIP..BUT ALSO ABOUT FINDING THE THINGS YOU LIEK TO DO TOGWTHER AND DOING IT OPENLY..TAKING A LONG WALK, AFTER DARK, AROUND THE PARK....AND WITH MY MAN WE NEVER DID THAT. WE BOTH USED OUR SHAME TO STAY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP. HE LIVES A LIE( FAMILY CANT KNOW HE CREEPS WITH MEN, NOR HIS FRIENDS) AND HAS SHAME...I COSIGN THAT IT S OK TO HIDE IN YOUR CLOSET BECUASE I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO SEE YOU SUFFER ,AND I HATE MYSELF ENOUGHT TO SWALLOW THIS PILL OF SUFFERING. NO, HE DIDNT ASK ME TO DO THIS...BUT HE MADE SURE I WAS HOOKED ON HIM,LIKE A DRUG BEFORE ALL THIS MADNESS ENSUED.

WHAT DO I DO> BE FIERCE, TAKE A STAND..BE ALONE? I AM TRED OF BEING ALONE...I FEEL ALONE WITH HIM, BUT I FEEL SO ALONE WITHOUT HIM? DOES IT MAKE SENSE? IT DOESNT TO ME EITHER SO DONT FEEL ODD ..I BARELY GET IT MYSELF.

I WANT HIM, BUT ALL OF HIM . I ALSO WANT ME TO BE STRONG AND INDEPENDENT. HOW DID MY LOVELIFE BECOME SO MESSY? WHY IS IT SO? IF YOU AER OUT THERE AND YOU HAVE SOME SUGGESTIONS..I AM OPEN TO HEAR IT

LOVE AND LIGHT

11 22PM BACK FROM MR CHOW

HAD SUCH A GREAT DINNER
LOV EMY JILL

MR CHOW ON 57TH IS DEFINITELY SOME OF THE BEST EATING IN NYC
THE CHICKEN SATAY IS LIKE A BLOWJOB FOR YOUR SOUL

ITS EVERYTHING

ABOUT TO WATCH SOME TV AND DECOMPRESS FROM THIS DAY OF FABULOSITY

GETTING JILL INTO AMY WINEHOUSE,,,,SHE IS LOVING THE FIRST ALBUM "FRANK"

I AM OFF

XX'S AND OO'S

845 PM jill is here

JILL IS HERE
ITS BEEN A WONDERFUL DAY
DRAMA
WITH MY MAN
BUT JILL IS HERE, ALL IS WELL

JUST HAD A TONS OF COSMOS AT THE RITZ
HEADING TO CHOWS ON 57TH STREET

CANT WAIT FOR MY SATAY

GAGING

LOVE 2 LOVE U

10 56 PM..THURSDAY

EXHAUSTED
WHAT A DAY

IMG IS BEING COOL ABOUT HONORING OUR OPTIONS EVEN THOUGH WE DROPPED CLINT. AL DAVID IS STILL SPINNING. MICHELE POMMIER IS LIVING FOR THIS..AND WE R ALL LIKE,,HUH? WE DROPPED A PROBLEM, RID OURSELVES OF A CANCER..NOT A BIG ASS DRAMA HERE.

I AM WATCHING THE VIEW WHILE TYPING..ELIZABETH HASSLEBACK IS REALLY A RETARD. WHAT AN ASS!!!! SHE HAS A STORY TO TELL , ALWAYS HAS A COMMENT TO ADD..YET NOTHING OF ANY SOCIAL RELEVANCE. WHY IS SHE ON TV? SHE IS A "TALENT'!

BARBRA WALTERS HAS LOST ALL CREDIBILTY..TIME TO RETIRE GIRL

ANYHOO.JILL IS HERE AROUND 945/10
POOKS AND I ARE TAKING HER TO MR CHOW TOMORROW(CANT WAIT)

POLAROIDED A BUNCH OF GUYS TODAY FOR VARIOUS JOBS WE ARE WORKING ON...EXCITING NEWS COMING DOWN THE PIKE FOR BLAINE COOK. CANT WAIT TIL WE ANNOUNCE IT

NATHAN NESBITT WAS 1 OF 3 GUYS SHOOTING EMPORIO ARMANI, BUT THEY SENT THE OTHER 2 POOR BASTARDS HOME..AND SHOOTING ALL PICS ON NATEY..VERY EXCITING

SEAN HARJU HAS SHOOT OLD NAVY,, AMERICAN EAGLE AND DIESEL IN THE PAST 2 WEEKS..NUTSO

BOOKED JEREMY SIMPSON, SIMON AND TYLER LOUGH FOR ABERCROMBIE...TYLER ALSO SHOT THE POLO RUGBY CAMPAIGN WITH ARNALDO ANAYA LUCCA..ALONGSIDE MICHAEL LEMBO ( WHO JUST HAS A BABY ..CONGRATS)

WE BE BZ BOO

I AM OFF

FRESH DIRECT IS BEING DELIVERED...HAD TO STOCK UP


OOOH MOST IMPORTANTLY..I HAD LUNCH WIHT MY DEAR DEAR FRIEND HILARY SKLAR...SO GREAT TO RECONNECT ..SHE HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND CHARLOTTE FROM WILLIAMSBURG..LOVE LOVE THAT

TRIPLE LOVING U ALL

NITERS

J

THURSDAY 8 32 AM

HIYA

24 HRS AND COUTING UNTIL JILL COMES
EXCITING I MUST SAY!

POOKS SPENT THE NIGHT, IT SNICE TO HAVE THE PLACE TO MYSELF..NO OFFFENSE
CANNOT WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND..STILL TRYING TO PLAN WHAT JILL AND I WILL BE DOING

MY SISTER SAMANTHA TOLD ME THAT YESTERDAYS OPRAH IS A MUST WATCH .SO I WILL TONIGHT
I AM HAVING DINNER WITH TERRON WOOD, BUT LUNCH WITH Y DEAR FRIEND HILARY.I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER

OFF TO SHOWER THEN TO WORK
X
J

11 35 pm..getting ready for bed

LONG DAY
LOOKING FOWARD TO SLEEPING

JILL COMES FRIDAY CANNNNNT WAIT

PEREZ HILTON RAPPING ON MTV
SCARY AS ALL HELL
WHATS THE WORLD COMING TO

FUCKING EH

WEDENSDAY 6 47 PM

JUST GOT HOME

WHY IS IT HOT AGAIN
I HAVE WHITNEY HOUSTON FLOPSWEAT
NOT CUTE


LONG LONG DAY
NATE IS SHOOTING EMPORIO ARMANI TODAY
TRES EXCITING.

LOTS OF GREAT OPTIONS...SO MUCH GOING ON
RALPH LAUREN IS LAUNCHING A NEW FRAGRANCE..TRYING TO WORK ON THAT ASAP


XXOO

J

NEW CD'S

HI

BOUGHT THE NEW KEISHA COLE, JILL SCOTT..WILLI AM

NOT THRILLED
I AM A HUGE JILL SCOTT FAN

BUT THIS ALBUM IS TOOOO MELLLOW

POLO WRAP DINNER

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR:

BENNY ESKRIDGE
ABIGAIL THOMPSON
TERRON WOOD
TRAVIS DAVENPORT
ROBYN SINCLAIR

AFTER GOING THRU THE DOUCHE OF A WEEK, IT WAS NICE TO BE AROUND SOME MODELS WHO...(TRUMPETS SALUTE) ACTUALLY APPRECIATE THEIR AGENT AND THE WORK. YES I SAID IT, CAN YOU IMAGINE..UNJADED MODELS WHO ACTUALLY SMILE, ENGAGE YOU AND CAN SPEAK ABOUT OTHER THINGS THEN ABOUT THEMSELVES...I KNOW..ITS ALOT...ANYHOO

HAD A GREAT DINNER AT OLD HOMESTEAD(THANKS POLO) AND THEN DRINKS AT OUR USUAL WATERING HOLE..LA BOTTGEA AT THE MARITIME. HAD TOO MUCH TO DRINK AND DIPPED..HAD DOUGHNUTS MILK AND WATER(CLASSY) AND MUST HAVE PASSED OUT

WHY DO I DRUNK TEXT? WHATS THE HIDDEN DEMON..UGH..MORE CHANTING IS NEEDED....I NEED MY PHONE TAKEN FROM ME, AFTER DRINK 4....PLEASE ANYONE LISTENING?LOL

HAD LUNCH WITH THE LEGENDARY CHRIS COLLINS. HE IS A PERSONAL FAVE..ANYONE WHO THINKS I AM VERY DIFFCULT TO DEAL WITH , MAY BE RIGHT..BUT I AM A PUSHOVER FOR CHRIS COLLINS. HE IS A CLASSY( I AM SOUNDING LIKE TRUMP) STAND UP GENTLEMAN AND ITS TRULY BEEN A PRIVLEDGE WORKING WITH HIM FOR THESE PAST 12 YEARS....AND TODAY I HAVE LUNCH WITH THE SOON TO BE A LEGEND CHAD WHTE....LOTS OF LUNCHES..I PREFER BREAKFAST MEETINGS AT THE MERCER WHEN TESTINO IS IN TOWN..THE BREAKFAST AT MERCER IS EVERYTHING, BUT WHEN MARIO TESTINO AND MARC JACOBS ARE STAYING THERE, ITS ALOT OF COOL PEOPLE CHILLING AND A LOT OF BUSINESS GETS DONE..LOVE IT

MARIO IS REALLY FEELING SOME OF OUR NEW GUYS
JEREMY SIMPSON
CALVIN BODHAN
BLAINE
SIMON NESSMANN
NATE



CANT WAIT TO GET TO WORK

X
J
OOOOH AND ALSO....HE HAS FLIPPED FOR ORAINE BARRET( SO EXCITING)

FLIPPIN THE SCRIPT

SORRY THAT ITS BEEN A COUPLE OF DAYS
I HAVE BEEN BZ , AND WORK IS ALWAYS A PRIORITY.

AFTER MUCH DEBATE, KATIA AND I DECIDED, ALONG WITH THE SUPPORT OF MAGGIE AND TOM TO"DROP" CLINT MAURO.
THE RELATIONSHIP WAS DOOMED FROM THE START.....AL , MY FRENEMY, DOING HIS USUAL POISONING OF THE MOND TO HIS LATEST OBSESSION WHO IS CLINT

PLEASE TAKE A MOMENT TO LOOK AT THE INSANE BIOGRAPHY ON CLINTMAURO.COM
THAT WILL TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IN REGADS TO AL AND HIS "THING" FOR CLINT

I HAVE DONE A STAND UP JOB FOR CLINT, ONLY TO BE MET WITH HIS VERSION OF BEING ALOOF AND DISTANT.
AL MADE A SERIOUS POWER MOVE AND WHEN IT BACKFIRED , I WAS THROWN UNDER THE BUS..BUT NOT REALLY ..THIS TIME RATHER THEN BEING EMOTIONALLY TORTURED BY AL FOR WEEKS..WE DECEIDED TO FLIP THE SCRIPT AND DROP HIM.....CLEAR AND SIMPLE..NO DRAMA..BUT BECAUSE AL CANT HANDLE NOT BEING IN CONTROL OF EVERY ASPECT OF EVERY SITUATION HE HAS LOST HIS EVER LOVING MIND. BUT , WHAT CAN I SAY? IF YOU PLAN ON TOYING WITH GROWN PEOPLE, YOU MAY JUST FIND YOURSELF ASS OUT.

I CANT SAY IF CLINT IS A GOOD GUY OR A BAD GUY HERE, AS I REALLY HAVE NO RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM. HE HADNT CHECKED IN WITH US FOR QUITE A FEW DAYS PRIOR TO THE DEVASTATIING NEWS(BEING SARCASTIC) THAT HE GOT RELEASED FROM AN OPTION. I GUESS SOME PEOPLE JUST WANT TO WIN WIN WIN, AND DONT REALIZE IN ORDER TO WIN YOU MUST LOSE ALSO, ITS CALLED COMPETITION..ANYHOO...I DO KNOW THAT CLINT DID CALL A CLIENT OF MINE, WHO IS ALSO A FRIEND, TO TRASH ME TO THEM, WHICH I THINK FURTHER DISTANCED US FROM EVER FINDING A MEETING POINT.

I KNEW MONTHS AGO THAT MY WORK RELATIONSHIP COULD NEVER LAST WITH CLINT. AS GREAT LOOKING AS HE IS,HIS LACK OF RESPECT TO ME, AND MY TEAM WAS A BONE OF MUCH CONTENSION IN OUR OFFICE. WHEN HE MADE AN ATTEMPT TO THANK US, AL WAS QUICK TO TELL US IT WAS HIS IEA FOR HIM TO SEND US CANDY..HOW SAD. AL MUST HAVE THE"BIGGEST DICK" IN THE ROOM AT ALL TIMES..BIG EGO, LITTLE DICK I AM SURE..

WHEN CLINT LET KATIA HAVE IT, THATS WHEN THE LINE IN THE SAND TRULY WAS DRAWN.WHO SPEAKS TO A WOEN LIEK THAT, F**K THIS, AND F**K YOU, SHE WAS IN TEARS...AND THEN SEND HER FLOWERS, LIEK THATS IS WIFE...IT WA DONE THAT LAST THURSDAY.

NOW CLINT WILL WIND UP WITH A PASSIONLESS AGENT IN NYC WHO WILL CAPITALIZE QUICKLY IN HIS AX SUCCESS, AND THEN HE WIL FIZZLE OUT FASTER THEN MOST..AS HE WORKS THRU AND IN HIS KARMA. I DO REALLY WISH HIM WELL, AND MEAN IT....HOPEFULLY CLINT CAN SEE, IN LESS THEN 16 MTHS AL HAS PULLED HIM FROM PAUL NELSON, IMG, SOON DAVID AT NOUS..AND NOW WE DROPPED HIM...SOMETHING MUST BE AWRY. BUT I DOUBT CLINT LOOKS MUCH PAST HIS MIRROR TO SEE THE TRUTH.

I KNOW MY FAULT IN THIS AND KNOW I WILL DEAL WTH TOSE CONSEQUENCES. I TRADED MY SENSE (SOMETIMES) TO REP WHAT I THINK TO BE THE BEST MODELS. KNOWING THAT SOMEONE WHO WAS FEEDING THEM TRULY HATED ME OUT OF PURE JEALOUSLY..NOT FRIENDSHIP, NOT EVEIL EITHER.

AL AND I HAVE HAD PROBABLY ONE OF THE MOST TWISTED AND DISHONEST FRIENDSHIS. TOO MUCH TO GET INTO, BUT LETS JUST SAY ID RATHER HAVE "LESSER" MODELS THEN DO ANY MORE BUSINESS WITH HIM AGAIN

HE PLAYS THE VICTIM, AS I AM THE DEVIL. BUT THE TRUTH IS THE TRUTH,,AND I KNOW THAT AL'S OBSESSION WITH ALL THINGS CLINT, AN ALLTHINGS MAJOR, AND ALL THINGS JASON HAVE BEEN DESTROYED.

THE JIG IS UP

X
J

SUNDAY 4 31 PM

WHAT A FRIGGIN GORGEOUS SUNDAY

WALKED BY THE WATER
GOT SOME SUN, BOUGHT NEW VOGUE

ITS A GOOD SUNDAY

WHY IS ANNA WINTOUR MAKING DAVID SIMS TAKE STEVEN MEISEL STYLE PICS? I DONT GET IT
THE NEW VOGUE IS NOT ALL THAT

MEISEL SHOULD HAVE SHOT THAT COUTURE STORY...LOVE SIMS,,BUT ITS ABOUT MOVEMENT IN THE STUDIO FOR HIM
THE STORY IS MISSING THAT MEISEL POLISH..AND ITS VOUGUE..ITS MANDATORY

MS WINTOUR TRIED IT WITH MCDEAN, WITH KLEIN AND NOW WITH SIMS..AND ITS NEVER GOING TO BE STEVEN MEISEL LEVEL...HE IS THE SHT, THE POO..THE MEISEL

LIKED THE CHARLIZE THERON LIFESTYLE COVER STORY BY TESTINO. USUAL CHIC AND MARIOS SEXY PLUCK....

TOMORROW NUMERO HOMMES WILL BE WAITING ON MY DESK
RYAN DAHARSH, ROBYN SINCLAIR , CHRIS DATTOLLA AND EDDIE TUCKER ARE ALL IN IT..CANNOT WAIT!

SPOKE WITH PAUL N FROM LA,HE GAVE ME SOME NEEDED GUIDANCE AND ADVICE ON MY ISSUE WITH NIPSEY RUSSEL AND HIS MANNEQUIN ...NEEDED THAT .

POOKS AND I ARE HAVING SOME GROWING PAINS, BUT ITS DEFINITELY GROWING APART

TTYL

TOOK THE BATH: FEELING LIKE A CHAMP

HEY YA

ITS TIME TO MAKE BOLD MOVES,AND STAND IN TRUTH

I DONT HAVE TO BE THE BEST
I DONT HAVE TO BE A COUPLE
I DONT HAVE TO BE FAT
I DONT HAVE TO WORRY

CHOICES
WHATS IT WORTH?
DO THEY MAKE OR DEFINE YOU?

I WANT TO BE MORE THEN MY WORK, MORE THEN MY CHOICES
I WONT SELL MYSELF SHORT FOR MY CAREER
MY EGO

E
G
O

EVERYBODYS GOT ONE

EGO BLOCK THE LIGHT
IN ALL OF US
AND IN ME

THE OPPOSITE OF IT
INSECURITY

YING YANG

PREFER BEING WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE
ON TIME

STOP THE WORRING
THE MADNESSS
PERHAPS, THE SHAME

IT AINT ALL BAD
SO MUCH GOOD AND LIGHT

X
NIGHTNIGHT

6 02 PM SATURDAY

FEELING LIKE A SCHMO

WISH I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO STAY FASTING TIL SUNSET
I DID CLEAR 22 23 HRS..BUT I WOUDL HAVE PREFERRED TO WAIT TIL SUNDOWN
NEXT YR FOR SHIZZ

STORY OF MY LIFE, NOT FINISHING THINGS
THAT NEEDS 2 CHANGE

NEED TO SHAVE MY HEAD, AND SOAK IN THE TUB TIL CAMERONS B DAY PARTAY

LOVE THAT KID!

F**K

I LASTED TO 130

IT IS WHAT IT I

LIVING FOR

PEOPLE WHO R DISCIPLINED

12 47PM REALLY HUNGRY

ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS FOOD
IM WAITING TIL 230 AND IM EATING

LEAVE ME ALONE IM STARVING

11 58, AND I HAVENT EATEN SINCE 2 30 YESTERDAY, NO EVEN SIPPED WATER
I HAVE A HEADACHE AND IM NONE TOO HAPPY

I DO APPERCIATE THAT I COULD JUST GET UP AND GO TO KITCHEN AND JUST CHOW...BUT I CANT. I AM REPENTING....

ITS NOT AWFUL, BUT I COULD REALLY USE SOME FOOD....
SHOUT OUT TO MY SISTER SAMANTHA, WHO IS FASTING TOO

X
J

805 AM

ITS SOOO OVERCAST

I HAVENT EATEN SINCE 3PM......IM HOLDING OUT TIL SUNDOWN...
ITS HARD TO 'REFLECT"..I JUST KNOW I NEED TO SHUT MY MOUTH MORE..NOT BE SO SHARP WITH MY TONGUE AND MY EMOTIONS
ALSO I NEED TO LEAN DOWN, AND WATCH MY EMOTIONAL EATING
DEF PLAN ON SPENDING MORE TIME WITH MY SISTER AND THE BOYZZZZZ

IM OK, IM FINE

IM ALREADY HUNGRY

THE MIND
PLAYS GAMES
NOT GONNNA DO IT