725 AM

I FEEL BETTER, I GOT SOME GOOD REST.
SEEING MY DEAR FRIEND MARIA FOR BRUNCH BEFORE I SEND JILL OFF BACK TO ATL
I CANNOT WAIT TIL I GET MY SHADES UP IN MY ROOM, SO I CAN GET SOME REST.

SNL PREMIERED LAST NIGHT, HAD SOME VERY FUNNY ELEMENTS..BUT NOT NECESSARILY LAUGH OUT LOUD FUNNY....KANYE WEST WAS THE GUEST PERFORMER..AND HE DID A SKIT IN ORDER TO MAKE LIGHT OF HIS RIDICULOUS CHILDHISH BEHAVIOR AT AWARDS SHOWS, BUT IT ISNT ALL THAT AMUSING.....

LOOKING FOWARD TO WORK ON MONDAY, SO MUCH HAPPENING...LOTS AND LOTS.

ANYWAY SPEAK LATER

904 PM SATURDAY

I AM SO STRESSED OUT(AND NOT DEALING WITH IT) THAT MY EYES, AND FACE HAVE BEEN NERVOUS TWITCHING ALL DAY. I DONT FEEL STRESSED BUT SUPRESSING IT(ALLEGEDLY)....I DONT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE

I HAVE ALOT TO COME TO GRIPS WITH
I NEED TO DEAL WITH MY RELATIONSHIP ISSUES
I ALSO NEED TO BE HONEST WITH MYSELF ...BRUTALLY HONEST.

I KNOW WHAT IS NECESSARY, BUT I AM SO AFRAID OF BEING SINGLE. I HAVE A HARD TIME MEETING GUYS BECAUSE I AM NOT A STICK FIGURE, A GYM BUNNY OR A LEADING MAN TYPE. I AM JUST ME..ALWAYS WORKING....IN A BUBBLE. KNOWS TONS OF PEOPLE, BUT NO ONE REALLY KNOWS ME

I ALSO LOVE (HIM) ((ALOT))...AND SAYING GOODBYE SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE..I SAY IT, HE CHASES ME AND APOLOGIZES AND "BEGS" TO BE GIVEN ANOTHER SHOT..JUST ON ONLY ONE( TURNS INTO ONE A WEEK) AND I KEEP ON PUSHING THE LINE IN THE SAND FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY ..SOO FAR AWAY/SOMEWHERE THAT I FORGOT WHY I EVEN BOTHERED.

BOTH OF MY PARENTS SUFFERED IN BOTH THEIR FIRST AND SECOND MARRIAGES. MY SISTER SAM HAS SO MUCH TO CONTEND WITH IN HER OWN THAT I WORRY FOR HER(MORE THEN ILL ADMIT) . MY EDEST SISTER SHELLY HAS BEEN ENGAGED TWICE BUT NEVER MARRIED...AND I, HAVE NEVER HAD ANYMORE AS PERMANENT AS POOKS CANUCK.

I AM GOING TO TAKE SOEM TME AND OUT THIS ON HOLD AND SORT THRU THIS WITHOUT A PANEL VOTE; TONS OF TALKING WITH FRIENDS ABOUT SOEMTHING THAT I MUST CHOOSE FROM MY CORE. CAN I JUST BE HIS FRIEND AND HAVE BENEFITS ON THE SIDE? CAN I JUST BE HIS FRIEND AND BE THAT? CAN I BE A LOVER WITH NO STRINGS? CAN I JUST BE?

ITS TIMES LIKE THIS I WISH HE WAS HERE, TO TALK TO ABOUT ANYTHING. SITTING ON MY COUCH , WATCHIG HIM WATCH TV, HIS PROFILE, HIS LOUD LAUGH...HIM LOOKING OVER AT ME AND GRABBING MY HAND TO KISS IT AND THEN SQUEEZING IT HARD ENOUGH TO HURT...MAKING ME FEEL LOVED AND ALIVE. NOW ITS JUST TOGETHER AND ALONE..ME PUSHING HIM AWAY FOR EVERY ERROR , ME TRYING TO HURT HIM BY REMOVING MY LOVE AND SUPPORT FROM HIS AS REJECTION.

I AM GLAD JILL IS HERE, ITS KEEPING ME FOCUSED, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, ON OUR BONDING OVER 2 DECADES OF SUPER LOVING FRIENDSHIP.I WILL BE SAD TO SEE HER GO, BUT I FEEL RECHARGED BY HER LIGHT. SHE SEEMS HAPPY AND GROUNDED..AND WELL ON HER WAY AS WELL.

I CONFIDED IN HER THAT MY FRIENDSHIP WITH DARRYLL SEEM STO HAVE HOT SOME SORT OF NOTHINGNESS, AND I T CONCERNS ME.

SHE FEELS MY SITUATION WITH POOKS HAS TO CHANGE. SHE HAS BEEN VERY "TEAM POOKS" FROM THE DAY SHE MET HIM..BUT SHE HAS SEEN SOME OF THE DRAMA I CINTEND WITH, AND ADD TO..AND SHE IS LIKE " UM, NOT SO MUCH"....IS IT LIEK WATCHING A CAR CRASH IN SLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOW MOTION? OR IS IT WATCHING SOMEONE SIMPY GO THRU THE MOTINS? WHO KNOWS..I AM TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT MYSELF

ANYWAY
MY HEAD IS SLOWLY THROBBING
MY FACE IS TWITCHING
AND JILL IS LISTNEING TO USTIN TIMBERLAKE IN MY LIVING ROOM.....
I NEED TO BREATHE AND LET THIS SITUATION ISSUE BREATHE ON IT S OWN FOR A DAY OR THREE
LOVING YOU
LIVING IN THE LIGHT

J

WHEN DO YOU KNOW ITS TIME?

I HAVE SOMEONE IN MY LIFE WHO HAS BEEN MY MAN GOING ON 3 YEARS. OUR RELATIONSHIP, LIKE MANY PEOPLES RELATIONSHIPS, HAS HAD ITS UP AND DOWNS. WHEN WE FIRST MET, THERE WAS AN INSTANT CONNECTION..WE SAW EACH OTHER EVERY DAY..BECAME EACH OTHERS BEST FRIEND AND TOLD ALL THE STORIES YOU TELL EACH OTHER TO FORM THAT TRUE GROUNDED BOND
I DIDNT THINK ID EVER MEET SOMEONE LIKE HIM, AND SUDDENLY I HAD. HE WAS EVERYTHING TO ME..HE WAS LIKE A COLD DRINK OF WATER ; REVIVING ME. I HAD SPENT SO MUCH TIME WORKING ON MY CAREER; PARTYING ON WEEKENDS..NEVER STOPPING FROM WORK, TO CLUBS, ETC.....ALWAYS DISTRACTED. BUT HERE HE WAS, LOVING ME..NEEDING ME...LISETENING TO ME. I WAS GOBSMACKED. BUT WITH ALL THAT LOVE CAME THE INEVITABLE STORM. THE TSUNAMI OF INSECURITY THAT HAS FED OFF OF ME CAME EVEN HARDER..I STARTED NOT TRUSTING MYSELF, MY INSTICNTS(WHICH ALWAYS SERVED ME AT WORK) MADE ME FEEL UNWORTHY OF THIS TROPHY I HAD BY MY SIDE. WAS HE REALLY INTO ME? WAS THIS ALL AN OPPORTUNISTIC MOVE? ALL MY FRENEMIES , BITH STRAIGHT AND GAY , HAD THEIR OPINIONS, AND SHARED THEN REGARDLESS OF MY WILLINGNESS TO HEAR IT. BUT AS THEY GOT TO SEE US BE US, THEY ALL SAID" HE REALLY REALLY LOVES YOU"..LOVES ME? ME? FAT JASON KANNER? WELL WOW, I GUESS THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS....

WHEN YOU DATE SOMEONE WHO LIVES DEEP IN THE CLOSET, YOU HAVE TO EXPECT ALOT OF DISAPPOINTMENT. I DIDNT CARE(BUT I REALLY DID). WHEN YOU LIE TO YOURSELF, ITS THE MOST MALIGNANT BETRAYAL TO YOUR HEART. YOU MAKE A DEAL WITH YOUR SUBCONCIOUS THAT YOU CAN BLOCK YOU FEELINGS..BUT ITS WEAKENS YOUR SPIRIT. I THOUGHT I COULD DO IT. ACT LIKE WE WERE FRIENDS TO THE PUBLIC, TWO STEPS BEHIND..IN FRONT OF...NEVER HAND IN HAND....IN FRONT OF MY FREINDS WHO WERE "SAFE" WE WERE THE AFFECTIONATE ENVY OF ALL. THE SCRIPT WOUDL FLIP ON A DIME..BUT HOW CAN YOU REALLY ROLL LIKE THAT. I THOUGHT I COULD TURN IT ON AND OFF..BUT I COULDNT. AND BECUASE I TOLD THAT LIKE, IT MADE ME RESENTFUL. AND THAT MANIFESTED IN ANGER. ANGER AT HIM FOR "MAKING ME" LIVE A LIE. ANGRY AT MYSELF ( SO LETS EAT SOME MORE!) FOR ONCE AGAIN BEING IN A HALF OF A RELATIONSHIP. DREADING THE INEVITABLE DISUSSSIONS WITH HIM WHICH WOULD BE MET WITH QUIET APOLOGIES AND INACTION.

NOW WE ARE THREE YEARS DEEP AND I AM STILL IN LOVE, BUT HATE THIS MAN. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO LOVE SOMEONE AND HATE THEM AT THE SAME TIME? ITS SOUNDS LYRICAL, BUT IT ISNT. ITS CONFUSING AND DESTRUCTIVE. I WANT MY LIFE TO SOUND LIEK A JILL SCOTT LOVESONG. " A LONG WALK" , ONE OF HER FIRST SINGLES, TO ME IS PURE LOVE. I SPEAKS OF JUST BEING INTOXICATED BY THE NEWNESS OF A NEW RELATIONSHIP..BUT ALSO ABOUT FINDING THE THINGS YOU LIEK TO DO TOGWTHER AND DOING IT OPENLY..TAKING A LONG WALK, AFTER DARK, AROUND THE PARK....AND WITH MY MAN WE NEVER DID THAT. WE BOTH USED OUR SHAME TO STAY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP. HE LIVES A LIE( FAMILY CANT KNOW HE CREEPS WITH MEN, NOR HIS FRIENDS) AND HAS SHAME...I COSIGN THAT IT S OK TO HIDE IN YOUR CLOSET BECUASE I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO SEE YOU SUFFER ,AND I HATE MYSELF ENOUGHT TO SWALLOW THIS PILL OF SUFFERING. NO, HE DIDNT ASK ME TO DO THIS...BUT HE MADE SURE I WAS HOOKED ON HIM,LIKE A DRUG BEFORE ALL THIS MADNESS ENSUED.

WHAT DO I DO> BE FIERCE, TAKE A STAND..BE ALONE? I AM TRED OF BEING ALONE...I FEEL ALONE WITH HIM, BUT I FEEL SO ALONE WITHOUT HIM? DOES IT MAKE SENSE? IT DOESNT TO ME EITHER SO DONT FEEL ODD ..I BARELY GET IT MYSELF.

I WANT HIM, BUT ALL OF HIM . I ALSO WANT ME TO BE STRONG AND INDEPENDENT. HOW DID MY LOVELIFE BECOME SO MESSY? WHY IS IT SO? IF YOU AER OUT THERE AND YOU HAVE SOME SUGGESTIONS..I AM OPEN TO HEAR IT

LOVE AND LIGHT

11 22PM BACK FROM MR CHOW

HAD SUCH A GREAT DINNER
LOV EMY JILL

MR CHOW ON 57TH IS DEFINITELY SOME OF THE BEST EATING IN NYC
THE CHICKEN SATAY IS LIKE A BLOWJOB FOR YOUR SOUL

ITS EVERYTHING

ABOUT TO WATCH SOME TV AND DECOMPRESS FROM THIS DAY OF FABULOSITY

GETTING JILL INTO AMY WINEHOUSE,,,,SHE IS LOVING THE FIRST ALBUM "FRANK"

I AM OFF

XX'S AND OO'S

845 PM jill is here

JILL IS HERE
ITS BEEN A WONDERFUL DAY
DRAMA
WITH MY MAN
BUT JILL IS HERE, ALL IS WELL

JUST HAD A TONS OF COSMOS AT THE RITZ
HEADING TO CHOWS ON 57TH STREET

CANT WAIT FOR MY SATAY

GAGING

LOVE 2 LOVE U

10 56 PM..THURSDAY

EXHAUSTED
WHAT A DAY

IMG IS BEING COOL ABOUT HONORING OUR OPTIONS EVEN THOUGH WE DROPPED CLINT. AL DAVID IS STILL SPINNING. MICHELE POMMIER IS LIVING FOR THIS..AND WE R ALL LIKE,,HUH? WE DROPPED A PROBLEM, RID OURSELVES OF A CANCER..NOT A BIG ASS DRAMA HERE.

I AM WATCHING THE VIEW WHILE TYPING..ELIZABETH HASSLEBACK IS REALLY A RETARD. WHAT AN ASS!!!! SHE HAS A STORY TO TELL , ALWAYS HAS A COMMENT TO ADD..YET NOTHING OF ANY SOCIAL RELEVANCE. WHY IS SHE ON TV? SHE IS A "TALENT'!

BARBRA WALTERS HAS LOST ALL CREDIBILTY..TIME TO RETIRE GIRL

ANYHOO.JILL IS HERE AROUND 945/10
POOKS AND I ARE TAKING HER TO MR CHOW TOMORROW(CANT WAIT)

POLAROIDED A BUNCH OF GUYS TODAY FOR VARIOUS JOBS WE ARE WORKING ON...EXCITING NEWS COMING DOWN THE PIKE FOR BLAINE COOK. CANT WAIT TIL WE ANNOUNCE IT

NATHAN NESBITT WAS 1 OF 3 GUYS SHOOTING EMPORIO ARMANI, BUT THEY SENT THE OTHER 2 POOR BASTARDS HOME..AND SHOOTING ALL PICS ON NATEY..VERY EXCITING

SEAN HARJU HAS SHOOT OLD NAVY,, AMERICAN EAGLE AND DIESEL IN THE PAST 2 WEEKS..NUTSO

BOOKED JEREMY SIMPSON, SIMON AND TYLER LOUGH FOR ABERCROMBIE...TYLER ALSO SHOT THE POLO RUGBY CAMPAIGN WITH ARNALDO ANAYA LUCCA..ALONGSIDE MICHAEL LEMBO ( WHO JUST HAS A BABY ..CONGRATS)

WE BE BZ BOO

I AM OFF

FRESH DIRECT IS BEING DELIVERED...HAD TO STOCK UP


OOOH MOST IMPORTANTLY..I HAD LUNCH WIHT MY DEAR DEAR FRIEND HILARY SKLAR...SO GREAT TO RECONNECT ..SHE HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND CHARLOTTE FROM WILLIAMSBURG..LOVE LOVE THAT

TRIPLE LOVING U ALL

NITERS

J

THURSDAY 8 32 AM

HIYA

24 HRS AND COUTING UNTIL JILL COMES
EXCITING I MUST SAY!

POOKS SPENT THE NIGHT, IT SNICE TO HAVE THE PLACE TO MYSELF..NO OFFFENSE
CANNOT WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND..STILL TRYING TO PLAN WHAT JILL AND I WILL BE DOING

MY SISTER SAMANTHA TOLD ME THAT YESTERDAYS OPRAH IS A MUST WATCH .SO I WILL TONIGHT
I AM HAVING DINNER WITH TERRON WOOD, BUT LUNCH WITH Y DEAR FRIEND HILARY.I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER

OFF TO SHOWER THEN TO WORK
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11 35 pm..getting ready for bed

LONG DAY
LOOKING FOWARD TO SLEEPING

JILL COMES FRIDAY CANNNNNT WAIT

PEREZ HILTON RAPPING ON MTV
SCARY AS ALL HELL
WHATS THE WORLD COMING TO

FUCKING EH

WEDENSDAY 6 47 PM

JUST GOT HOME

WHY IS IT HOT AGAIN
I HAVE WHITNEY HOUSTON FLOPSWEAT
NOT CUTE


LONG LONG DAY
NATE IS SHOOTING EMPORIO ARMANI TODAY
TRES EXCITING.

LOTS OF GREAT OPTIONS...SO MUCH GOING ON
RALPH LAUREN IS LAUNCHING A NEW FRAGRANCE..TRYING TO WORK ON THAT ASAP


XXOO

J

NEW CD'S

HI

BOUGHT THE NEW KEISHA COLE, JILL SCOTT..WILLI AM

NOT THRILLED
I AM A HUGE JILL SCOTT FAN

BUT THIS ALBUM IS TOOOO MELLLOW

POLO WRAP DINNER

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR:

BENNY ESKRIDGE
ABIGAIL THOMPSON
TERRON WOOD
TRAVIS DAVENPORT
ROBYN SINCLAIR

AFTER GOING THRU THE DOUCHE OF A WEEK, IT WAS NICE TO BE AROUND SOME MODELS WHO...(TRUMPETS SALUTE) ACTUALLY APPRECIATE THEIR AGENT AND THE WORK. YES I SAID IT, CAN YOU IMAGINE..UNJADED MODELS WHO ACTUALLY SMILE, ENGAGE YOU AND CAN SPEAK ABOUT OTHER THINGS THEN ABOUT THEMSELVES...I KNOW..ITS ALOT...ANYHOO

HAD A GREAT DINNER AT OLD HOMESTEAD(THANKS POLO) AND THEN DRINKS AT OUR USUAL WATERING HOLE..LA BOTTGEA AT THE MARITIME. HAD TOO MUCH TO DRINK AND DIPPED..HAD DOUGHNUTS MILK AND WATER(CLASSY) AND MUST HAVE PASSED OUT

WHY DO I DRUNK TEXT? WHATS THE HIDDEN DEMON..UGH..MORE CHANTING IS NEEDED....I NEED MY PHONE TAKEN FROM ME, AFTER DRINK 4....PLEASE ANYONE LISTENING?LOL

HAD LUNCH WITH THE LEGENDARY CHRIS COLLINS. HE IS A PERSONAL FAVE..ANYONE WHO THINKS I AM VERY DIFFCULT TO DEAL WITH , MAY BE RIGHT..BUT I AM A PUSHOVER FOR CHRIS COLLINS. HE IS A CLASSY( I AM SOUNDING LIKE TRUMP) STAND UP GENTLEMAN AND ITS TRULY BEEN A PRIVLEDGE WORKING WITH HIM FOR THESE PAST 12 YEARS....AND TODAY I HAVE LUNCH WITH THE SOON TO BE A LEGEND CHAD WHTE....LOTS OF LUNCHES..I PREFER BREAKFAST MEETINGS AT THE MERCER WHEN TESTINO IS IN TOWN..THE BREAKFAST AT MERCER IS EVERYTHING, BUT WHEN MARIO TESTINO AND MARC JACOBS ARE STAYING THERE, ITS ALOT OF COOL PEOPLE CHILLING AND A LOT OF BUSINESS GETS DONE..LOVE IT

MARIO IS REALLY FEELING SOME OF OUR NEW GUYS
JEREMY SIMPSON
CALVIN BODHAN
BLAINE
SIMON NESSMANN
NATE



CANT WAIT TO GET TO WORK

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OOOOH AND ALSO....HE HAS FLIPPED FOR ORAINE BARRET( SO EXCITING)

FLIPPIN THE SCRIPT

SORRY THAT ITS BEEN A COUPLE OF DAYS
I HAVE BEEN BZ , AND WORK IS ALWAYS A PRIORITY.

AFTER MUCH DEBATE, KATIA AND I DECIDED, ALONG WITH THE SUPPORT OF MAGGIE AND TOM TO"DROP" CLINT MAURO.
THE RELATIONSHIP WAS DOOMED FROM THE START.....AL , MY FRENEMY, DOING HIS USUAL POISONING OF THE MOND TO HIS LATEST OBSESSION WHO IS CLINT

PLEASE TAKE A MOMENT TO LOOK AT THE INSANE BIOGRAPHY ON CLINTMAURO.COM
THAT WILL TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IN REGADS TO AL AND HIS "THING" FOR CLINT

I HAVE DONE A STAND UP JOB FOR CLINT, ONLY TO BE MET WITH HIS VERSION OF BEING ALOOF AND DISTANT.
AL MADE A SERIOUS POWER MOVE AND WHEN IT BACKFIRED , I WAS THROWN UNDER THE BUS..BUT NOT REALLY ..THIS TIME RATHER THEN BEING EMOTIONALLY TORTURED BY AL FOR WEEKS..WE DECEIDED TO FLIP THE SCRIPT AND DROP HIM.....CLEAR AND SIMPLE..NO DRAMA..BUT BECAUSE AL CANT HANDLE NOT BEING IN CONTROL OF EVERY ASPECT OF EVERY SITUATION HE HAS LOST HIS EVER LOVING MIND. BUT , WHAT CAN I SAY? IF YOU PLAN ON TOYING WITH GROWN PEOPLE, YOU MAY JUST FIND YOURSELF ASS OUT.

I CANT SAY IF CLINT IS A GOOD GUY OR A BAD GUY HERE, AS I REALLY HAVE NO RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM. HE HADNT CHECKED IN WITH US FOR QUITE A FEW DAYS PRIOR TO THE DEVASTATIING NEWS(BEING SARCASTIC) THAT HE GOT RELEASED FROM AN OPTION. I GUESS SOME PEOPLE JUST WANT TO WIN WIN WIN, AND DONT REALIZE IN ORDER TO WIN YOU MUST LOSE ALSO, ITS CALLED COMPETITION..ANYHOO...I DO KNOW THAT CLINT DID CALL A CLIENT OF MINE, WHO IS ALSO A FRIEND, TO TRASH ME TO THEM, WHICH I THINK FURTHER DISTANCED US FROM EVER FINDING A MEETING POINT.

I KNEW MONTHS AGO THAT MY WORK RELATIONSHIP COULD NEVER LAST WITH CLINT. AS GREAT LOOKING AS HE IS,HIS LACK OF RESPECT TO ME, AND MY TEAM WAS A BONE OF MUCH CONTENSION IN OUR OFFICE. WHEN HE MADE AN ATTEMPT TO THANK US, AL WAS QUICK TO TELL US IT WAS HIS IEA FOR HIM TO SEND US CANDY..HOW SAD. AL MUST HAVE THE"BIGGEST DICK" IN THE ROOM AT ALL TIMES..BIG EGO, LITTLE DICK I AM SURE..

WHEN CLINT LET KATIA HAVE IT, THATS WHEN THE LINE IN THE SAND TRULY WAS DRAWN.WHO SPEAKS TO A WOEN LIEK THAT, F**K THIS, AND F**K YOU, SHE WAS IN TEARS...AND THEN SEND HER FLOWERS, LIEK THATS IS WIFE...IT WA DONE THAT LAST THURSDAY.

NOW CLINT WILL WIND UP WITH A PASSIONLESS AGENT IN NYC WHO WILL CAPITALIZE QUICKLY IN HIS AX SUCCESS, AND THEN HE WIL FIZZLE OUT FASTER THEN MOST..AS HE WORKS THRU AND IN HIS KARMA. I DO REALLY WISH HIM WELL, AND MEAN IT....HOPEFULLY CLINT CAN SEE, IN LESS THEN 16 MTHS AL HAS PULLED HIM FROM PAUL NELSON, IMG, SOON DAVID AT NOUS..AND NOW WE DROPPED HIM...SOMETHING MUST BE AWRY. BUT I DOUBT CLINT LOOKS MUCH PAST HIS MIRROR TO SEE THE TRUTH.

I KNOW MY FAULT IN THIS AND KNOW I WILL DEAL WTH TOSE CONSEQUENCES. I TRADED MY SENSE (SOMETIMES) TO REP WHAT I THINK TO BE THE BEST MODELS. KNOWING THAT SOMEONE WHO WAS FEEDING THEM TRULY HATED ME OUT OF PURE JEALOUSLY..NOT FRIENDSHIP, NOT EVEIL EITHER.

AL AND I HAVE HAD PROBABLY ONE OF THE MOST TWISTED AND DISHONEST FRIENDSHIS. TOO MUCH TO GET INTO, BUT LETS JUST SAY ID RATHER HAVE "LESSER" MODELS THEN DO ANY MORE BUSINESS WITH HIM AGAIN

HE PLAYS THE VICTIM, AS I AM THE DEVIL. BUT THE TRUTH IS THE TRUTH,,AND I KNOW THAT AL'S OBSESSION WITH ALL THINGS CLINT, AN ALLTHINGS MAJOR, AND ALL THINGS JASON HAVE BEEN DESTROYED.

THE JIG IS UP

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SUNDAY 4 31 PM

WHAT A FRIGGIN GORGEOUS SUNDAY

WALKED BY THE WATER
GOT SOME SUN, BOUGHT NEW VOGUE

ITS A GOOD SUNDAY

WHY IS ANNA WINTOUR MAKING DAVID SIMS TAKE STEVEN MEISEL STYLE PICS? I DONT GET IT
THE NEW VOGUE IS NOT ALL THAT

MEISEL SHOULD HAVE SHOT THAT COUTURE STORY...LOVE SIMS,,BUT ITS ABOUT MOVEMENT IN THE STUDIO FOR HIM
THE STORY IS MISSING THAT MEISEL POLISH..AND ITS VOUGUE..ITS MANDATORY

MS WINTOUR TRIED IT WITH MCDEAN, WITH KLEIN AND NOW WITH SIMS..AND ITS NEVER GOING TO BE STEVEN MEISEL LEVEL...HE IS THE SHT, THE POO..THE MEISEL

LIKED THE CHARLIZE THERON LIFESTYLE COVER STORY BY TESTINO. USUAL CHIC AND MARIOS SEXY PLUCK....

TOMORROW NUMERO HOMMES WILL BE WAITING ON MY DESK
RYAN DAHARSH, ROBYN SINCLAIR , CHRIS DATTOLLA AND EDDIE TUCKER ARE ALL IN IT..CANNOT WAIT!

SPOKE WITH PAUL N FROM LA,HE GAVE ME SOME NEEDED GUIDANCE AND ADVICE ON MY ISSUE WITH NIPSEY RUSSEL AND HIS MANNEQUIN ...NEEDED THAT .

POOKS AND I ARE HAVING SOME GROWING PAINS, BUT ITS DEFINITELY GROWING APART

TTYL

TOOK THE BATH: FEELING LIKE A CHAMP

HEY YA

ITS TIME TO MAKE BOLD MOVES,AND STAND IN TRUTH

I DONT HAVE TO BE THE BEST
I DONT HAVE TO BE A COUPLE
I DONT HAVE TO BE FAT
I DONT HAVE TO WORRY

CHOICES
WHATS IT WORTH?
DO THEY MAKE OR DEFINE YOU?

I WANT TO BE MORE THEN MY WORK, MORE THEN MY CHOICES
I WONT SELL MYSELF SHORT FOR MY CAREER
MY EGO

E
G
O

EVERYBODYS GOT ONE

EGO BLOCK THE LIGHT
IN ALL OF US
AND IN ME

THE OPPOSITE OF IT
INSECURITY

YING YANG

PREFER BEING WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE
ON TIME

STOP THE WORRING
THE MADNESSS
PERHAPS, THE SHAME

IT AINT ALL BAD
SO MUCH GOOD AND LIGHT

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NIGHTNIGHT

6 02 PM SATURDAY

FEELING LIKE A SCHMO

WISH I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO STAY FASTING TIL SUNSET
I DID CLEAR 22 23 HRS..BUT I WOUDL HAVE PREFERRED TO WAIT TIL SUNDOWN
NEXT YR FOR SHIZZ

STORY OF MY LIFE, NOT FINISHING THINGS
THAT NEEDS 2 CHANGE

NEED TO SHAVE MY HEAD, AND SOAK IN THE TUB TIL CAMERONS B DAY PARTAY

LOVE THAT KID!

F**K

I LASTED TO 130

IT IS WHAT IT I

LIVING FOR

PEOPLE WHO R DISCIPLINED

12 47PM REALLY HUNGRY

ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS FOOD
IM WAITING TIL 230 AND IM EATING

LEAVE ME ALONE IM STARVING

11 58, AND I HAVENT EATEN SINCE 2 30 YESTERDAY, NO EVEN SIPPED WATER
I HAVE A HEADACHE AND IM NONE TOO HAPPY

I DO APPERCIATE THAT I COULD JUST GET UP AND GO TO KITCHEN AND JUST CHOW...BUT I CANT. I AM REPENTING....

ITS NOT AWFUL, BUT I COULD REALLY USE SOME FOOD....
SHOUT OUT TO MY SISTER SAMANTHA, WHO IS FASTING TOO

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805 AM

ITS SOOO OVERCAST

I HAVENT EATEN SINCE 3PM......IM HOLDING OUT TIL SUNDOWN...
ITS HARD TO 'REFLECT"..I JUST KNOW I NEED TO SHUT MY MOUTH MORE..NOT BE SO SHARP WITH MY TONGUE AND MY EMOTIONS
ALSO I NEED TO LEAN DOWN, AND WATCH MY EMOTIONAL EATING
DEF PLAN ON SPENDING MORE TIME WITH MY SISTER AND THE BOYZZZZZ

IM OK, IM FINE

IM ALREADY HUNGRY

THE MIND
PLAYS GAMES
NOT GONNNA DO IT

CURB YOUR ENTHUSIASM

CATCHING UP ON IT

SO BRIZZILIANT

655 PM SUNSET YOM KIPPUR STARTS

ITS THE DAY OF REPENTING

AND ALTHOUGH I DONT DO PEOPLE DIRTY, I DO HAVE A MOUTH ON ME, AND AT TIMES I CROSS THE LINE WITH IT

FOR THAT AND IN HONOR OF MY MOTHER
THE BEAUTIFUL BERNICE GLUCKMAN, I WILL FAST AND REPENT.SHE IS MISSED BY ALL OF US!!!!!!
I WONT BE EATING,,,IF I DO ..ILL THINK OF MOM AND NOT DO IT! EAT NO NO NO
BUT I WILLBE WATCHING TV., MOVIES ETC
READING BLOGGING
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, OBSERVING WHERE I AM AT WITH MY JUDIASM, IN MY SOUL
AND WORKING OUT MY KARMA

HERES TO A HEALTHFUL AND SMARTER NEW YEAR FOR ALL JEWS AND THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE THEM
LETS HOPE FOR A MORE PEACEFUL, HONEST AND TOLERANT WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

LOVE AND LIGHT

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR

HILLARY CLINTON

OPRAH WINFREY

STEVE JOBS

HARVEY WEINSTEIN

JULIUS POLLE

MARK FOLTZ

DAMON WILLIS

BLAINE COOK

SARAH HAMILTON BAILEY

JESSICA ROVINS

MATTHEW SCRIVENS

LAST MINUTE BOOKINGS UGH

OK
SO SEAN H IS GETTING BOOKED FOR DIESEL JEANS WITH LAURIE BARTLEY
IN LA
CANT FIND A FLIGHT AND HE HAS TO LEAVE NOW!
HE IS THERE FOR A DAY
THWN HAS TO FLY TO MIAMI TO WORK WITH MATT JONES

OY YO YOY

CNN

HI

I AM WATCHING CNN

MIT STUDENT WALKS INTO LOGAN AIRPORT WITH BOMB STRAPPED TO HER CHEST
ITS FAKE, SAYS IT ART

NOOSES AROUND TREES AND BACK OF TRUCKS IN LOUSIANA
SICK WORLD

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO US?

820 AM...UP AND AT EM

TAKING A DAY OFF
PREPARING FOR YOM KIPPOR
TAKING KIDS TO SAN GENNARO TONIGHT

THE PRES OF IRAN IS STAYING NEXT DOOR TO MY HOUSE FOR UNITED NATIONS SUMMIT
I LIVE NEXT DOOR, LITERALLY , TO THE RITZ CARLTON..THAT IS WHERE HE IS STAYING

ITS GOING TO BE MADNESS

ILL BEBLOGGING ALL DAY

IM TALKING SQUARE BIZ

HEY

JUST GOT HOME 745 PM

BZ DAY AT WORK..THE USUAL GRIND BUT AMPED UP

HAPPY TO BE RID OF THE SCAVANGER AND HIS DIGITALLY ENHANCED MANNEQUIN...I WONT BE TREATED POORLY..GROW UP AND TAKE YOUR POOR DECISION LIKE A MAN; I CERTAINLY STAND BY MINE

TONS OF SHYT GOING ON
I THINK BLAINE HAS SOMETHING MAYJAH MAYJAH GOIN DOWN

OUT NEW BRIT TOBY IS THE POOH..AMAZING..CANT WAIT TIL PEOPLE MEET HIM THIS COMING WEEK
TYLER KENYON HAS SOME SERIOUS BUZZ AS DOES TYLERR SCEVERS NEW COIF.

JUSTIN T SEEMS TO BE BACK IN THE SWING OF THINGS, WORKING..CONTENTED...AS IS WHELAN AND ISA RAHMAN

SEAN H IS WORKING DAILY..AS IS TERRON WOOD. MIKE ATLMAN , THE LEGENDARY CHRIS COLLISN, DAMON &WADE ARE SEEMINGLY MODELING ROBOTS WORKING AND MAKING THAT LETTUCE(LOL)

I AM JUMPING IN TO MY TUB AND SOAKING..THEN DIN DIN WITH POOKS AT SOMEPLACE YUMMY AND HAVE A FEW BEVVYS AND LET THIS DAY WASH AWAY

LOVING YOU AND LOVING THE LIGHT
TOMORROW NIGHT I FAST AND I AM LIVE BLOGGING THAT EXPERIENCE ON SATURDAY
SHOULD BE INTERESTING


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733 AM UP

HI
HAD A LONG RESTFUL SLEEP
BOTH TUESDAY AND WEDNESDAY I WALKED 2 MILES EACH DAY TOWARDS WORK..TODAY I AM TAKING THE DAY OFF.
GLAD TO BE RID OF AL AND ALL THAT THAT COMES WITH. ITS LEIF STACEY ALL OVER AGAIN..AND THERE IS NO WAY I AM GOING TO FIGHT THAT FIGHT ANYMORE.

HAVE LUNCH WITH LUCAS TODAY..AND POOKS AND I ARE HAVING A NIGHT ALONE.

YOM KIPPUR IS SATURDAY, AND I AM FASTING (ONLY WATER) AND THEN ITS CAMERONS BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY.

IT SEEMS TO BE SHAPING UP TO BE ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL DAY IN NYC.

SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO MAKE A BRAVE STEP TO ELIMINATE CHAOS FROM YOUR LIFE. LORD KNOWS, I HAVE PLENTY..BUT SOME CHAOS IS RELEVANT, SOME TOXIC. NO MORE TOXIC CHAOS.

GOTTA GET UP AND GET MOVIN

TTYL

GOSSIP GIRL

KINDA GOOOOOOD

IT IS WHAT IT IS

ONE OF THE MOT INFURIATING THINGS THAT OCCUR IN THIS BUSINESS IN WHEN A MODEL GETS DRUNK WITH THEIR SUCCESS. THEY BELIEVE THIER OWN HYPE, AND SUBSEQUENTLY , FUCK THEMSELVES

IF YOU MAKE A POWER MOVE, TAKE RESPONSIBILTY FOR IT..IF YOU SCREW UP, TAKE IT LIKE A CHAMP
SIGNING A FEW AUTOGRAPHS DOESNT MAKE YOU A STAR....STARS ARE IN THE SKY

BOTH FEET ON THE GROUND
GRACIOUSNESS
HONESTY
HAVING THE SMARTS TO KNOW WHATS REALLY UP
AND BE CONCIOUS OF WHATS BEING DONE FOR YOU
YOU MAY HAVE BEEN TAINTED TO NOT LIKE WHO IS WORKING, REALLY WORKING..NOT JERKING YOU...BUT WHEN YOU REALIZE THE TRUTH YOU ARE USUALLY SOULLESSROADKILL

YOU CANT EXPECT TO ONLY TAKE, AND GIVE NOTHING BACK
THE UNIVERSE HAS A DARK SENSE OF HUMOUR AND WILL TAKE WHAT WAS GIVEN FROM YOU ..IT S IS OUT OF YOUR CONTROL WHEN YOU ARE OUT OF CONTROL...SORROW THIS MORROW..

LISTEN TO THE SECOND RATE SCAVENGER..EATING OFF YOUR CARCASS FOR HIS PERCENTAGE...HE HAS FEASTED ON MY AN ERECT GLOSSY 8 X 10 OF HIS MASSACRES..HOLDING THEGLOSSY OF YOUR HEAD BY GETTING IN YOUR HEAD, AND MAYBE GIVING YOU HEAD..SELL YOUR SOUL TO THE DEVIL, AND BABY YOU LOST YOUR SOUL

GOOD RIDDANCE TO OLD RUBBISH

PE

WEDNESDAY 6 58 AM

JUST WOKE UP
MARIA MY HOUSEKEEPER COMES TODAY..ALTHOUGH MY PLACE IS SPOTLESS
I THINK I AM GOING TO WALK AGAIN FOR AN HOUR TODAY

NEED TO CHECK MY TONSILS WITH MY DOCTOR

USUAL WORK EMAILS. NOTHING MAYJAH

IM OFF

11 27 BED

THAT CHRIS CROCKER SHIT ON YOU TUBE IS SO HILARIOUS
WHAT A MESS
COURTNEY LOVE CRAZY
KIND OF BRILL THOUGH

FUNNY
SCARY

WORKS

8 07 pm HOME

LONG DAY
VERY FULFILLING THOUGH
NATE IS SHOOTING PRECOLLECTION ARMANI WITH MERT N MARCUS
AND EMPORIO ARMANI WITH ALASDAIR MCLLELAN

CLINT GOT PRECOLLECTION WITH M AND M AS WELL

WALKED FROM BATTERY PARK TO CHRISTOPHER STREET. ONE HR STRAIGHT..FELT GREAT
MET WITH JON AND STEPAHNIE PASSAVANT FOR AGREAT LUNCH

ATE CHINEESE , WATCHING JENNY MCCARTHY ON OPRAH...ABOUT AUTISM
PICKED UP THE NEW POP MAGAZINE...AMAZING JOSH OLINS STORY BY ANDREW DAVIS

BOTH BEN AND I ARE EXHAUSTED, SO WE ARENT GOING TO CHRIS BOALS' B IRTHDAY 2NITE.
TOMORROW NIGHT I SEE POOKS, I THINK

I THINK SAM AND I ARE TAKING THE KIDS TO SAN GENNARO FESTIVAL THURSDAY. COULD BE FUN
I HATE TO SOUND LIKE A ALTA CACCA BUT MAN, THE WEATHER IS AMAZING IN NYC RIGHT NOW

ANYWAY SPEAK SOON

TUESDAY 636 AM..UP

UGH

I AM UP ALREADY..I NEED SHADES FOR THIS FRIGGIN BEDROOM
HAD A NICE QUIET NITE
HAD CRAZY DREAMS, NOTHING I FEEL OK ABOUT WRITING HERE.
LOOKS LIKE IT IS GOING TO BE ANOTHER GORGEOUS DAY , YOU CAN JUST TELL BY THE SUNRISE..

CHECKED EMAILS AGAON
MAX NEEDS NATE TO FLY TODAY TO IBIZA FOR ARMANI
BLAINE IS DOING WELL FOR UK SHOWS

TONIGHT IS GQ PARTY...50 YR ANNIVERSARY..NOT GOING...SEEING CHRIS BOALS INSTEAD FOR HER B DAY. KANYE WEST IS PERFORMING..BUT I WIL PASS.

MUST WORK OUT THIS MORNING.

X
J

LIVING FOR

CATHERINE TATE
GENIUS COMIC IN THE VEIN OF JENNIFER SAUNDERS..GENIUS

737 PM HOME

LONG DAY
LOTS GOING ON
NATE GOT ARMANI WITH MERT N MARCUS THRU MILAN..VERY EXCITING
ROBYN TERRON AND TRAVIS GOT CONFIRMED FOR POLO SPRING 08 WITH ARNALDO ANATA LUCCA
WAITING TO HEAR IF CLINT GOT DOLCE PACKAGING THRU WHYNOT

TOMORROW IS CHRIS BOALS' BIRTHDAY....GOING WITH BEN
I TOOK A CAB HOME, AND ROLLED DOWN THE WINDOW AND LET THE COOL RUSH OF AIR REINVIGORATE ME.I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR IN NYC..ITS COOL, CLEAN AND THE NEW SEASON AWAITS.

ORDERING IN..COULD BE CHINEESE(LOVE) OR MEXICAN

I MISS MY JENN DANSKA, MY HEART......SHE STARTED OFF AS ONE OF MY FIRST ASSISTANTS WHEN WE WERE BOTH KIDS, AND TURNED INTO LIFELONG FRIENDS, TRUE FAMILY. COULDNT PICTURE MY LIFE WITHOUT HER IN IT, HER HEART, HER SMARTS, HER SOUL AND STYLE...SEE YOU SOON TOO!

WELL, I AM OFF TIL TOMORROW
ENJOY

MONDAY MONDAY

ITS 733AM
CHECKED MY EMAILS
THE USUAL SUSPECTS:

MAX FROM D MANAGEMENT..MORE OPTIONS ON NATE NEBITT
PATRICIA FROM BANANAS...RYAN SYNDER

I HAVE TO WORK OUT THIS MORNING..BUT I AM WAKING UP TIRED AGAIN.
WORK SHOULD BE BUSY, IT ALWAYS IS!

I EMAILED A BUNCH A PICS OF NEW GUYS WE HAVE TYLER KENYON, JEREMY SIMPSON THAT JOE LALLI SHOT OVER THE WEEKEND AND ANDREW DAVIS FROM ARENA ALREADY RESPONDED ABOUT TYLER..DOPE! WOULD BE PRETTY GENIUS IF YOUR FIRST EDITORIAL BOOKING WAS FOR ARENA MAGAZINE!

LOOKS LIKE CHAD WHITE IS HEADING TO LONDON TONIGHT TO DO THIS HUGE FASHION SHOW THAT NAOMI CAMPBELL IS PUTTING ON..

MY A/C IS ON IN MY BEDROOM IS ITS FREEZING..JUST LIKE I LIKE IT..BUT DAMN ITS COOOOOLD.
NEXT DOOR TO ME, THERE IS A NEW BUILDING BUILT..THEY SURE DO THIS PRETTY FAST THESE DAYS. IT SEEM SONLY DAYS AGO THEY WERE LAYING THE FOUNDATION, NOW ITS 25 FLOORS AT LEAST ABOVE THAT.

CAMERONS BIRTHDAY IS ON SATURDAY AND I AM PLANNING HIS DINNER PARTY. SHOULD BE A HOOT. I NEED TO GET TICKETS TO SEE TEH CURE NEXT MONDAY AT MSG. NOTE TO SELF!

ANYHOO, I AM OFF..HAVE A GOOD ONE

LIVE BLOGGING

AS I AM TYPING, MY BODY DOUBLE, CHAD WHITE , IS READING MY BLOG, DEVOURING IT.
I BET HE IS WORRYING THAT I WRITE NOTHING SCANDLOUS ABOUT HIM

EMMYS PART DEUX

OK, IS IT ME OR DOES JOELY FISHER LOOK AMAZING! MOTHER HOOD IS THE BEAUTY SECRET....AND AGUILERA GLOWED.
I MUST SAY THAT HEIDI KLUM NEVER LOOKED BETTER AS WELL

EMMY BEST DRESSED

I HAVE TO SAY , SOME OF THESE BITCHES FINALLY GOT A CLUE

LOTS OF WELL DRESSED MAMAS

BEST DRESSED TO ME

ALI LARTER
ANA ORTIZ
VANESSA WILIAMS ( REDEEMED FROM LAST YEARS HEINOUSNESS)
SANRDA OH ..SHE JUST GETS IT



THATS IT SO FAR

GENIUS MODELS OF ALL TIME..LEGENDARY

THIS WILL BE ONGOING

CHRISTY TURLINGTON..THE ONE AND ONLY

LINDA EVANGELISTA...THE MADONNA OF MODELING

MARCUS SCHENKENBERG...THE ORIGINAL

SUSAN HOLMES

NIKI TAYLOR

ROBERTA CHIRKO

RHOSHUMBA

SEBASTIAN CARDIN

BRYAN RANDALL

CARLA BRUNI

EMMA BALFOUR

CINDY CRAWFORD

JANICE DICKINSON ..SHE WAS FIERCE, NOW A TRAINWRECK WITH NO SOUL

PADMA LASHMI

DAVID BOALS..NOW A DAD, AND STILL HOT

JOHN PEARSON

STEPHANIE JAMES

BERI SMITHER ..BACK IN THE DAY

CHRIS COLLINS..THE EMBODIMENT OF "LEGENDARY"

TALISA SOTO...BRUCE WEBER DID A VOGUE COVER OF HER IN 89 THAT IS STILL ONE OF THE BEST VOGUE COVERS EVER

JOHN FRANCIS

SCOTT BENOIT

KATE MOSS....MILF

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR

THEE ARE SOME PEOPLE THAT I AM LIVING FOR LATELY

KIMORA LEE SIMMONS...LLLLLLLLIVING.
HAVE YOU ALL BEEN WATCHING HER SHOW ON STYLE? GENIUS.....SHE IS LOUIS VUITTONS NUMBER 1 CLIENT IN NORTH AMERICA. WOW

ROSIE O DONNELL..BRAVE HONEST OPEN...CONNECTING TO THE "LIGHT"..CHECK OUT HER SITE WWW.ROSIE.COM ..HER BLOG IS EPIC

PEREZ HILTON..SHARP. BRILLIANT..REINVENTING THE WHEEL

THE "NEW" MARC JACOBS...WOW, A HOTTIE GROWS ON 7TH AVENUE

JENNIFER HUDSON SIGNING ON FOR SEX AND THE CITY..FIERCE

AMY WINEHOUSE...A LOVE A HOT MESS, AND I LOVE A VOICE DRENCHED IN SOUL...THATS AMY WINEHOUSE IN A SOUND BITE. GET HER FIRST ALBUM "FRANK"..AWESOME BEFORE HER "BACK TO BLACK" SOPHMORE CD. CHECK OUT YOUTUBE.COM AND SEARCH FOR HER SONG"IN MY BED" (LIVE VERSION) FROM AOL SESSIONS..BONE CHILLING-LY GOOD.

CHELSEA HANDLER ..SMART DOESNT COVER IT, AND F*KING HILARIOUS...CHEK HER OUT ON E!

TIM GUNN..A TRUE CLASS ACT..LOVE THAT VERONICA WEBB IS ON THAT SHOW....SO GOOD. SO "ON"

THIS LIST WILL BE ON GOING..LIVING FOR

OK, IM OBSESSED

OK..I AM A PHOTOGRAPHY JUNKIE..BIG TIME.

MY FAVORITE PASTIME YOU ASK????? LIKE A LADY GETTING HER HAIR DONE..THUMBING THRU MAGAZINES IS ONE OF MY FAVE THINGS TO DO. FRENCH VOGUE, ITALIAN VOGUE IS MY ESPN....I CAN LOOK AT STEVEN MEISEL'S WORK FOR HOURS. I KNOW IT SOUNDS DEMENTED..BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS,PEOPLE. HIS WORKS MAKES ME CRAZY. HE IS TRULY A BRILLIANT ARTIST. I HAVE EVERY ITALIAN VOGUE ISSUE HE HAS EVER SHOT. EVERYTIME I MOVE, IT COSTS ME THOUSANDS OF BUCKS TO CART AROUND ALL OF MY MAGAZINES..BUT I WILL NEVER PART WITH THEM.
SOME OF MY FAVORITE PICS STEVEN HAS SHOT HAVE BEEN OF LINDA EVANGELISTA(NATCH),NADJA AUREMANN, MEGHAN DOUGLAS, AMBER VALLETTA( WHO I USED TO REP EONS AGO),GISELE, CARMEN KASS, STELLA TENNANT AND MORE RECENTLY CAROLINE TRENTINI AND HILARY RHODA. I HOPE ONE DAY STEVEN DOES A BOOK OF HIS WORK...ILL PROBABLY BUY 2 COPIES..ONE TO LOOK AT DAILY ,,AND ONE TO NEVER OPEN ..JUST KNOWING I HAVE IT UNTOUCHED, UN THUMBED THRU GIVES ME PLEASURE..ITS SICK ,I KNOW.
MARIO TESTINO IS ANOTHER ONE....I ALWAYS JOKE AROUND THAT I WANT TO LIVE IN A MARIO TESTINO PICTURE..WHO THE F**K WOULDNT? GORGEOUS EVERYTHING. CLOTHES, PEOPLE, LOCATION...HIS PICTURES , TO ME, HAVE A SMELL..THEY ARE INTOXICTING. HIS RECENT VANITY FAIR COVER STORY ON BRAZIL WITH GISELE ON THE COVER WAS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL,COMPELLING PEICES I HAVE EVER SEEN. I WANTED TO JUMP ONTO THE PAGES AND BE AT THAT PARTY. HAVE ANY OF YOU SEEN THE NEW V MAN 9? WITH MY GUY( AND SELECT IN LONDON) DAVID GANDY? ITS SO HOT AND POWERFUL. THE MALE SUPERMODEL IS BACK BITCH..GIMME MORE..OKWAY?

BRUCE WEBER. WOW..HE MAKES A MAN LOOK LIKE A HERO. HIS PICTURES IN MY OPINION ARE SO BEAUTIFULLY PURE...THEY CAN BE EROTIC AND THEY ARE ALWAYS INTELLIGENT.WHENEVER BRUCE CALLS MY OFFICE, I GET A LITTLE NERVOUS..HE IS LIKE A ROCK STAR TO ME...TO ME ITS LIKE GETTING A CALL FROM MICK JAGGER OR SOMETHING. HE HAS PUBLISHED SOME INCREDIBLE BOOKS OVER HIS CAREER..MY FAVORITE BEING BEAR POND( WHICH SOME JACKED FROM MY APARTMENT YEARS AGO AND CHOP SUEY CLUB. I ALSO FEEL THAT HE HAS TAKEN SOME OF THE MOST CAPTIVATING PICTURES OF KATE MOSS EVER TAKEN. HE IS THE REAL DEAL..A TRUE ARTIST..

THEN THERE IS STEVEN KLEIN. I MEAN COME ON..THE PICTURES HE DOES OF MADONNA MAKE ME WANT TO PULL WHATEVER HAIR I HAVE LEFT OUT OF MY HEAD. SHEER GENIUS......DID YOU GUYS SEE HIS RECENT W STORY ON NAOMI CAMPBELL? JUST WICKED I TELL YOU. AND WHAT HE HAS DONE FOR DOLCE AND GABBANA IS LEGENDARY. HIS WORK IS TRULY PROLIFIC AND COMPELLING. I LOVE WHEN MY MODELS GET BOOKED WITH HIM AS I KNOW IT WILL BRING OUT A SIDE OF THEIR BEAUTY THAT IS DARK AND UNIQUE.

I LIVE FOR DAVID SIMS, INEZ AND VINOODH, AND REALLY STARTING TO FEEL TERRY RICHARDSON.

YES, IM OBSESSED

I"M MISSING YOU

I MISS MY FRIENDS , JILL AND DARRYLL


JILL IS ONE OF THE COOLEST GIRLS A GUY CAN CALL A FRIEND. SHE IS DEEP AND VERY INTELLIGENT.SOME OF THE BEST CONVERSATIONS I HAVE EVER HAD WITH SOMEONE HAS BEEN WITH JILL. SHE HAS INFLUENCED THE MUSIC I HAVE LISTENED TO OVER THE YEARS. I CREDIT HER WITH TURNING ME ON TO JILL SCOTT,MARY J, ARETHA FRANKLIN AND EARLY PRINCE.
JILL AND I MET IN MIAMI IN 1989, WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS EVER SINCE. SHE HAS TRAVELLED WITH ME TO HAWAII, JAMAICA AND HAS VISITED ME DOZENS OF TIMES IN NYC. JILL LIVED IN MIAMI, MOVED TO LA TO BE ON THE REALITY SHOW" STARTING OVER" AND NOW RESIDES IN ATLANTA. JILL IS VISITING ME HERE END OF SEPTEMBER..I WILL DEFINTELY BLOG PICS FROM HER VISIT

I MET DARRYLL A FEW MONTHS AFTER MEETING JILL, HE IS FROM VIRGINA BUT LIVES IN MIAMI. HE IS A FORMER MODEL, EMPHASIS ON FORMER, AND NOW WORKS AS A DESIGNER FOR HIS OWN LINE OF SPORTSWEAR FOR THE BODY CONCIOUS GAY GUY. DARRYLL HAS BEEN MY CLOSEST CONFIDANTE...NEVER JUDGEMENTAL AND ALWAYS THERE TO HERE MY BIG BAG OF BULLSHT WHEN NECESSARY. DARRYLL AND I USED TO SEE EACH OTHER ALOT; TRAVELLING TOGETHER TO PARIS, LA ETC..BUT DARRYLL HAS BEEN TO NYC TO SEE ME IN AWHILE..WHICH STINKS..WE HAVENT GROWN APART BUT THINGS HAVE CHANGED, BUT MY LOVE FOR HIM HASNT; AND NEVER WILL.

I HAVE A CLOSE CIRCLE OF GREAT FRIENDS IN NYC,,BUT I MISS THESE TWO ALOT

A SHOUT OUT TO MY NYC BESTIES..CAMERON CARPENTER AND BEN E.

HI THERE

HI
MY NAME IS JASON KANNER. I AM A MODEL MANAGER FROM NYC. I PLAN ON MAKING THIS BLOG A SORT OF DIARY OF MY LIFE....PRETTY SIMPLE STUFF.
IM FUNNY, BUT SOMETIMES A LITTLE NUTS. ANYONE WHO REALLY KNOWS ME CAN VOUCH FOR THAT.
HOPEFULLY THIS BLOG WILL GIVE SOME INSIGHT TO PEOPLE WHO HAVE REALLY NO IDEA ABOUT ME, BUT ARE SORTA INTRUIGED.
MY LIFE AS A MODEL MANAGER WILL BE A BIG PART OF THIS..ALSO MY ROLE AN UNCLE,FRIEND, BOYFRIEND WILL BE HIGHLIGHTED AS WELL
COME IN AND ENJOY