HUNTER CROSS..BACK IN NYC MONTH OF OCTOBER

NATE GILL

RANDOM PICS OF GUYS

KERRY DEGMAN HAS GOT IT GOING ON

BACK AND AVAILABLE CHRIS DATTOLLA

"JOHNNY IS AN EASY NAME TO REMEMBER, BUT EVEN EASIER TO FORGET" rita hayworth in GILDA

SHORT CUTS

INTERESTING TO SEE WHATS GONE DOWN OVER AT PUBLIC IMAGE. IVE BEEN THERE AND IT SUCKS...T.W. GOING THERE IN HOPES OF TAKING WHAT I HAVE WORKED YEARS FOR AND C.F ATTEMPTING TO PROFIT FROM IT. THAT LASTED TWO MONTHS. IT S VERY EASY TO THINK YOU CAN DO IT SO MUCH BETTER , BUT ALAS IT CANT BE DONE. YOU HAVE TO BE A WORKHORSE..AND ITS NOT "EASY" . IVE REALLY HELD MY TONGUE HERE, AND IM VERY GRATEFUL TO MY LOYAL TEAM OF MODELS AND STAFF FOR HAVING THE SMARTS TO STAY PUT AND AWAY FROM THAT IMPENDING SHIT STORM.

NOW I KNOW I MAY SOUND LIKE A KNOW IT ALL, NOT MY INTENTION..BUT YOU KNOW IT REALLY F**KING HURTS MAN...SOMEONE QUITS, TALKS SHIT ABOUT YOU AND HOW YOU DO BUSINESS, MAKES UNNECCESSRY STATEMENTS ABOUT YOU AND YOUR PERSONAL LIFE, AND YOU EXPECT THEM TO BACK IT UP WITH BEING INNOVATIVE AND BETTER AT IT ALL AND ALAS, THEY CANT TAKE THE HEAT ( AND REALLY NEED NOT BE IN THE KITCHEN ANYMORE). EITHER WAY, ITS MY BLOG AND IT S MY RANT.

ON A LIGHTE R NOTE, MY NEW OFFICE LOOKS GREAT. IT WAS A NICE SURPRISE TO SEE IT TOTALY RE DECORATED WITH LOVE. THE SHOW CARDS ARE OUT. IM CONCERNED THAT WE ARENT GOING TO GET " THE LOVE" I EXPECTED, BUT IM ALWAYS SEMI NAUSEOUS , SORT OF A PRESENTIMENT OF THINGS TO COME.

I AM TRANSFIXED BY THE DEMOCRATIC NATIONAL CONVENTION. HOW MASTERFUL WAS HILLARY CLINTON? MICHELE OBAMA? TED KENNEDY? IM VERY PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN WITH THESE SORT OF LEADERS REPRESENTING US. I PRAY THAT AMERICANS GET THERE HEADS OUT OF THEIR ASSES AND VOTE FOR REAL CHANGE..BARACK THE VOTE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER SHELLY AND MY SOUL SISTER JILL.
I LOVE TYOU ALL

THANKS FOR THE EMAILS AND LOVE..IM SO GLAD SO MANY PEOPLE READ THIS BLOG AND LOVE IT...

XOXO



J

ARE YOU

BREAKING NEW FACE...JUSTIN BY GREGORY VAUGHAN

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADONNA!

IM NOT SAYING A DAMN THING ABOUT IT

BUT MAN, WOW

BITCHES AINT SHIT BUT HO'S AND TRICKS

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR

TOTALLY LIVING FOR

WENDY WILLIAMS..SO REAL AND FUNNY! I CANT RECOMMEND HER MORNING TV SHOW ENOUGH TO YOU ALL. YOUTUBE HER AS WELL

ANDY SWAY..MY ENERGY GURU..GIVING ME THE BLASTS AND GUIDANCE I NEED.

LALLY...FOR UNCONDITIONAL FRIENDSHIP SUPPORT, LAUGHS AND LALLYLAND

MY NEW TEAM..FOR BEING REAL, STRONG, SANE AND GROUNDED...NO TEARS, LO...IM VERY GRATEFUL

MY MAN, FOR FIGHTING FOR US WHEN I WAS QUICK TO GIVE UP

JENN AND JESS..FOR LIVING FOR ME, AND VICE VERSA

CHAD WHITE...FOR ALWAYS MAKING ME SMILE. YOU ARE SCH A SWEET KID, YOU MAKE ME REALIZE HOW LUCKY I AM

DON JULIO TEQUILA, KEEP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING.

ADRIAN ALVARADO, FOR STILL BEING PASSIONATE AND GENIUS. CUBRA LIBRE .


HAVE A GREAT AUGUST

X

J

COME ON INTO MY STORE I'VE GOT CANDY GALORE

GOOD MORNING

FEELING GOOD. DID YOGA THIS MORNING. STILL DONT LOVE IT, BUT I FEEL AMAZING WHEN WE R DONE. I DO FEEL STRONGER, BUT PARTS OF IT GET ME A TAD NAUSEOUS. ANYHOO

GOING TO CALI WITH BEN N BRAD MID AUGUST. HEADED TO HAMPTONS THIS WEEKEND FOR 2 WEEKS, WILL BE BACK IN AND OUT OF TOWN FOR EVENTS AND STUFF. MY SISTER AND THE KIDS WILL BE COMING WITH ME FOR THE HAMPTONS PORTION OF MY TRIP

IM HAVING A SMALL SOIREE AT MY HOUSE THURSDAYNIGHT, SHOUDL BE FUN(AFTER THE RUGBY SHOOT WRAPS)
GETTING OVER GOING TO KABBALLAH CENTRE AS I FEEL LIKE IM LEAVING MR CHOW OR THE IVY WHEN I LEAVE. HAVE TO FIND A DIFFERENT WAY TO 'CONNECT..TO THE LIGHT"

PLANNING OUR SHOW CARDS FOR SUMMER 09
I DONT REALLY CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT IT AS IT ALL SEEMS SO BORING. THE SHOWS IN NY ARE NOT WHAT THEY SHOULD BE, SO TO ME, A FLIP CARD WITH HOT IMAGES IS ENOUGH. WE HAVE SO FEW "FASHION" GUYS COMPARED TO LANA AT V OR DNA OR PUBLIC IMAGE..BUT THE GUYS WE DO HAVE ARE BRILLIANT
I AM EXPECTING SIMON TERRON TRAVIS D BLAINE AND SEAN HARJU TO DOMINATE.
EDDIE TUCKER IS COMING ,SO WE R OVER THE MOON ABOUT THAT.
ARNALDO SHOOTS RUGBY THIS WEEK, THEY TOOK ONE OF OUR NEW GUYS BRIAN CARR FOR IT( HE REMINDS ME OF A BABY CHANNING TATUM)AND FINALLY ARE SHOOTING SIMON NESSMAN AS WELL.
BRUCE BOOKED TYLER KENYON AND DOUG PORTER FOR RUHEL ABERCROMBIE AND GILLY HICKS.

HOWI WOUDLLOVE TO LOSE 20 LBS DURING AUGUST..THATS MY GOAL
I THINK MY BFF DARRYLL IS COMING TOVISIT ME TOO, IN CALI

ANYWAY

LOVE TO LOVE YOU
SENDING LIGHT
AND TO THE CRAZIES
GET A LIFE, PLEASE

FACEBOOK AND FUCKERY

I FIND IT FUNNY

IM 38, AND I FEEL TOO OLD FOR FACEBOOK
YES I RECONNECTED WITH FRIENDS FROM HIGH SCHOOL AND COLLEGE, BUT I USE IT AS A TOOL TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH MODELS AND BUSINESS CONTACTS OVERSEAS.
SEEING 53 YEAR OLDS CONTACTING 20 YEAR OLDS UNDER THE GUISE AS "FRIENDS" IS SAD AND BIZARRE.

WORK HAS BEEN PHENOMENAL. WE DID A HUGE DILLARDS BOOKING WITH LISA L. FOR JEREMY SANTUCCI, MARK RICKETSON, TYLER LOUGH, TYLE GARCEAU AND TERRON WOOD. WHO EVER SAID SUMMER IS SLOW IN NYC IS HALLEUCINATING. WE BOOKED 4 OUT 5 GUYS FOR RUGBY. SANTUCCI JUST DID THE SAND CAMPAIGN WITH BRYAN ADAAMS. HE IS WORKING FOR CALVIN FOR E COMMERCE STUFF. HE HAS BLOWN UP . AND HE IS THE SWEETEST GUY. TONS OF MACYS, TARGET,ETC. SIMON NESSMAN AND SEAN HARJU ARE MAKING SMALL FORTUNES THIS MONTH. AS IS DAMON WILLIS WHO SHOT ABOUT 10 DAYS OF BROOKS BROTHERS IN JULY.

THE NEW GIRLS ARE FUN AND ENERGETIC. EVERYONE ACTUALLY GETS ALONG. NO PASSIVE AGGRESSIVENESS, NO SMILING NERVOUSLY. NO MISTAKES THAT R HIDDEN OR LIED ABOUT. ITS QUITE REFRESHING. THE GUYS SEEM TO REALLY LIKE THE VIBE, AND THATS ALWAYS A GOOD THING.

WE HAD DINNER LAST NIGHT WITH MASSIMO AND DAVID TODD AT LA BOTTEGGA. KYLE, DOUG PORTER, THE DAVENPORTS, SANTUCCI AND RYAN V....AND ANDREA. TONS OF DON JULIO..LOTS OF LAUGHS. GOOD PEOPLE GOOD TIMES. ITS A RELIEF. FINALLY SOME BLISS.

IM IN A REALLY GOOD SPACE PERSONALLY. LOOKING FOWARD TO AUGUST AND THAT BREAK. EXPECTING A GREAT SHOW SEASON IN SEPTEMBER AS WELL.

HAVING STEVE GOLD BACK HAS BEEN GREAT. HE ALREADY HAS WORKED FOR GQ, AND IS WORKING FOR POLO FRIDAY. THE YR APART FOR HIM I THINK WAS ONE OF GROWTH . ITS FUNNY WE R BEING SUED FOR A MODEL WILLY STOLE, ITS COMICAL .

ANYWAY, IM OFF

MORE UPDATES ON MODELS SOON

THERE ARE MODELS , AND THEN THERE ARE SUPERMODELS

SEAN BILOSKI AUSTRALIAN UPDATES

INTRODUCING ANDREW LINN

THROWBACK..MICHAEL PUCK AS MARKY MARK

EVERYBODY WANTS TO BE SOMEBODY

SIMON IS BOOKED WITH PAOLO ROVERSI ON THURSDAY
TRAVIS HANSON EVAN WADLE AND ALEX GERMAAN ON SET WITH MATT ALBIANI
TRAVIS DAVENPORT WRAPPING YET ANOTHER POLO GIG WITH ARNALDO IN MOUNT HOOD
JEREMY SIMPSON SHOT WITH S MEISEL WITH SESSILEE LAST WEEK
TYLER KENYON DID THE DAPHNE GUINESS VOGUE ITALY GIG WITH KLEIN THAT PEOPLR GAGGING OVER

BLAINE COOK SHOOTING VOGUE HOMMES JAPAN WITH DAVID SHERRY
SANTUCCI SHOOTING SAND CAMPAIGN WITH BRYAN ADAMS IN UK

ROBYN SINCLAIR OFF TO AUSTRALIA TO SHOOT GQ, AND DAVID JONES CAMPAIGNS.
NEED TO CLONE KERY DEGMAN, HE IS MUCH IN DEMAND

TONITE IS BATMAN PREMIERE
TOMORROW DINNER WITH MELISSA KELLY DOUG AND CHRIS COLLINS

IS EVERYONE GOING TO THIS JED ROOT PARTY ON THURSDAY?

WEST COAST FOR AUGUST...CANT WAIT
XO
J
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THIS CAMPAIGN ALWAYS INSPIRED ME..BY RICHARD AVEDON

TYLER KENYON

*****TYLER KENYON SHOT VOGUE ITALY WITH STEVEN KLEIN IN THE HAMPTONS FRIDAY**********

JEREMY SIMPSON

JUST SHOT VOGUE ITALIA WITH STEVEN MEISEL ON FRIDAY IN L.A!

STEVE GOLD..BACK AND AVAILABLE..WELCOME HOME

DANIELA DE JESUS ...BREAKING NEW FACE

I DONT CARE WHAT IT SOUNDS LIKE, I TAKE A DAMN GOOD POLAROID.

CORY BOND BY GREGORY VAUGHAN

TRAVIS HANSON AND TYLER KENYON BY GREGORY VAUGHAN

TRAVIS HANSON

I AM .

THIS BLOG
WHICH WAS ONCE JUST A SOURCE OF VENTING FOR ME, ANONYMOUSLY
HAS TURNED INTO SOMEWHAT OF A CHORE AND LIABILTY.

THE PURPOSE TRULY FOR ME WAS TO BE HEARD, AND WHOMEVER READ IT DID JUST THAT.
WELL IVE BEEN HEARD AND THEN SOME. AND IN MY OWN WAY, I HAVE FOUND PEACE IN THAT.

SOME PEOPLE IN THE INDUSTRY HAVE BEEN ENTERTAINED BY IT, SOME HAVE TRIED(PITIFULLY) TO USE IT AGAINIST ME. MY MODELS HAVE SEEMED TO FIND SOME HIDDEN JOY IN IT, SOME FEEL LIKE ITS MADE THEM UNDERSTAND ME MORE...LIKE THEY HAVE BEEN TRYING TO UNDERCOVER AND EVEN MAKE SENSE OF ME, LIKE I AM A RIDDLE.

TRUTH BE TOLD, IM STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT ME, SO GOOD LUCK READING THIS AND THINKING" I GET HIM".
WHAT I DO KNOW FOR SURE, ABOUT MYSELF, IS THAT I AM GOOD. NOT GOOD LIKE A CHRISTIAN SOLDIER, GOOD AS IN SOULFUL..THAT THERE IS NO PRETENSE OR FABRICATION TO ME...THAT MY WORD IS SOMETHING YOU CAN COUNT ON. I CAN LIVE WITH BEING "GOOD" LIKE THAT . I ALSO AM A FRIEND; NOT A FASHION FRIEND, NOT A FAIRWEATHER FRIEND, BUT A REAL FRIEND. WHO STANDS BY YOU DURING ALL STOPS ON THE JOURNEY. FOR THAT I AM EQUALLY "GOOD" WITH. I THINK OF THESE TWO VERY IMPORTANT FACTORS AND THINK OF WHERE I COME FROM..THE LIES, THE EVIL, THE ABUSE, THE PAIN AND SOMEWHAT THE TORURE OF MY YOUTH AND I THINK I HAVE COME SO FAR .."LIFE" GAVE ME ITS HARDEST PUNCH, AND I AM STILL STANDING AND IM STRONGER THEN EVER.
SO, I THANK THIS BLOG FOR GIVING ME THAT FORUM TO RANT AND BE HEARD..NOW ITS TIME FOR THE PERSONAL STUFF TO BE KEPT AS SUCH....

I WILL CONTINUE TO KVELL(BRAG) ABOUT MY AMAZING MODELS AND MY EQUALLY AMAZING CAREER...ILL BRAG ABOUT MY NEPHEWS WHEN IT DOESNT GET TOO PERSONAL..MY LOVE LIFE IS MINE AGAIN, AND STAYS PRECIOUS. MY SISTERS, MY FRIENDS, KNOW MY GENUINE AFFECTION. TO ANYONE WHO READ THIS, WHO DOESN T KNOW ME WHO ENJOYED THE CONTENT AND ITS HONESTY, KNOW THAT THE LIGHT AND LOVE HAS HELPED ME IMMEASURABELY. AND TO THE HATERS OUT THERE, AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE..RATHER THEN WORRY ABOUT MY LIFE..I SUGGEST YOU GET YOUR OWN.

FINAL SHOUT OUTS:

MY VERY BEST FRIENDS(JENN JILL DARRYL ARLYND CAMERON )
MY SISTERS
MY MODELS( ALL OF YOU FUCKERS..EVEN THE ONES WHO WEAR ME OUT)
KATIA S
REVS
BENNY/ARNIE AND THAT CREW OF LOVING LOYAL FABULOSITY
ANDY ELLEN & LALLY

I LOVE YOU ALL
IMMENSELY
AND PLAN ON SHOWING IT MORE
MY GRATITUDE WILL SHOW MORE IN MY ATTITUDE


BE GOOD


JASON

MY VISA DENIED

AFTER A FUN FILLED WEEKEND
OF 'TRAVEL" MY VISA WAS DECLINED IN CUSTOMS IN ICELAND
NEEDLESS TO SAY BJORK ATTACKED THE OFFICERS, THE PAPARZZI AND MY REFLECTION IN A GLASS MIRROR

SO, IM BACK , BOOKING MODELS AT MAJOR
WHEW! WHAT A WHIRLWIND
I WANT TO THANK BLAINE COOK FOR HOLDING DOWN THE FORT AND TERRON I WANT MY MADONNA SHIT BACK PRONTO

LALLY, LETS DO THIS!

LOL

HOPE YOU ALL ENJOYED THE LAUGHS

BY THE WAY
LAWRENCE STIERS RAN THINGS IN MILAN AND PARIS

XOXOX
J

MY CONNECTION

IM IN MADAGASCAR
MY TRAVEL AGENT GOT ME A CHEAP TICKET
NY MADAGASCAR
MADAGASCAR ICELAND

WELLIM IN MADAGASCAR
ANDLET ME TELL YOU
I CANT WAIT TO SEE BJORK
SHE TEXT ME THIS AM
AND SAID " I LOVE ROOSTERS"!

I LAUGHED
PICKED UP GREEK VOGUE, TIME AND OPRAH MAGAZINES
[AND THOUGHT "ROOSTERS...HOW GLORIOUS!"
BE RIGHT BAC

THE REAL DEAL..IT IS WHAT IT IS

I HAVE DECIDED ON THE EVE OF GAY PRIDE SUNDAY TO LEAVE NY, PACK MY APARTMENT UP AND MOVE TO ICELAND. ANYONE THAT KNOWS ME, KNOWS I LOVE BJORK. AND WHILE DRINKING MIKE'S HARD LEMONADE AND VOGUING TO "BIG TIME SENSUALITY"..I REALIZED CLEARLY..BJORK NEEDS ME( AND I NEED SIBERIAN HUSKYS) AND BLUBBER.
I BEQUETH MY HAREM OF MALE "MODELS" TO THE DEREK ZOOLANDER FOUNDATION FOR RIDICULOUSLY GOOD LOOKING PEOPLE RUN BY BLAINE COOK( A TRUE RENAISSANCE MAN)..TERRON WOOD, I LEAVE YOU MY BEST OF MADONNA CD COLLECTION AND TOUR PROGRAMS FROM 1988 TO 2006. TO THE SPRITELY JUSTIN TUNISTRA I LEAVE YOU MY UNPUBLISHED MEMOIR"IT IS WHAT IT IS..BITCHES" AND YOU CAN PLAY ME IN THE MADE FOR TV MOVIE
JOE LALLY HAS ASKED ME TO TAKE A MOMENT AND THANK BUDDAH, CHARLES DEVOE, TRAVIS HANSON AKA GHOSTA FACE KILLAH 2, OPRAH AND DOMINOS PIZZA ( FOR THE CHICKEN KICKERS)

WHILE IM IN ICELAND, WORKING FOR BJORK, ILL BE USING MY YEARS AS A MODEL MANAGER , IN WRITING SONGS FOR BJORK. WORKING TITLES THUS FAR
"IM RELEASED..I THOUGHT YOU SAID I WAS CONFIRMED?"

"BRUCE WEBER SAID SO"

"IVE NEVER BEEN MORE RIPPED(OR LEAN..THE REMIX)

"I VE NEVER DONE THIS WITH A DUDE BEFORE"

"I HATE CANADIANS"

"YOU DONT KNOW MY LIFE"

"SHOULD I GO TO MILAN(FOR THE SHOWS)

LIKE I SAID THESE TASTY MORSELS ARE JUST THE BEGINNING OF MY SONGWRITING PROWESS

BJORK AND I, WHILST EATING BLUBBER, WILL BE RECORDING THESE OFF THE CHAIN TRACKS AFTER NUDE SKINNY DIPPING IN A HOT SPRING. DONT HATE FUCKERS.

ILL MISS YOU ALL, AND I HOPE YOUR CAREER SUFFERS WITH OUT ME.

SUCK IT BITCHES
IM GOING TO ICELAND...

SUCK ON IT

JASON KANNER AKA LARS SVARTGRAAASD

CORY BOND BY GREGORY VAUGHAN

RANDOM PIC OF LOVED ONES

I STOLE THESE PICS OFF MY SISTERS MYSPACE PAGE
I LOVE THE PIC WITH MY MOM IN IT(R.I.P) SHE WAS SO HAPPY THERE..AND I WAS SO MAD AT HER....
LOVE THE PIC WITH ME AND MY SISTER SHELLY WITH HER FRIENDS AND IM WEARING A VINTAGE KISS TEE SHIRT..AND THE PIC OF SHELLY WITH OUR NEPHEWS ( PRE NICK ERA) IS MY FAVE.

INTRODUCING BRIAN CARR

IT IS WHAT IT IS

OUT OF RESPECT TO ALL PARTIES I WONT GET INTO MY WEEK

IT WAS A HARD WEEK, BUT NOTHING I CANT HANDLE. UNFORTUNATELY IVE BEEN DOWN THIS ROAD BEFORE. I FEEL SUPPORTED AND STRONG. SOMEONE SWINGS AT ME, I PUSH BACK. THATS NOT THE CASE HERE. THINGS DONT NEED A STORYBOOK ENDING OR EVEN MAKE SENSE. IN KABBALAH THEY SAY WHEN THINGS ARE CRAZIEST , ESSENTIALLY, THEY ARE AT ITS BEST. CHAOS/CONTROL....

ALREADY I LIKE SOMEONE ELSE( AND I KNOW I KNOW..BUT ITS NOT A REBOUND AT ALL..IM SMARTER THEN THAT.)BUT NONETHELESS I FEEL LIKE A LESBIAN..ALREADY READY TO MAKE THIS INTO SOMETHING. I AM SURPRISED I HAVENT BOUGHT A CAT WITH HIM, MADE PLANS TO GO SEE THE INDIGO GIRLS AND GET MATCHING RINGS. BUT I DIGRESS. HE IS REALLY GREAT, AND ITS NICE TO FEEL SPRUNG. BUT..I LOVE MY EX , HARD TO TYPE IT. "EX" THE " EX" FACTOR( NOD TO LAURYN HILL) .AND HE HAS BEEN STAYING ON ME, TRYING TO STEP IT UP AND I AM LIKE, WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE DAY AFTER THAT HE GETS IT..LAME

ALL THIS WHILE WORK HAS BEEN A CIRCUS. BUT WE ALSO HAVE BILLED 500K IN 13 DAYS SO, WHO SAYS IT ISNT WORKING ..AND THATS JUST IN THE MENS DIVISION

IM OUT I HAVE TO BOUNCE

LIVING FOR AWC CASTING..ANDREW MELISSA, MALLORRY AND MADDOX. GREAT PEOPLE, GENTLE PEOPLE
JD
DARRYL
PILAR JENN JESS
J SIMPSON
LIVING FOR ME TODAY
ARNIE
ADRIAN ALVARADO

LOVING FACEBOOK TOO

LOL
XOXO
LOVE LIGHT

JJ

FUNNIEST THING IVE SEEN ON A BLOG IN AWHILE..TERRON AND BRYAN BOY'S LOVE CHILD

GREGORY VAUGHAN PARTY TOMORROW.....TRAVIS HANSON AS JOHN BARTLETT MODEL

HEATWAVE SUNDAY JUNE 8TH 2 06 PM

IM LAYING ON MY BED, WATCHING STACEY MCKENZIE ON MTV MADE AND I FELT LIKE THIS WOULD BE A GOOD TIME TO CATCH UP ON MY BLOGGING.

I HAVE TO SAY , ALOT HAS GONE DOWN

FIRSTLY, I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT ALOT. I FEEL STRONGER, BUT I HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO. I FEEL ENCOURAGED..MY CLOTHES R FITTING DIFFERENTLY AND I FEEL LIKE I HAVE MORE STAMINA.

ALSO, I AM TAKING A BREAK FROM THE "MAN" I AM WITH. THINGS IN THE PAST FEW WEEKS HAVE JUST CRUMBLED..AND I DECIDED RATHER THEN HATE HIM, ID CHOOSE ME AND END IT WITH SOME DIGNITY. NOW, I LOVE THIS GUY ALOT, BUT I DONT FEEL THAT PASSION FOR HIM ANYMORE AND TO ME WITHOUT IT, I JUST HAVE A BUDDY THAT I KISS.. AND I WANT HEAT ...CLEAR AND SIMPLE. HE WAS SHOCKED; WHEN THE WORDS CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH, I COULDNT STOP THEM.." I DONT FEEL IT FOR YOU ANYMORE.."..AND "I DESERVE MORE THEN THIS!".. HIS REPLY WAS " IT CAN GET BETTER, LETS ME WORK ON IT"..BUT I REALIZED IT WASNT HIS PROBLEM TO FIX, THESE MONTHS OF NEGLECT LED ME TO CLOSE MY HEART TO HIM AND OPEN IT TO THE POSSIBILITIES OF FINDING SOMEONE NEW, MY REAL LIFE PARTNER(BUT IN THE MEAN TIME HAVE A BLAST AND FUCK AROUND LIKE I NEEDED TO). I DONT WANT TO THINK ITS TRULY OVER FORVER WUTH HE AND I, BUT FOR THE MOMENT , I AM LIVING THE SINGLE LIFE.

TRAVIS &BRIAN DAVENPORT AND TRAVIS HANSON HAD THEIR BIRTHDAYS THIS WEEK. I THREW A DINNER FOR MR HANSON AND HIS CLOSEST NY FRIENDS, AND HIS GIRLFRIEND FLEW IN FOR IT..ALOT OF DRINKS AND FUN WERE HAD BY ALL..AND OF COURSE A LITTLE DRAMA WHICH I WONT GET INTO HERE...BUT SUFFICE IT TO SAY ALOT OF FUN, SOME ALLEGED HIJINKS,AND A LATE NITE WAS HAD BY MOST.

WE HAVE HAD A RECORD YEAR AT MAJOR. I HAVE BEEN ASKED BY CLIENTS WHO READ THIS BLOG, TO NOT RAMBLE ON ABOUT THE CASTING CHOICES BEFORE THINGS R PUBLISHED SO ALL I CAN SAY IS WE HAVE ALOT OF MODEL WORKING FOR HUGE MAJOR BOOKINGS. SO BITCHES, LOOK OUT IN FALL FOR THE ADS AND EDITS THAT MAKE MAJOR SO MAJOR.

WE HAVE SOME BRILLIANT NEW GUYS AT THE AGENCY. HOOKED UP WITH BRIAN FROM AIG MODELS, WHO PLACED 4 GUYS WITH US AT ONCE. NOW IN 18 YRS IN THE BIZ I HAVE NEVER TAKEN MORE THEN ONE GUY AT A TIME, BUT THESE GUYS WERE SO INCREDIBLE THAT I WAS LIKE, FUCK IT, IM DOING THIS AND BRIAN AMAZINGLY ACCEPTED THE OFFER. LOOK TO THIS BLOG FOR UPDATES ON THESE GUYS.

SIMON' S NEW DO BY DIDIER MALIGE HAS BEEN A HUGE HIT. HE IS WORKING SO MUCH , AND I AM SO PROUD OF HIM. WE HAVE THIS AMAZING NEW KID NAMED SIMON THAM FROM TORONTO. ENGLISH AND CHINEESE, EXCLUSIVE FOR CALVIN KLEIN'S UPCOMING SHOW IN MILAN. KYLE LEDEBOER FROM INDIANA IS GETTING GREAT BUZZ. I THINK TRAVIS HANSON IS OUR NEXT BIG THING, AND IF ALL THINGS GO WELL , WILL PROBABLY BE SHOOTING ONE OF THE MOST TALKED ABOUT EDITORIALS IN RECENT MEMORY. I UST TOOK ON RICHARD LIMA, A VETERAN MODEL, WHO I AM REINTRODUCING TO THE MARKET AS A NEW FACE..ITS A RISKY EXPERIMENT BUT I THINK WILL WORK.

I AM THINKING ITS DEFINITELY GOING TO BE CALIFORNIA IN AUGUST. I NEED MY GIRLS OUT THERE AND I CAN USE BEING IN THEIR SWIRL. OUT OF THE EAST COAST GRIND...IT IS WHAT THE DOCTOR ORDERED FOR ME..(DR LOVE..LOL)

MY SISTERS R IN TAMPA HAVING A MINI HOLIDAY, I WANTED TO GO BUT THOSE TRIFLING BICTHES WANTED SISTER TIME..I WANST THRILLED

I MISS JILL LIKE CRAZY, I WISH SHED LEAVE ATL AND MOVE UP HERE.

BEN AND BRAD MOVED, SO THEY HAVE BEEN ENSCONCED IN THAT...I AM HAPPY FOR THEM. DARRYLL HASNT BEEN UP HERE FOR A WHILE, HE SEEMS BUSY IN HIS NEW REAL ESTATE CAREER , IM HAPPY IF HE IS HAPPY.

I AM JUST TRYING TO BE HAPPPY
I AM LOOKING FOWARD TO HAVING HAPPY TIMES (LOL)WITH PEOPLE
DRAMA FREE..LOVE FESTS

SEND ME WARM AND FUZZY LIGHT
SEND ME STRENGTH BECAUSE AS I TYPE THIS I MISS HIM, BUT I KNOW I AM DOING THE RIGHT THING
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVERYONE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA R

XOXOXO

JASON

ITS BEEN A MINUTE

I KNOW, ITS BEEN AWHILE
ILL KEEP IT BRIEF

IM FINDING MYSELF JUST WORKING AND COMING HOME
NO REAL LIFE...BUT ITS SORT OF WHAT IT IS NOW

I FEEL LIKE I WORKED SO HARD TO GET TO A PLACE WITH MAJOR THAT WE R INCREDIBLY BUSY,BUT IT MAKES FOR NO ROOM FOR A REAL PERSONAL LIFE. BUT I TRADED THAT ALONG TIME AGO FOR THE BIG CAREER, AND SERIOUSLY I HAVE NO REGRETS

MY FATHER FLAKED, WE SPOKE TWICE AND NOW HE HAS DROPPED THE BALL AGAIN. STORY OF HIS LIFE. I AM GLAD HE IS HEALTHY BUT I THINK WE HAVE CLOSED THE PAGE FOR GOOD NOW.

IM STILL INLOVE BUT I FIND MYSELF DRAWN TO OTHER PEOPLES ENERGY. ITS STARTLING TO ME BECAUSE IM A PRETTY LOYAL MAN. I AM NOT JUDGING MY FEELINGS I AM JUST OWNING THEM.

SUMMER IS HERE AND ITS A BEAUTIFUL THING. NEED TO PLAN A HOLIDAY. WANT TO GO TO L A TO SEE MY GIRLS IN JUNE. AD AUGUST IN HAMPTONS, MIAMI OR MALIBU.

WELL SENDING LITE AND LOVE

XO

SIMON THAM, RYAN VIGILANT AND DOUG PORTER ALL BY GREGORY VAUGHAN

RANDOM THINGS I AM LIKING

RANDOM THINGS I AM LIVING FOR

MISS RAP SUPREME ON VH1

GOING TO MR CHOW WEEKLY

GOING TO ONO AT THE GANSEVOORT ON TUESDAYS

MADONNA'S NEW C.D.

ALLURE COLOGNE FOR MEN

THE NEW PHOTOGRAPHERS AT CAMILLA LOWTHER (MIGUEL, CARLOTTA...AND NOT SO NEW BUT UNREAL JOSH OLINS)

THAT NYC ISNT HOT YET, ITS LIKE SUNNY AND COOL...SO GOOD

GOSSIP GIRL AND ERIC DAMON'S BRILLIANT STYLING ON THE SHOW

JD FERGUSON..ONE OF THE COOLEST SWEETEST LAID BACK GUYS IVE BEFRIENDED IN THE BIZ AS OF LATE

SIMON THAM AND KYLE L , TWO NEW FACES WE JUST SIGNED WHO ARE JUST AMAZING

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LOTS HAPPENING, NOTHING I CARE TO DISCUSS OPENLY.
FEELING GOOD ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS, BUT ALSO A LITTLE SCARED.

I MISS MY SISTER SHELLY

TODAY WAS MY MOM'SBIRTHDAY, SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN 62. I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT IT, AND FEEL LIKE I FORGOT ME. BUT I WAS IN A QUIET SORT OF SHIT MOOD, SORT OF A PRE SENTIMENT. WHO KNOWS. A FRIEND OF MINE GOT REALLY SICK OVER THE WEEKEND, BUT LUCKILY HE WILL BE OK..WAS SORT OF SERIOUS...

IM SO GRATEFUL TO GREGORY VAUGHAN FOR HIS BEAUTIFUL AND CLEAN( BUT SEXED UP ) WORK HE HAS BEEN DOING FOR US.

TYLER LOUGH IS BACK IN TOWN AND LOOKS UNBELIEVABLE.

ANYWAY
IM OFF


XOXOX
SENDING WARM LIGHT AND LOVE TO THE MASSES AND YO ASSES

ALOT

THIS WEEK
ALOT ALOT

FIRST OF ALL, I SPOKE TO MY FATHER. HAVE MAYBE SPOKEN TO HIM A HALF DOZEN TIMES IN 10 YEARS. HE SOUNDS FRAIL, AND OLD. BUT I CHOKED UP WITHIN 2 MINUTES OF TALKING TO HIM. I MISS HIM, BUT I AM SO HURT BY HIM.
HAD A GREAT WEEK AT WORK. MY TEAM KEPT MOTIVATED. WE ACCOMPLISHED ALOT. IM GLAD I GOT TO SEE HOW HARD THEY WORK, AND HOW COMMITTED THEY ARE.

I REALLY LIKE MY MODELS..I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE DUH..BUT SOME OF MY MODELS ARE REALLY COOL GUYS. JEREMY SANTUCCI IS A SWEETHEART, WITH A BIG BIG HEART. A GENTLE SOUL. CHARLES DEVOE IS A FUNNY MOTHER FUCKER. BLAINE COOK IS SMART AND WITTY. IN FACT I THINK HE SHOULD START WRITING. JEREMY SIMPSON IS A CHARACTER AND HAS THE RAW QUALITY "IT" FACTOR THAT CHANNING HAD. LUCAS KERR IS ONE OF THE MOST STAND UP GUYS YOU COULD EVER KNOW. JARRIN KIRKSEY IS BRILLIANT, IF YOU EVER HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH THE MAN YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE MEET SOMEONE REMARKABLE AND PROFOUND. I FEEL BLESSED AND HONORED TO HAVE THESE PEOPLE AND THEIR ENERGY IN MY WORLD. I DIDNT MEAN TO SINGLE THESE GUYS OUT..IM JUST SAYING THEY ARE PRETTY FUCKING DOPE.

JD FERGUSON WAS IN OUR OFFICE THIS WEEK. FASHION TV DID A STORY ON HIM AND THEN HE SHOT TERRON WOOD, SIMON NESSMAN AND BLAINE COOK FOR V IN OUR OFFICE. I LOVE THAT QUEEN. HE IS SO REAL AND FUNNY. HE NEEDS TO STOP SMOKING. HE IS HANDSOME TOO, LIKE MOVIE STAR HANDSOME. THE GUYS LOVE HIM ,I LOVE HIM COOL ASS GUY.

I LOVE MY RELATIONSHIP WITH KATIA, ITS SO HONEST AND AFTER YEARS OF WALKING ON EGGSHELLS WITH ONE ANOTHER, WE HAVE ACTUALLY GOT TO A PLACE WHERE WE CAN SPEAK FREELY AND RESPECT EACH OTHER ON EVERY LEVEL. IM GRATEFUL FOR THAT.

I HAVE BEEN FASCINATED BY THE PRESS COVERAGE OF BARBARA WALTERS AUTOBIOGRAPHY. I HAVE THOUGHT FOR AWHILE ITS TIME FOR HER TO RETIRE( STILL DO) BUT WHAT A REMARKABLE LIFE SHE HAS HAD. I LOVE HOW CANDID SHE HAS BEEN ABOUT HER LIFE NOW. SHE DOESNT SEEM AS SQUARE OR OLD TO ME ANYMORE.

MY YOGA TEACHER ELLEN , WHO IS A SORT OF NAZI ISH YOGA GURU, ACTUALLY TOLD ME I AM KICKING ASS, I FEEL STRONGER AND MORE FLEXIBLE, BUT HER VALIDATION MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM MADONNA . LOL

I HAD MY ENERGY GURU ANDY SWAY BUILD WHAT WIZARDS CALL A DIVINE DOOR IN MY BEDROOM WHICH WORKS ON GROUNDING ME AND BLESSINGS ETC. HARD TO EXPLAIN, I BARELY GET IT BUT EVERYTHING IVE DONE WITH ANDY HAS WORKED ON ME FOR YEARS. I OWE HIM ALOT; HE HAS BEEN AN ADVSER OF MINE SINCE MONTHS BEFORE MY MOM PASSED AWAY AND I CREDIT HIM WITH INTRODUCING ME TO ELLEN CREMER MY YOGA BITCH(HIS HOT POCKET OF A GIRLFRIEND)

MY BESTIE JENN COMES TO TOWN FROM CALI, NEXT SATURDAY IM TAKING HER TO MR CHOW WITH A BUNCH OF OUR MUTUAL FRIENDS. SUPER GOOD TIMES.

I WORK OUT TOMORROW WITH NIC B..HE HAS BEEN WORKING ON MY STRENGTH TRAINING.
I AM ALL ABOUT IT. HE IS GREAT AND KNOWS HIS SHIT. IM GLAD HE IS IN MY SQUAD. OPERATION "NO MORE FAT JASON " HAS ALLOWED ME TO BE SELFISH ( FINALLY) AND ASSEMBLE AN ARMY OF KICK ASS NO- NONSENSE PEOPLE TO HELP ME. IM GRATEFUL TO HAVE THE MONEY NOW TO DO IT, AND THE TIME TO DO IT AS WELL.

THIS WEEKS BOOKINGS WERE GENIUS, I GET SO MUCH SHIT FOR LISTING THEM HERE SO I WONT. LETS JUST SAY, I AM PROUD OF WHAT WE ARE DOING. THE WOMENS DIVISION CAN EXPECT 2 VOGUE COVERS ON TWO DIFFERENT GIRLS, AND FOR A SMALL AGENCY LIKE MAJOR, ITS MAJOR. AND THE GUYS KEEP ON ROCKING.

I HAVE BEEN TOYING FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS ABOUT BECOMING A FOSTER PARENT, AND THEN EVENTUALLY ADOPTING. I AM SLOWLY AND PROACTIVELY SETTING THOSE WHEELS IN MOTION, I WANT TO BE A FATHER BADLY..I VE NEVER SAID IT LIKE THAT BEFORE. BUT I KNOW THAT WHERE MY HEART IS..AND EVERYTHING HAS LEAD TO THIS. AND AS I AM WRITING MY LIFE AS I GO, ALL CHAPTERS LEAD TO THIS EVENTUALITY.


THANKS FOR LISTENING
HAVE A BLESSED NIGHT

LOVE N LIGHT

J

RE-INTRODUCING KYLE L.

TUESDAY 11 17 PM

OK
THIS HAS BEEN A BITCH OF A WEEK
WE HAVE A TON OF GUYS IN TOWN
ITS SORT OF SLOW FOR SOME
BZ FOR OTHERS

ITS ALOT

BUT I FEEL LIKE AN AGENT AGAIN
MAKING APPOINTMENTS
LAYING OUT BOOKS
CHANGING CARDS

MAGGIE MAKING APPOINTMENTS, STAYING FOCUSED..BELLE FOCUSED, ITS NICE. EVEN WHEN ITS STRESSFUL THIS WEEK WE ARE MOVING QUICK AND FOWARD..AND THE GUYS SEE IT
I LEFT TODAY AT 7 30 FEELING A SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT. THIS IS WHERE WE NEED TO GET BACK TO
CONSTANT MOTION AND FLOW

HADNT SEEN FREDERIC MARINI IN A DOGS AGE, WAS WONDERFUL TO SEE HIM

............

WAS ONE OF THE SELECT FEW INVITED TO S.K'S B DAY
SO FUN
SOOO FUN
MADONNA

I MEAN I CANT EVEN WRAP MY BRAIN AROUND IT

BLIND ITEM
WHICH POWER HUNGRY PRESIDENT OF AGENCY WAS SEEN TRYING TO CHARM SOME HUNKY FITNESS TYPE OF GUY AT PARTY BY SPEAKING LOUDLY ABOUT THEMSELVES...AND I WAS SO TANKED I SCREAMED TO THE KID "'RUNNNNNN!" ..ITS WAS FUNNY AT THE TIME..LALLY , P WILSON, ANDY S, NATASHA VONJOVIC ALL CHKACKLED.ITS LIKE IF YOU ARE GONNA BE A SHADY SAUCY HORNDOG, KEEP IT ON THE LOW...I PROBABLY UPSET HIM SO MUCH HE'LL HAVE TO CHASE MORE MODELS BACKSTAGE IN MILAN AND TRY TO GET THEM TO SWITCH..TOO BAD THE AGENCY ISNT AS RELEVANT AS IT WAS 8 YRS AGO..BUT MAYBE A FAT CHECK AND REDUCED COMMISH WILL WORK-ISH..I DONT KNOW. THOSE PROMISES THAT NEVER GET DELIVERED ARE OLD.
IN HINDSIGHT IT WAS STUPID OF ME TO BE SUCH A COW( IVE HAD MY SHARE OF INDISCRETIONS)BUT I HAVENT PUT MYSELF OUT THERE TO BE ON BLAST , SINCE THE TUNNEL/CLUB USA..YOU GOTTA GROW UP SOMETIME.
THE FUNNY THING I ACTUALLY HAVE MORE RESPECT FOR THIS PERSON WATCHING HIM CREEP, ITS MORE HUMAN...BUT HONEY..SERIOUSLY, DISCRETION. SERIOUSLY!

XOXO
GOSSIP GRRRLL


PEACE

THINGS I AM LIVING FOR
AGENTS WHO ACTUALLY DO THE WORK
WHO ACTUALLY CAN TAKE A MODEL FROM POLAROID TO STARDOM
NOT WRITE A CHECK AND STEAL

AGENTS I AM LIVING FOR
PAUL ROWLAND
LANA WINTERS( GIRL IS TURNING IT OUT)
LOUIE CHABAN


IS THAT ALL? I THINK SO....
ENOUGH OF CORPORATE MEAT HEADS SUCKING THE CREATIVITY OUT OF ART AND FASHION
CHEERS TO PEOPLE MENTIONED ABOVE

GOOD NITE