IT IS WHAT IT IS

GOOD EVENING
HAD A REALLY "GOOD DAY"
WAS BUSY

FOR SOME REASON, WORK WAS REALLY BUSY SANS DRAMA. NO NEGATIVITY, NO "ISSUES"...NICE TO HAVE HAD MOST OF LAST WEEK OFF..CAME IN REALLY ENERGIZED..HAPPY TO SEE THE GUYS, READY TO GET RIGHT BCK TO THE CHAOS AS WE WILL BE SWAMPED TIL CHRISTMAS.

THIS WEEK THERE ARE SHOOTS GOING ON FOR V, WONDERLAND, T MAGAZINE(NY TIMES), D REPUBLICA, GQ US AND GERMAN..SO ITS THE USUAL OPTIONS..SIMON NESSMANN, TERRON WOOD, TRAVIS DAVENPORT , BLAINE COOK, ROBYN SINCLAIR, NATE NESBITT...BUT ALSO I AM HAPPY TO SAY WE R GETTING QUITE A RESPONSE ON ONE JAMAICAN ADONIS ORAINE BARRETT. CHECK OUT NEW PICS OF HIM AT. WWW.THEIMAGIST.COM ..THRILLED..HE HAS BEEN A PET PROJECT OF MINE FOR QUITE AWHILE..AND NOW IT SEEMS THE INDUSTRY IS FINALLY TAKING NOTICE.

IS IT OK FOR ME TO SAY I AM BITTER, A LITTLE ENVIOUS THAT WILHELMINA HAS FERGIE PERFORMING AT THIER 40TH ANNIVERSARY PARTY THIS THURSDAY? I MEAN , I AM GODSMACKED. LIKE WOW..HOW THE FUCK DO YOU COMPETE WITH THAT?(OH I KNOW, WITH BOOKINGS..AND UM YEAH, WE WON((AGAIN))..ANYHOO..ITS FIERCE REGARDLESS....FERGIE? WOW..GOOD ON THEM.

MY G-UNCLES(GAY-UNCLES) WERE HERE FOR THE PAST 5 DAYS TO CELEBRATE THANKSGIVING WITH ME AND THE REST OF OUR FAMILY. MY 3 NEPHEWS, MY SISTER SAM, AND MY BROTHER IN LAW SAL...IT WAS ALOT BUT WE GOT THRU IT....WE REALLY HAD OUR "HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS" MOMENTS..WE ARE TRULY A DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY THAT LOVES EACH OTHER. BUT WHAT I AM TRULY GRATEFUL..LETS SAY THANKSFUL FOR..IS HOW CLOSE I AM WITH MY 2 SISTERS. LIKE REALLY CLOSE. SAM AND I WERE RAISED TOGETHER AND WENT THRU ALOT OF HELL WITH ONE ANOTHER IN THAT PROCESS; WHERE AS SHELLY AND I HAD QUITE A FEW YEARS WHERE WE WERE SEPERATED FROM ONE ANOTHER..AND ALL OF THAT ABSENCE AND PAIN FOR ALL OF US SHOULD HAVE LEFT US BROKEN....AND IN SOME WAYS IT HAS...BUT TRULY..I AM SUCH GOOD FRIENDS WITH BOTH OF THEM. I ADMIRE SAM, FOR HER LOYALTY , HER WAY WITH HER KIDS..HER VULNERABILTY , HER SADNESS..SHE WEARS IT. I ADMIRE SHELLY FOR HER RESILENCE, HER TIMELESS BEAUTY, HER LAUGH OUT LOUD LAUGHTER THAT SHE HAS WHEN SHE TELLS A VERY FUNNY STORY..I RESPECT HER FOR STANDING UP FOR HERSELF, NOT COMPROMISING AND TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR HERSELF ON HER OWN TERMS. AS MUCH AS I AM DIFFERENT FROM MY SISTERS AND I SO AWED BY THEIR TENACITY AND THEIR STRENGTH.
MY G-UNCLES AND MY MOM ARE VERY DIFFERENT THEN MY SISTERS AND I..THEY DID LOVE, BUT THEY DISLIKED EACH OTHER..ALOMOST "TOLERATED" ONE ANOTHER...THATS NOT ME AND MY SISTERS AND FOR THAT I CAN REST EASY KNOWING I HAVE THEM IN MY LIFE AND THAT WE ALL REALY LOVE EACH OTHER..HAVING Y G-UNCLES HERE MADE ME REALIZE HOW PRECIOUS MY REALTIONSHIPS WITH MY SISTERS AND MY NEPHEWS ARE TO ME...I DONT WANY TO SAY FAMILY FIRST..BECUASE JILL, CAMERON DARRYLL, JENN ARE SO MUCH APART OF HOW I DEFINE MYSELF,BUT MY SISTERS ARE MY FRIEND STOO,,AND CAN YOU ASK FOR BETTER THEN THAT?

WITH LOVE TONITE

J

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR
SAM AND SHELL
JOSH PHIL AND NICK
CAM DARRYLL JENN AND JILL
AND ME

OH YEAH AND THE CANUCK UP TO NO GOOD

J