MIAMI MANANA

I HATE FLYING
HUGE FEAR
I HAVE TRIED HYPNOTISM (DR REINER BEHAVIORAL CENTRE)
POSITIVE THOUGHTS
WORKED WITH MY HEALER ANDY SWAY ON IT
BUT IF I TAKE A FEW XANAX AND HAVE A FEW DRINKS..IM COOL
BUT I HATE IT


CAR PICKS US AT 5AM , ITS 224 AM NOW
I AM LEAVING AT 710 AM OUT OF LGA
I HAVE A SEAT IN FIRST CLASS ON DELTA
ARRIVE AT 10 28 AM

I AM STAYING UP ALL NIGHT (MY USUAL INSANE ROUTINE) IN ORDER TO BE SO EXHAUSTED THAT THE PILLS AND BOOZE WILL HIT QUICKER

DARRYL FLIES BACK WITH ME, AND BEN ESKRIDGE IS AS WELL. ROBYN SINCLAIR MEETS US THERE AS HE CONNECTS THERE FROM BAHAMAS. CANT WAIT TO SEE SARAH HAMILTON BAILEY.
THEY ARE ASLEEP, AND DONT GET MY FEAR. AT TIMES ITS THE BEGINNING OF A PANIC ATTACK..BUT DOESNT GET FULL BLOWN I KNOW , ITS NUTS.

ITS A FEAR OF LOSS OF CONTROL, SURE
ITS ALSO ONE OF MY IRRATIONAL NOTIONS...I WISH I DIDNT HAVE IT "THE CRAZIES"
I D LOVE TO TRAVEL MORE. IN MY 20S I WAS IN PARIS, LONDON MILAN ON A LOOP AND IN MIAMI AT LEAST 6 TIMES A YEAR. NOW I AM "LUCKY" IF I AM ON A PLANE TWICE A YEAR. I HOPE I SNAP OUT OF IT..ID LOVE TO BE IN LA ALOT MORE.

TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF WORK FOR THE YEAR
WE HAD SECRET SANTA/KRIS KRINGLE
TOOK ALOT OF LAST MINUTE BOOKINGS

EL PAIS FOR DOUG PICKETT( LIKE "T" MAGAZINE FOR BARCELONA"S SUNDAY PAPER)
SAKS CAMPAIGN WITH DOUG INGLISH FR DETAILS MAG FOR TRAVIS DAVENPORT
ISA WADE LUCAS KERR DOING SOME LA$T MINUTE TARGET MONEY STUFF THIS WEEK AND NEXT
WADE AND CHAD MAKING COINAGE DOING MACY$ NEXT WEEK
E LUXURY, MACYS SOUTH AND NORTHWEST BOOKED A BUNCH OF GUYS UP UNTIL DEC 22
'IM TOLD JEREMY SIMPSON IS GOING TO BE ON A COVER OF A VERY IMPORTANT RELAUNCHED IMAGE PIECE/CATALOGUE/HOTNESS IN FEBUARY..ITS GOING TO GET ALOT ALOT OF BUZZ....SO HAPPY
JEREMY IS ALSO SHOOTING GQ TOMORROW AS WELL WITH ERIC RAY DAVIDSON
SEAN HARJU AND BLAINE COOK SHOT ANOTHER DETAILS STORY WITH MATTHEW EDELSTEIN(EDITOR) AND PETER STANGLMYER.
SAM BOOKED EGLE FOR THE NEXT BARNEYS CAMPAIGN WITH DANIEL JACKSON(HOW EFFIN HOT IS THAT!)
BRANDON MILLS AND BLAINE COOK ARE SHOOTING FELD TOMORROW WITH FAUBEL CHRISTENSEN
I MET WITH TERRON WOOD TODAY...NEXT YEAR IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR HIM..I THINK PARIS SHOWS CAN AND WILL IMPACT HIS CAREER AND THE MERT N MARCUS/LOUIS VUITTON/MONDINO/ GAULTIER WILL TAKE NOTICE.
BLAINE IS DONG CALVIN KLEINS SHOW EXCLUSIVE IN MILAN IN JANUARY. HE ALLEGEDLY WILL OPEN AND CLOSE THE SHOW.
AITOR MATEO AND JARRET ROBINSON SHOW ARENA WITH MATTHIAS VRIENS ON MONDAY.

WHILE I AM TYPING I AM WATCHING THE HILLS SEASON FINALE(AGAIN)
LOVE THE SHOW, DIDNT LOVE THE ENDING
THEY SHOULD HAVE HAD HEIDO RUNNNIG TO LAURENS HOUSE BUT LAUREN EN ROUTE TO PARIS. WHATEVES.

SUCH BAD TV NOW ON. SOMEONE IN PROGRAMMING NEEDS TO STEP IT UP

A FEW QUESTIONS/THINGS/UH HUHS?AND WHATEVS

RACHEL RAY(EXPLAIN IT)
LOVVED PEREZ HILTON VH1 2007 WRAP UP SHOW..BUT WHATS WITH THE OBSESSION WITH ZAC EFRON...DONT GET IT. ALSO JENNA JAMISON NOW LOOKS LIKE PTER BURNS FROM DEAD OR ALIVE.
MADONNA HALL OF FAME(YEAH) MARCH 10TH IN NYC..I HAVE TO GO...I AM GOING TO GAG IF I DONT!
OK, I KIND OF THINK HE HILLS ISNT ALL FAKERY
BRODY JENNER IS A BOO..AND I THINK ID STILL DO SPENCER IF IT WAS 1995 AND I WAS ON E AND ON THE STEPS OF SOUND FACTORY(REMEMBER GUYS)

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AT OUR AGENCY PARTY I RAN INTO OLD OLD FRIEND DUSTIN DREW HOROWITZ. HE HASNT AGREE. NICE TO SEE HIM. I WAS SORT OF DISAPPOINTED THAT I DIDNT GET LOOSER AND DANCE MORE..BUT I AM SO INSECURE AS THE WEIGHT JUST REALLY PILED ON THIS YEAR(DUNNNZO) SHIT HAS TO CHANGE IN 2008.

ANYWAY, I AM GOING TO WATCH AN OLD STAND UP COMEDY SPECIAL FROM BRAVO OF CAROLINE RHEA. SO FUNY

XOXOX
SEND LOVE AND LIGHT TO ME

JASON

1 29 pm WEDNESDAY

SO HUNG OVER

I AM 38 YRS OLD
WHEN WILL I LEARN ...DRINK WATER BEFORE BED...I STARTED REALLY DRINKING T 1030,AND DIDNT STOP TIL 3OR 4 AM
NOT MY BEST LOOK

WOKE UP TO EMAILS FOR
RICHARD BLANDINO
JD FERGUSON
ROCCO LASPATA
PIPPA LORD
MAGGIE GONZALEZ
HLLERY SKLAR(OUR FIERCE DJ)
EMILY GRIFFITH FROM LAIRD AND PARTNERS


TH EPARTY HAD THE BEST ENERGY..THE PEOPLE THAT TURNED UP SEEMED TO BRING THE LIGHT AND HAD FUN. TIIU LOOKED GORGEOUS, AS DID EGLE. KATIA WAS ALL SMILES, ITS WAS QUITE A MAYJE MOMENT. THE SPACE WAS PACKED AT OEN POINT, AND I WAS LIKE"FUCK, WHO THE HELL R THESE PEOPLE?"

OFF TOPIC, I JUST PUT ON THE BOLD AND THE BEAUTIFUL ON TV( YEAH, IM NOT AT WORK, LOL)AND ITS LIKE A BAD INFOMMERCIAL ON BOTOX..HIDEOUS. ANYHOO

THE GUYS LOOKS SO HOT, I HATE TO BE GROSS BUT DAMMN...DID YOU GUYS SEE CHARLES DEVOE LAST NIGHT. DAMN, HE LOOKED AMAZING. AS DID THE LEGENDARY CHRIS COLLINS. I HUNG OUT ALOT WITH STEPHANIE PASSAVANT AND RYAN DAHARSH.

I NEED TO ORDER SOME FOOD. MY BEST FRIEND DARRYL IS PASSED OUT IN MY GUEST ROOOM AND MY LIVING ROOM LOOKS LIKE A NIGHTCLUB..I NEED TO RALLY


PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR TODAY

KATIA SHERMAN
DARRYL DICKENS
SABINE MANAS
EMILY GRIFFITH
JD FERGUSON
TRAVIS DAVENPORT
BLAINE COOK
RYAN CLARK
DOUGLAS PERRETT
STEPHANIE PASSAVANT
HILLERY SKLAR
JENNIFER WHELAN( SO SWEET)


TTYL
XOXOX
J

MAJOR MODELS HOLIDAY PARTY

HAPPY HOLIDAYS
PARTY TONIGHT IS AT
PRIMAL LIGHT STUDIO
450 WEST 31 STREET
PENTHOUSE 12H FLOOR

7PM TIL 1 AM

COME IF YOU ARE IN NYC

MY BEST FRIEND DARRYL JUST GOT HERE
STEPHANIE PASSAVANT IS MY DATE
WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A BLAST ITS VERY EXCITING

SO MUCH GOING ON
TO MUCH TO GET INTO

LOVING YOU

THE HILLS

WATCHING


LOVING IT

I LOVE L.C.

GAGGGINGGGG

SATURDAY BROKEN DOWN

TODAY WAS AGREAT DAY FOR MANY REASONS

GORGEOUS COLD WEATHER
WENT SHOPPING FOR MY SISTER , BROTEHR IN LAW AND DEAR FRIEND MARIA
ALTHOUGH THE STORES WERE PACKED, FOR THEMOST PART I WAS IN AND OUT OF BARNEYS AND BLOOMIES WITH OUT MUCH DRAMA(WAITING TIME)...
WOKE UP THIS MORNING TO MY HANDSOME MAN...AND THAT IS ALWAYS A GREAT WAY TO START. GOT UPTOWN IN 15 MINUTES BY CAB...
1 HAVW 3 GUYS CONFIRMED FOR ID MAGAZINE THIS WEEKEND WITH ALICE HAWKINS. DOUGLAS PERRETT AT DEVELOPEMENT DID THE CASTNG AND CHANCE STROOT SHOT IN OUR MODELS APARTMENT, MARK RICKETSON IS BEING SHOT AT HIS HOME AND ORAINE BARRETT IS BEING SHOT IN MY APARTMENT AT 7PMM TONIGHT. I LIKE ALICE"S WORK ALOT..SHE SHOT THE AGENT PROVACTEUR PICS OF MAGGIE GYLLENHAAL. VERY COOK..VERY OF THE MOMENT
I HAVE MARIA"S BIRTHDAY BRUNCH WITH MAURY DIMAURO AND HER FAMILY AT THE RITZ TOMORROW. THEN I HAVE MY SISTER AND THE BOYS STRAIGHT AFTER. TOMORROW WILL BE GREAT AS WELL.
MY BESTIE BEN IS FLYING IN FROM MIAMI AFTER SHOOTING ALL WEEK IN HARBOUR ISLAND SO WE WILL HAVE SOME DRINS AND GETE OUR CHAT ON..I THINK HE IS SLEEPING OVER..WE ARE SO THE HILLS(MORE LIKE OVER THE HILLS)
I AM SOOO LOOKING FOWARD TO OUR X MAS PARTY THIS COMING TUESDAY
WE REALLY ARE DOING SOMETHING QUITE SPECIAL. LOTS OF GREAT PEOPLE WHO HAVE SUPPORTED US R COMING
I AM SOOO HAPPY
WELL HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND YOU ALL
XOXOX
J

SLEEPLESS IN BATTERY PARK

LAYING ON MY BED
CANNOT SLEEP
WIND IS POUNDING AGAINIST MY WINDOW
I HAVE SO MUCH TO PLAN IN THE NEXT WEEK
AGENCY PARTY
GIFTS FOR FRIENDS LOVED ONES STAFF
KATIA BOUGHT 90% OF THE GIFTS TO OUR CLIENTS, AND WE HAVE BEEN BIKING THEM AROUND TODAY. I HAVE TO SAY WE R A VERY GENEROUS COMPANY FOR SUCH A "BOUTIQUE" AGENCY.
MY MAN IS AWAY(AGAIN)..MY HOUSEKEEPER CAME SO MY HOUSE DOESNT HAVE HIS SMELL, AND I WISH I COUDL SAVE HIS PILLOW CASE AND HIDE IT SO SHE CANT TOUCH IT SO ON NIGHTS LIEK THIS I CAN SAVOUR IT ...I KNOW...I KNOW..BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS..I LOVE HIS SMELL , I LOVE HIM
I GO TO MIAMI DEC14TH , I RENTED A SICK OCEAN APARTMENT FOR A MONT,,,BUT ILL ONLY ENJOY IT FOR 3 WEEKS. I HATE FLYING..DETEST IT..BUT MY BEST FRIEND DARRYLL WILL BE FLYING DOWN WITH ME SO I LL HAVE SOME MORAL SUPPORT.
I NEED TO LOSE SOME FUCKING WEIGHT..THE HOLIDAYS JUST MAKE ME GAIN 15 LBS AND 15 LBS I CANT AFFORD. I NEED TO LOSE 50 NOW!
I AM REALLY WORKING ON IT IN MY HEAD..NO MATTER WHAT I AM WORKING OUT TOMORROW.
THE MENS DIVISON HAS BILLED 300K IN THE PAST 3 DAYS..ITS ALMOST MIND BLOWING..AND WITHOUT TRYING TO SOUND LIKE A TOTAL ASSHOLE, ITS DESERVED. I WORK HARD, MY TEAM DOES..THE GUYS ARE FLAWLESS AND THE CLIENTS SEEM TO REALLY BE RESPONDING BY BOOKING OUR GUYS CONSISTENTLY. ITS TRULY A BLESSING(SO I AM NOT BLOCKING IT)
I FEEL LIEK SHIT THAT WE DIDNT (MODELHOMEPROJECT.COM)DIDNT GO TO NEW ORLEANS THIS YEAR. I WISH WE COULD PARTNER WITH BRAD PITTS COMPANY AND DO SOME THINGS WITH THEM...IT S A PART OF MY PLAN FOR 2008 TO DO MORE SERVICE..I ENJOY IT, AND NOT DOING IT MAKES ME FEEL SELFISH AND UNGRATEFUL. DESPITE MY TROUBLES IN MY YOUTH I HAVE BEEN GIVEN SO MUCH , AND I ENJOY GIVING BACK, BUT I GET LOST IN "THE WORK AND ITS A TIRED EXCUSE..SO I PLAN ON BEING MORE PROACTIVE AND CONTINUE(ALONG WITH JON PASSAVANT) TO WORK ON IT.
I HAD LUNCH WITH SIMON NESSMAN TODAY AT LES HALLES..I AM OLD ENOUGH TO BE HIS DAD, I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO PARENT HIM, AND THAT S NOT MY JOB. HE IS GOIN TO DO THE SHOWS IN MILAN AND PARIS IN JANARY SO I AM VVVERY EXCITED FOR HIM.
ALRIGHTY PEOPLE
SENDING LOVE AND LIGHT TO YOU ALL
SEND SOME BACK
I MISS MY SISTER SHELLY..CANT WAIT TO SEE HER IN MIAMI
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
JASON

REMAINS OF THE DAY

I AM SO EFFING BUSY I DONT KNOW WHAT S WHAT...

IM STRESSING RIGHT NOW
MY SISTER SAM IS REALLY GOING THRU IT. PROBLEM SWITH HER BOYS..PROBLEMS WITH HER HORRIBLE ELDERLY IN LAWS..SHE FEELS TRAPPED..I DONT KNOW HOW TO HELP HER. I WISH SHE FELT SHE COULD RELY ON ME MORE. I TOLD HER I AM HERE FOR HER 1000%

ON THE WORK FRONT..I AM SLAMMMMMMED.

TRAVIS DAVENPORT GOT BOOKED FOR DETAILS THIS FRIDAY WITH PETER STANGLEMAYER AND EDITOR MATTHEW EDELSTEIN.
ROBYN SINCLAIR AND JON PASSAVANT ARE GOING ON A TRIP TO BAHAMAS FOR LORD AND TAYLOR NEXT WEEK.
ISA RAHMAN AND CHARLES DEVOE ARE SHOOTING HICKEY FREEMAN WITH ARNALDO ANAYA LUCCA NEXT WEEK FOR SPRING SUMMER 08 DEC 12 THRU 14 IN A MANHATTAN STUDIO
CHRIS COLLINS RYAN DAHARSH CHAD WHITE ARE SHOOTING DEBENHAMS IN PALM BEACH ON MONDAY DEC 10TH. PAUL COSTER IS IN TOWN TO DO A BLOOMINGDALES CAMPAIGN WITH ROBERT MAXWELL.LUCAS KERR SHOT ESQUIRE IN LONDON WITH TIM BRET DAY TODAY(LOL).JAMES GUARDINO GOT AN ADVERTISING JOB CALLED "URBAN BEHAVIOR" OUT OF TORONTO..GREAT CASH!!! TONS OF CATALOGUE BEING BOOKED ETC. JEREMY SIMPSON IS SHOOTING AERIE WITH GEMMA BOOTH IN LA. JEREMY SANTUCCI, ENRIQU MIRON SEAN HARJU TERRON WOOD AND TRAVIS DAVENPORT DID A PERSONAL APPEARANCE THIS MORNING WITH DOLCE AND GABBANA.

WE ARE HAVING OUR MAJOR X MAS PARTY DEC 11TH AT THE LOFT AT 450 WEST 31 STREET. ITS GOING TO BE QUITE F**KING MAYJE. HOPEFULLY I LL SEE SOME OF YOU MUTHA EFFERS THERE

I HAVE SO MUCH HOLIDAY SHOPPING TO DO..THE LIST IS ENDLESS..AND THIS SEASON I ACTUALLY WANT TO WRAP ALL PERSONAL GIFTS(IS THAT CRAZY)?

MY BESTIE DARRYLL IS FLYING UP FROM MIAMI FOR OUR X MAS PARTY. I AM THRILLED..ITS BEEN AN ENTIR EYEAR SINCE IVE SEEN HIM. LOVE THAT BITCH.

I CANT WAIT TO BE IN MIAMI
I LEAVE DEC 14TH AND COME BACK JAN 11TH(HOLLA)
I NEED THE BREAK FO SHO

RANDOM RUMBLINGS...


WHO IS TILA TEQUILA..IS IT A DRINK?
WHAT IS WITH THE HURRICANE IN NYC? ENUF
WHERE IS A GREAT LOUNG IN HELLS KITCHEN?
ARE ANY OF YOU WATCHING NIP/TUCK? THOUGHTS?
HAVE ANY OF YOU EVER TRIED WEIGHT WATCHERS..OR KNOW ANYONE WHO HAS?
NOVEMBER ITALIAN VOGUE..HOW GORGEOUS IS THAT COAT STORY OF COCO AND MEGHAN COLLISION?


ALSO..RECOMMENDED

WWW.THEIMAGIST.COM
WWW.MAJORMODELS.BLOGSPOT.COM


OK GUYS
IM OFF

XOXOX

JASON

SPELL CHECK

ILL GET BETTER WITH CHECKING MY POSTS FOR SPELLING ERRORS...I TYPE LIKE I SPEAK...FAST , WITHOUT TOO MUCH THOUGHT OR PRETENSE

SO WINDY
OFF 2 BED

NYC TRANNIES...DONT TRUST THEM(?)

O AM GAY
I HAVE TONS OF GAY FRIENDS
TONS OF BISEXUAL FRIENDS
TONS OF GAY FRIENDS

I AM EXTREMELY OPEN MINDED
OR AT LEAST I THINK I AM

BUT I AM KIND OF OVER TRANNIES....NOW, I AM NOT HATING ON TRANNIES...BUT DAMN EVERYONE I HAVE MET SO FAR HAS BEEN SORT OF SHADY. WHATS THE ABOUT?
IM SITTING AT LUNCH WITH MY MAN AT CAFETERIA AND I AM SITTING NEXT TO A COUPLE TO MY RIGHT. AN OBVIOUSLY TRANSEXUAL AND HER MAN. NOW SHE IS LOUD...TRYING TO GET ATTENTION AND BEING ANNOYING YET I SAY OR DO NOTHING AS ITS NOT MY PROBLEM. IF YOU BEEN TO CAFETERIA YOU KNOW THE TWO TOP TABLES ARE INCHES FROM ONE ANOTHER...SO THIS GIRL IS STARING DOWN MY MAN LIKE ITS A TRICK OR SOMEHTING..LIKE JUST TRYING TO EYE LOCK HIM AND I AM LIKE DAMN HONEY CAN YOU SHOW SOME TACT? ITS LIKE YOU HAVE THE BEAUTY OF A WOMAN AND THE MIND IF A GAY MAN..ITS ALOT..I CANT EVEN IMAGINE WHAT THAT WOULD FEEL LIKE.
MY MAN IS KICKING ME SOFTLY UNDER THE TABLE LIKE" DO YOU SEE THIS SHIT?"..THEN SHE STARTS TEXT MESSAGING HER DATE,AND THEY START CONVERSING THAT WAY..AND LOOK UP FROM EACH OTHERS MESSAGES AND SAY " U H UH,,AND YEAH RIIIGHT"..AND THEN MOTION TO MY MAN..I WAS SO OVER IT THAT I ALMOST GOT THE NERVE TO SAY SOMETHING..BECAUSE FOR THE 1 HOUR WE WERE IN EACH OTHERS AIR SPACE THIS GIRL JUST STARED AT HIM LIKE HE WAS A PAINTING. AND MADE IT VERY UNCOMFORTABLE FOR US TO SPEAK TO ONE ANOTHER AS EVERY NANCE OF WHAT WE WERE DOING WAS BEING SCRUTINIZED. AND THEN AS THIS BITCH GOT UP, HER ASS WAS TO OUR TABLE AND SHE FARTED RIGHT AT US...CLASSLESS...YOU COUDLNT WAIT THR 10 STEPS FROM TABLE TO 7TH AVENUE? GROSS. NOT A FUN SUNDAY

WHEN I WAS IN MIAMI LAST CHRISTMAS I WAS AT SPLASH AND I WAS SHITFACED. A TRANNY BEFRIENDED ME AND THEN TRY TO STEAL MY SIDEKICK...AN PROMOTER BACK IN THE DAY IN NYC WODL TRY TO BED MALE MODELS WTHOUT TELLING THEM THAT SHE WAS PACKING COCK..AND THEN WHEN THE GUYS WOUDL FIND OUT THEYD BOLT...TRICKERY I TELL YOU

NOW, I LOVE MY GAY COMMUNITY BUT SHIT...ITS ALOT SOMETIMES

AM I BEING A JACKASS..IS THAT THE PRICE TO PAY TO HAVE A HOT BOYFRIEND OR SHOULD I HAVE CUT A BITCH( WITH MY WORDS)..TALK TO ME PEOPLES

XOXO
J

SNOWING IN NYC...LOVE IT

2 27 PM

SO COLD IN NYC
WE HAVE BEEN UP FOR 2 HOURS
TRIED TO WORK OUT..MY GYM IS CLOSED FOR REPAIR....WE ARE HEADING TO CHELSEA FOR TAN AND PEDICURES.MY FEET ARE REALLY HIDEOUS
GONG TO GET BRUNCH OF SOME SORT AND THEN MAYBE SEE A MOVIE. BENNY IS STUCK IN CHICAGO, SO OUR PLAN FOR CHINEESE AND DESPERATE LOOKS DERAILED. MOTHER NATURE CAN SUCK IT....! DOESNT SHE KNOW WHO WE THINK WE ARE?

TOMORROW SHOULD BE AN INTERESTING DAY..SEEMS THAT I HAVE SOEM TERMITES IN MY FOUNDATION WINK WINK WHO R TRYING TO SLOWLY EAT MY HOUSE AWAY..AND IM NOT HAVING IT. DISLOYALTY TO ME HAS ALWAYS BEEN A DEAL BREAKER..IF I COULD DROP NICK LEMONS AND CLINT MAURO, IT S EVEIDENT THAT I AM NOT THE ONE FOR PUTTING UP WITH THINGS IN ORDER TO KEEP UP APPEARANCES.

NATE NESBITT CALLED ME IN A MODEL PANIC THAT HE THOUGHT HIS FLIGHT TO LA(VIA SPOKANE) WOULD BE CANCELLED DUE TO AN IMPENDING SNOW STORM..LCKILY HE WAS ABLE TO TRAVEL WITHOUT INCIDENT TO SHOOT WITH MR GREG KADEL.

I AM HOPING FOR ONE MORE HUGE ASS BOOKING BEFORE CHRISTMAS..WILL BE NICE..LIKE A WHOPPER OF A BOOKING YA KNOW?

OK, MY MAN IS BEING IMPATIENT..AND I NEEDS TO BOUNCE

SENDING LOVE AND LIGHT TO WHOMEVER READS THIS

XO

J

FREEZING IN NYC

MY BOYFRIEND IS PASSED OUT NEXT TO ME SNORING..I FIND BLISS IN THAT. THE SIMPLE THINGS
BEST WEEK EVER IS QUIETLY PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND
WE ATE A TON OF CRUDITE LEFT OVER FROM LAST NIGHT
MY FEET R COLD
NO PLACE IN THE WORLD I WANT 2 BE
XOXO

SMART WATER

WHAT A WEEK
LAST NIGHT WAS ARNALDO ANAYA LUCCAS BIRTHDAY
I TOOK TERRON WOOD ROBYN SINCLAIR BEN ESKRIDGE REBECCA(ARNIES STRAIGHT GIRLFRIEND) TO MR CHOW IN TRIBECA
HAD SO MUCH FUN
RUSSELL SIMMONS WAS THERE WITH $OME $MONEY$ PEOPLE AND WAS CLOCKING US..LOVED IT
SOOO BUSY I MUST SAY...TONS OF BOOKINGS
TRAVIS DAVENPORT AND BALIEN COOK SHOOTING V MAN TODAY WITH BENJAMIN HUSEBY. TERRON SHOOTING ULTA WITH ROCCO LASPATA. CHAD WHITE SHOT THE COVER OF ATTITUDE IN LONDON WITH MATT IRWIN(FIERCE).DAMON WILLIS SHOT RUSSEL AND BROMLEY SHOES WITH MARTYN THOMPSON. ROBYN SINCLAIR DOUG PICKETT AND CHRIS COLLINS ARE FLYING TO HARBOUR ISALND TO SHOOT POLO INSTORE CAMPAIGN WITH ARNALDO ANAYA LUCCA. ZEV SHOT AMERICAN GQ WITH JESSE FROHAMAN.
THERE IS AHUGE DOLCE GABBANA EVENT NEXT WEEK. WE BOOKED TRAVIS TERRON ENRQIUE MIRON , NEWBIE JEREMY AKA JAY SANTUCCI(WWW.JDVISIONTHEBLOG.COM) AND SEAN HARJU FOR THE EVENT. NAUTICA IS LAUNCHING THEIR NEW LINE OF UNDERWEAR ON THE 5TH..THIERRY PEPIN SHOT THE CAMPAIGN WITH THOMAS SCHENCK) AND THEY BOOKED TYLER GARCEAU TYLER LOUGH JEREMY AKA JAY SANTUCCI ENRIQUE MIRON AND RYAN DAHARSH. RYAN DAHARSH ALSO SHOT GERMAN GQ WITH GREG DELVES.
ILL BE BACK LATER
IM HAVING A HOUSE PARTY WHO WANTS TO COME?

IT IS WHAT IT IS

GOOD EVENING
HAD A REALLY "GOOD DAY"
WAS BUSY

FOR SOME REASON, WORK WAS REALLY BUSY SANS DRAMA. NO NEGATIVITY, NO "ISSUES"...NICE TO HAVE HAD MOST OF LAST WEEK OFF..CAME IN REALLY ENERGIZED..HAPPY TO SEE THE GUYS, READY TO GET RIGHT BCK TO THE CHAOS AS WE WILL BE SWAMPED TIL CHRISTMAS.

THIS WEEK THERE ARE SHOOTS GOING ON FOR V, WONDERLAND, T MAGAZINE(NY TIMES), D REPUBLICA, GQ US AND GERMAN..SO ITS THE USUAL OPTIONS..SIMON NESSMANN, TERRON WOOD, TRAVIS DAVENPORT , BLAINE COOK, ROBYN SINCLAIR, NATE NESBITT...BUT ALSO I AM HAPPY TO SAY WE R GETTING QUITE A RESPONSE ON ONE JAMAICAN ADONIS ORAINE BARRETT. CHECK OUT NEW PICS OF HIM AT. WWW.THEIMAGIST.COM ..THRILLED..HE HAS BEEN A PET PROJECT OF MINE FOR QUITE AWHILE..AND NOW IT SEEMS THE INDUSTRY IS FINALLY TAKING NOTICE.

IS IT OK FOR ME TO SAY I AM BITTER, A LITTLE ENVIOUS THAT WILHELMINA HAS FERGIE PERFORMING AT THIER 40TH ANNIVERSARY PARTY THIS THURSDAY? I MEAN , I AM GODSMACKED. LIKE WOW..HOW THE FUCK DO YOU COMPETE WITH THAT?(OH I KNOW, WITH BOOKINGS..AND UM YEAH, WE WON((AGAIN))..ANYHOO..ITS FIERCE REGARDLESS....FERGIE? WOW..GOOD ON THEM.

MY G-UNCLES(GAY-UNCLES) WERE HERE FOR THE PAST 5 DAYS TO CELEBRATE THANKSGIVING WITH ME AND THE REST OF OUR FAMILY. MY 3 NEPHEWS, MY SISTER SAM, AND MY BROTHER IN LAW SAL...IT WAS ALOT BUT WE GOT THRU IT....WE REALLY HAD OUR "HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS" MOMENTS..WE ARE TRULY A DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY THAT LOVES EACH OTHER. BUT WHAT I AM TRULY GRATEFUL..LETS SAY THANKSFUL FOR..IS HOW CLOSE I AM WITH MY 2 SISTERS. LIKE REALLY CLOSE. SAM AND I WERE RAISED TOGETHER AND WENT THRU ALOT OF HELL WITH ONE ANOTHER IN THAT PROCESS; WHERE AS SHELLY AND I HAD QUITE A FEW YEARS WHERE WE WERE SEPERATED FROM ONE ANOTHER..AND ALL OF THAT ABSENCE AND PAIN FOR ALL OF US SHOULD HAVE LEFT US BROKEN....AND IN SOME WAYS IT HAS...BUT TRULY..I AM SUCH GOOD FRIENDS WITH BOTH OF THEM. I ADMIRE SAM, FOR HER LOYALTY , HER WAY WITH HER KIDS..HER VULNERABILTY , HER SADNESS..SHE WEARS IT. I ADMIRE SHELLY FOR HER RESILENCE, HER TIMELESS BEAUTY, HER LAUGH OUT LOUD LAUGHTER THAT SHE HAS WHEN SHE TELLS A VERY FUNNY STORY..I RESPECT HER FOR STANDING UP FOR HERSELF, NOT COMPROMISING AND TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR HERSELF ON HER OWN TERMS. AS MUCH AS I AM DIFFERENT FROM MY SISTERS AND I SO AWED BY THEIR TENACITY AND THEIR STRENGTH.
MY G-UNCLES AND MY MOM ARE VERY DIFFERENT THEN MY SISTERS AND I..THEY DID LOVE, BUT THEY DISLIKED EACH OTHER..ALOMOST "TOLERATED" ONE ANOTHER...THATS NOT ME AND MY SISTERS AND FOR THAT I CAN REST EASY KNOWING I HAVE THEM IN MY LIFE AND THAT WE ALL REALY LOVE EACH OTHER..HAVING Y G-UNCLES HERE MADE ME REALIZE HOW PRECIOUS MY REALTIONSHIPS WITH MY SISTERS AND MY NEPHEWS ARE TO ME...I DONT WANY TO SAY FAMILY FIRST..BECUASE JILL, CAMERON DARRYLL, JENN ARE SO MUCH APART OF HOW I DEFINE MYSELF,BUT MY SISTERS ARE MY FRIEND STOO,,AND CAN YOU ASK FOR BETTER THEN THAT?

WITH LOVE TONITE

J

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR
SAM AND SHELL
JOSH PHIL AND NICK
CAM DARRYLL JENN AND JILL
AND ME

OH YEAH AND THE CANUCK UP TO NO GOOD

J

SUNDAY BRUNCH AT MARITIME

OK GUYS
BENNY , BRAD AND I ARE "LA BOTTEGA'S " P.R. MACHINE
WE R THERE AT LEAST 3 TIMES A WEEK
HAVING DRINKS
ORDERED FOOD AT THE BAR ETC

AND THEN WEEKS AGO BENNY AND I DISCOVERED THEIR BRILLIANT BRUNCH
BAKED EGGS WITH AVOCADO
YUM

BUT LATELY
THE MARITIME "S SERVICE...REALLY BAD
SITTING AT A BAR WITH NO DRINKS
NOT A CUTE LOOK AT ALL


ANYWAY
HAD BRUNCH WITH BENNY BRAD AND WENDY
REALLY GOOD TIMES
MELLOW SUPER CASUAL

WALKED HOME
HAD DINNER WITH THE FAMILY
MY UNCLE RICHARD NITPICKED
MY BROTHER IN LAW BULLIED

THE USUAL BULLSHIT

NEXT

WATCHED DESPERATE AND BROTHERS N SISTERS
BRILLIANT

LOVVVVED

CANT WAIT 2 GET 2 WORK
YEAH US

X
J

SATURDAY NIGHT 922 PM

SPENT LAZY DAY IN BED WITH MY MAN WATCHING BAD TV...SO NICE..HIS QUIET SNORING...MY TOSSING N TURNING NEXT TO HIM....WENT OUT LST NIGHT WITH SEAN BILOSKI.GOT HAMMERED..BAR AND CLUB HOPPED LIKE IT WAS MY JOB..DRUNKEN, I WALKED INTO A MCDONALDS ND ORDERED WHAT EEMED LIKE HALF THEIR MENU AND FEASTED LIKE A PIG..HELPED WITH THE HANGOVER
I HAD A FUNNY DREAM LAST NIGHT THAT I WAS IN A STUDIO WORKING WITH MARIO TESTINO AND HE KEPT CALLING ME "BELLA"..ODD RIGHT?
MY SISTER SHELLY BOUGHT HER FIRST HOUSE..I AM SO EFFING PROUD OF HER I CANT TAKE IT. SO PROUD.

I HAD MY FAMILY WITH ME FOR THANKSGIVING..IT WAS SOOOO NICE! THE KIDS HAD A BLAST. THE FOOD WAS OFF THE HOOK...IT WAS VERY NICE TO HAVE EVERYONE BY ME.I LOVED IT.

ILL WRITE MORE TOMORROW..IM KNACKERED

DINNER 12 09 AM TUESDAY

WENT OFF WITHOUT A HITCH
THE GUYS SEEMED VERY HAPPY
EVERYONE GETS ALONG SO WELL
WE WERE GIVEN A VERY POSH PRIVATE ROOM
IT WAS QUITE CHIC ACTUALLY
THE SERVICE HOWEVER WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE
BETWEEN GAWKING OVER THE BOYS AND THE LENGTH OF TIME TO GET FOOD AND DRINKS..I WAS REALLY OVER IT..BUT ALAS A NICE TIME AND A GREAT MEAL WAS HAD BY ALL

HABLA MANANA

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751 pm MONDAY

HAVE 9PM REZZIES AT PRIME HOUSE FOR DOUG AND CHRIS COLLINS BELATED B DAY DINNER
I AM SO EXHAUSTED BY MY LONG ASS WEEKEND THAT I AM GOING TO NTO BE LOVING THIS EXPERIENCE I CAN TELL YOU.

GUEST LIST
BEN ESKRIDGE
BRAD FISHER
DOUG PICKETT HIS LADY LOVE DEIRDE
CHRIS COLLINS
LUCAS KERR
ROBYN SINCLAIR
MERYL KEATOR
JOEL GRIFFITH
SARA OLINGER
MELISSA MCNALLY
LIZ SCOTT
ABIGAIL THOMPSON

LOTS OF FUN PEOPLE
BUT ALL VERY IMPORTANT TO THE GUYS AND THE AGENCY

SPARKLE NEELY
I JUST NEED MY DOLLS LOL

I AM GOING TO MISS THE HILS AND I LOVE NEW YORK AS IT HAPPENS,,,,,THANKS GOD FOR DVR.

MY BESTIE JENN DANSKA IS IN TOWN FROM LA FOR THE HOLIDAY AND SHE JUST GOT A MAYJAH PROMOTION OVER AT E! ENTERTAINMENT....MORE ON THAT TO COME

I NEED TO JHUJJE

BRB

AGING BEAUTY (?)

SUNDAY
HUNG OVER

WENT OUT FRIDAY WITH BEN..DRINKS AT ODEON, RAN INTO JOHN MURPHY, JULIAS HUSBAND. THEN BLAINE CAME BY..THE BRAD FISHER THEN ENRIQUE...DRINKS ON A LOOPS

HEAD STILL HURTS

WATCHING "HAPPY ENDINGS" ..MAGGIE GYLENHAAL IS SO FUCKING BRILLIANT..REALLY BRILLIANT.

EGLE IS SHOOTING FERRE WITH DAVID SIMMS
EXCITING SHIT

ORDERED CHINEESE FOOD. NOW MY STOMACH HURTS
WAITING FOR MY MAN;I THINK I DO THAT ALOT. HOPEFULLY IT WILL BRING ME SOME COMFORT

TTYL

MONIQUE IS ON UGLY BETTY

LIVVVVVVVVVVINGGGGGGGGGG

LOVE IS A LOSING GAME

I LOVE THAT SONG
HAVE YOU ALL HEARD IT?
IT TAKES MY BREATHE AWAY EVERYTIME I HEAR IT
ITS OFF OF AMY WNEHOUSE "BACK TO BLACK" ALBUM
IF YOU CHECK IT ON YOU TUBE TRY TO HEAR THE LIVE VERSION


I KIND OF FEEL LIKE SHIT TODAY
I WAS TO GO TO NADIA SHARIKS 50TH BIRTHDAY PARTY,BUT I JUST FELT THIS VIBE..PARTLY KNOWING ID RUN INTO SOME PEOPLE I DIDNT WANT TO SEE, ALSO NOT WANTING TO GO OUT AND GET PISSED. I HAVE COLITIS AND WHEN I DRINK TOO MUCH AND AM STRESSED IT DOES A NUMBER ON MY STOMACH. SO I BOWED OUT BY NOT TURNING UP AND I HOPE SHE ISNT OFFENDED. SENDING LOVE AND BEST BIRTHDAY WISHES TO HER.

WE R FRIGGIN BUSY AGAIN
FROM WHAT I AM TOLD BY THE POWERS THAT BE, BLAINE COOK KNOCKED IT OUT OF THE PARK WITH CALVIN KLEIN. KARL TEMPLER, FABIEN WERE ALL IMPRESSED WITH HIS FOCUS ONSET. IM TOLD THIS CAMPAIGN IS GOING TO BE AMAZING..CANT WAIT.

NATE IS UP FOR A COVER AND 12 PAGER WITH 10 MAGAZINE. SIMON IS UP FOR FERRE WITH DAVID SIMS. TYLER IS UP FOR REDKEN WITH GREG KADEL AND GUIDO PALAU. CHAD WHITE SHOT 6 PAGES OF ARENA....A STORY ABOUT HIM HAVING THE NEW MODEL BODY. ARNALDO SHOT IT. SIMON CHAD WHTE NATE SEAN HARJU SHANE SATHER(OUR NEXT BIG STAR)BLAINE ARE SHOOTING A JANUARY PORTRAIT STORY FOR DETAILS ( I PAGE EACH). CHAD FLIES TOLONDON SUNDY TO WORK THERE FOR 2 WEEKS STRAIGHT. CHRIS WHELAN IS IN PARIS FOR 2 MONTHS, WORKING NON STOP. TRAVIS DAVENPORT COMES BACK FROM PARIS NOV 23...CANT WAIT TO HAVE HIM BACK HERE.

I MISS MY MAN, HE IS NEVER HERE. I SPEND TOO MANY NIGHTS ALONE IN MY BED..AND THATS ROUGH..THE STRAIGHTS HAVE IT RIGHT WHEN THEY GET MARRIED AND CREATE A LIFE WITH SOMEONE..WHY CANT US GAYS GET THAT TOGETHER? ITS ALWAYS ABOUT THE HUNT FOR THE NEXT DICK, THE BEAUTY AND YOUTH OBESSION( THAT I HELP CREATE THRU MY JOB)..AND I DATE SOMEONE WHO IS BISEXUAL....SO I HAVE TO WORRRY ABOUT EVERY PERSON WHO SHAKES THEIR TITTIES AT HIM TOO..UGH...ILL SEE HIM TOMORROW..IM TAKING FRIDAY OFF...AND SHAGGING LIKE ITS MY JOB(OKWAAAAY).

HAVE YOU SEEN ON THEBLOGS THE PAPRAZZI PICS OF CLAUDIA SCHIFFER SHOOTING CHANEL? I DONT GET IT..I GET HER..BUT I DONT GET BRAD KROENIG IN THE PICS...REALLY? HE I STHAT MUCH A MUSE? I MEAN I GET AMBITION BUT DAMN REALLY? WOWSA

MY UNCLES COME TO TOWN NEXT TUESDAY FOR A WEEK. ITS GOING TO BE GAYTASTIC. THEY HAVE BEEN TOGETHER( AS PARTNERS) FOR 37 YEARS. THEY HAVENT SEEN MY NEW PLACE YET AND I AM EXCITED TO HAVE A GREAT TIME WITH THEM. ALSO THEY ARE GOING TO SHOW ME THE WONDEROUS WORLD OF WEIGHT WATCHERS...I NEED TO START SELF LOVING WITH TAKING CARE OF MYSELF RATHER THEN SELF MEDICATING WITH FOOD AND MERRIMENT.

ANYHOO
IM OUT
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MY MILKSHAKE

MY MILKSHAKE
ID LOVE A MILKSHAKE
WATCHING DESPERATE
ATE SOME WINGS
HAD A FUN DAY WITH BENNY
WENT TO CHELSEA BREWEY
MARITIME
WENT TO WEST ELM AND BOUGHT AN AREA RUG AND SIDE TABLE

TAKING TOMORROW OFF FOR VETERANS DAY
GOING TO FINALIZE THE PARTY RENTALS FOR THANKSGIVING WITH MY FAMILY.

TTYLX
J

SATURDAY 4 59 PM.....ANTM MARATHON

I EFFING LOVE TYRA BANKS
I LOVE THAT SHE HAS BECOME THE PLAYER SHE HAS....ANTM IS SO RIDICULOUS. ENTERTANING BUT TRAGIC. IT STHE "SHOWGIRLS" OF REALITY T.V AND UTS SO ENTERTAINING WATCHING IT WHILE NURSING A MAYJE HANGOVER.

LAST NIGHT WAS JACK RICH"S B DAY PARTY WAS A RIOT. NOT AS MANY PEOPLE TURNED OUT( THE WEATHER WAS SHIT) BUT THE HOTNESS WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE. I CAME TO THE PARTY WITH ENRIQUE MIRON AND SEAN BILOSKI ( ENRIQUE IS SHOOTING A HUGE FEB COVER STORY FOR OUT WITH NIO MUNOZ THIS COMING WEEK. ISA RAHMAN, RYAN DAHARSH DANIEL NUNEZ JEFF TOMSIK NATE NESBITT ALL TURNED UP. SAM FROM FORD WAS THERE( I J DORE HIM) MAURY DI MAURO(MY FAVE HUMAN BEING) RICK BUSKE(SISTER IN THE NAME OF LOVE) ALL CAM OUT TO TOAST JACK( WHO WAS HAMMMMMERED). I GOT TANKED AND UPON LEAVING RAN INTO THIERRY PEPIN WHO COULDNT GET INTO MARQUEE...SO I GOT HIM IN, AND WASS SAID " DID YOU JUST PICK HIM UP OFF THE STREET? JASON YOU DONT CHANGE?!" AND I WAS LIKE DAAAAAMMMMMM IT AINT LIKE THAT ..AND YOU DONT MY LIFE(LOL) SO I CONTINUED DRINKING AS I RE ENTERED THE CLUB,,THEN CHAD WHITE ROLLED IN AFTER HITTING THE OUT PARTY AT CIPRIANI AND THE PLACE JUST WENT WILD. IT WAS FUN TO HANG WITH MY GUYS..HADNT DONE THAT SINCE MY MARCUS SCHEKENBERG DAYS. CHAD AND I LEFT TOGETHER( HEYY BITCHES NOT LIKE THAT) AND ATE STREET MEAT LIEK IT WAS OUT JOB.I HAD BBQ SAUCE IN MY FINGERTIPS THIS MORNING(NOT A CUTE LOOK PEOPLE) BUT I DID HAVE A BLAST..ONLY PEOPLE MISSING WERE POOKS AND BENNY.

THE MAJOR MENS POSTER I DID IS GETTING ALOT OF BLOGGERS ATTENTION. CHECK IT OUT ON JDVISIONTHEBLOG.COM OR MODLS.COM. I LOVE IT, AND I DONT CARE HOW VAIN IT SOOUNDS. I TRUST JOE LALLI , AND WE HAVE THE SAME IDEAS ON PHOTOGRAPHY, MODELS. SEXUALITY, POP CULTURE . AND THE POSTER IS VERY "US" I AM TOLD STEVEN KLEIN SAW IT AND BUGGED THE F**K OUT. JENNIFER VENDITTI HUNG IT RIGHT UP IN HER OFFICE ASAP AS WELL. MONDAY THEY GET MESSENEGERED TO ALL THE KEY PEOPLE IN NYC. IM FEDEXING THEM AS WELL TO MAJOR PARIS , NUMERO ANREW DAVIS AT ARENA AND KARL LAGERFELD HIMSELF. BEING PROACTIVE THESE DAYS. ITS A YOUNG MANS GAME AND YOU HAVE TO HUSTLE AND REINVENT TO STAY HOT IN THE GAME

SIMON NESSMANN TURNED 18 ON NOVEMBER 6TH...18..I COULD BE HIS DAD!
KATIA SHERMANS BIRTHDAY WAS SAME DAY
DOUG PICKETT CHRIS COLLINS CHANCE STROOT ROBYN SINCLAIR RYAN SNYDER AND SOME MORE ALL ARE CRAZY ASS SCORPIO'S HAS BIRTHDAYS IN THE PAST FEW DAYS. WE ARE PLANNING A QUICK PARTY AT GEMMA OR ROSE BAR THIS THURSDAY TO CELEBRATE IT.

IM OFF
SPEAK SOON

J

THE OTHER SIDE OF AMY WINEHOUSE

AM I MISSING A WHOLE NEW CD OF HERS?

I AM GAGGGGGING

NEED TO FIND IT TOMORROW

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RANDOM THOUGHTS

HOW LUNCH DO I HAVE TO EXERCISE AND NOT EAT TO LOSE WEIGHT
I AM 38, IS IT THAT HARD TO LOSE WEIGHT? WHY DOES IT SEEM NO MATTER WHAT I STAY THE SAME SIZE
MY GAY UNCLES R COMING TO STAY WITH ME FOR THANKGIVING AND I AM ALREADY EMBARASSED THAT I HAVENT LOST WIEGHT AND THEYHAVE BEEN GOING ON AND ON ABOUT WEIGHT WATCHERS TO ME, AND I FEEL LIKE BECIASE I HAVENT TRIED THAT YET THAT I AM GOING TO BE DISAPPOINTING THEM.

IT SEEMS AS THOUGH BUSINESS HAS PICKED UP. A FORMER MODEL OF MINE, WHO WE DROPPED BECAUSE HE TRULY WORE US OUT(NOT CLINT MAURO) HAS ASKED TO SEE ME AGAIN TO TRY AND TALK IT OUT. MY STAFF ARE NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT IN THE SLIGHTEST AS HE REALLY WORE US ALL OUT. I AM SEEING HIM MORE OUT OF COURTESY THEN TO REKINDLE THIS.

SIMONS OPTIONS IN PARIS ARE SICK...GIVENCHY WITH WILLY VANDERPERRE..NUMEOR WITH JEAN BAPTISTE MONDINO ETC

TODAY I HAVE A LONG DAY AHEAD OF ME. LUNCH WITH NADIA..DINNER AND DRINKS WITH POLO .COM
ALO TOF TALKING
I NEED REST

IM OFF
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ITS SAFE TO SAY

ITS SAFE TO SAY THAT I AM EXHAUSTED
SO MUCH CRAP HAS GONE ON I CAN HARDLY CONVEY IT
SUFFICE IT TO SAY I NEED A LONG HOLIDAY

A LOT OF STULL ALL AT ONCE
NEED A SESSION WITH ANDY SWAY
NEED A FEW DAYS OF SLEEP AND QUIET

NEED OXYGEN IN MY BRAIN , NO CELLPHONES NO EMAILS

LOOKING FOWARD TO MIAMI

TTYL

J

YOU CAN STAND UNDER MY UMBRELLA

LAZY SUNDAY

JUST WATCHED UNZIPPED, ISAAC MIZRAHI'S DOCUMENTARY. HIS THEN UNKNOWN LOVER, DOUGLAS KEEVE DIRECTED IT AND TO CALL IT BRILLIANT IS TRULY AN UNDERSTATEMENT. ITS A TIME CAPSULE OF FASHION, WHEN SUPERMODELS RULED THE WORLD.

I REPPED AMBER VALLETTA AND SARAH OHARE THEN, AND WATCHING IT BROUGHT BACK THOSE WONDERFUL MEMORIES OF THAT ERA IN MY LIFE ... I HAVE TO SAY I WISH I WAS MATURE ENOUGH TO APPRECIATE IT.

I AM LOOKING FOWARD TO MIAMI IN DECEMBER

JESS
PILAR JENN
POOKS
D


SARAH


XJ

TGIF....

I NEVER FELT HAPPIER THAT ITS A FRIDAY THEN TODAY
THESE PAST 2 WEEK SAT WORK HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SAY THE LEAST
WE HAVE BEEN BUSY FROM FASHION WEEK UNTIL THE THIRD WEEK IN OCTOBER, BUT ONCE WE MOVED IT SEEMED AS IF SOMETHIG HAD SHIFTED. ALL THE OPTIONS OF CONSEQUENCE CAME OFF CHARTS ONE BY ONE BY ONE. I PANICED, WE ALL PANICED.

HAD OUR TIME PASSED? DID CHANGING THE LOCATION OF OUR OFFICE ACTUALLY CHANGE OUR SUCCESS? I STILL DONT KNOW.
I HAD MY ENERGY GUY, ANDY SWAY COME AND RUN ENERGY ON THE OFFICE BEFORE WE MOVED IN, AND HE SAID HE DID HIS THING..BUT YET THE ENERGY WAS SOOOO OFF IN THE OFFICE.

ANYWAY, I AM HOPEFUL THAT WE ARE JUST GOING THRU GROWING PAINS, AND EVEN MORE SIMPLY WHAT COMES UP HAS TO COME DOWN. I CANT EXPECT TO BE CONSISTENTLY THAT BUSY AT ALL TIMES.

WE DID BOOK TYLER SCEVERS, SIMON NESSMANN AND SEAN HARJU FOR NUMERO HOMMES. NATE IS SHOOTING Y3 ON MONDAY WITH CRAIG MCDEAN AND ON TUESDAY DOES DSQAURED WITH MEISEL. ITS RETTY F**KING GREAT. BLAINE GOT BACK FROM MOROCCO LAST NIGHT AND SHOOTS UPSTREET TODAY, ALONGSIDE JON PASSAVANT. DOUG PICKETT, OUR POLO BLUE FRAGRANC EGUY( FOR THE PAST 7 YRS NOW) IS SHOOTING BRITISH GQ WITH MAX VADUKUL.

THE RESPONSE ON TERRON WOOD ' S FENCH VOGUE STORY IS PRETTY MASSIVE. HOPEFULLY I CAN REPORT SOMETHING MAYJAH SOON ENOUGH

SEAN HARJU, JEREMY SIMPSON AND TERRON WOOD HAVE A GREAT PICS ON DECEMBER DETAILS. AS DOES TRAVIS DAVENPORT WHO HAS 6 PAGES WITH SKYE PARROT BY HIMSELF IN THE SAME ISSUE.

POLO IS PLANNING THEIR BIG FATHERS DAY MAILER SHOOT IN HARBOUR ISLAND I FOUND OUT LAST NIGHT AT ROBYN SINCLAIRS BIRTHDAY DINNER. WE ALL WENT TO DYLAN PRIME , ABIGAIL, BENNY BRAD FISHER AND JOEL GRIFFIT. LIKE A MODEL, ROBYN SHOWED UP 45 MINUTES LATE TO HIS OWN DINNER(TACKY TACKS). THE CEW AT POLO GAVE HIM A NAVY SHEARLING COAT FOR HIS GIFT. GORGEOUS. WE PIGGED OUT ON RIBEYES MAC AND CHEESE WITH LOBSTER AND TRUFFLE OIL AND BAKED BEANS. SO GOOD. SINFUL IN FACT.

I AM STILL LAYING IN BED AT 928 AM AS ID LOVE TO TAKE A PERSONAL DAY AS I WAS OFF YESTERDAY BECUASE I ACTALLY FELT LIKE DOG DOODOO. BUT I CANT AND WONT. OH MY SACRFICE(HA)

WELL, LET ME MOTIVATE
I GOTS TO GO YO

TTYL
J

NIP / TUCK IS GENIUS

OLIVER PLATT IS AMAZING

SO FRIGGING GOOD

ARE YOU WATCHING

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR

ROBYN SINCLAIR...HAPPY BIRTHDAY

BEN ESKRIDGE
LUCAS KERR
JENNIDER DANSKA
JILL TRACEY
MARIA LOMBARDI LABRECHE
CARINE ROITFELD
JOE MCKENNA
BRUCE WEBER
ABIGAIL THOMPSON
AMY WINEHOUSE

941 a.m. MONDAY

SO TODAY IS ALREADY BECOMING A DOUCHE OF A DAY
ALL LAST NIGHT I HAD TO HEAR THAT PHAT FARM NEVER SENT US A WRITTEN CONFIRMATION ON THE GUYS THEY BOOKED, SO BASICALLY THEY CANCELLED OPTIONS ( OR SO THEY THINK) AND THESE THREE GUYS SCHEDULES WERE THROWN OFF AND OF COURSE DO THEY CARE , OF COURSE NOT. KIMORA WAS A MODEL...SHE KNOWS THE DEAL..HOW EMBARASSING FOR HER. EVERYTIME W DO BUSINESS WITH THAT COMPANY ITS ALWAYS SOMETHING. I AM DONE WITHT HEM. WE WONT BE WORKING WITH THEM ANYMORE

YEARS AGO, PHAT FARM USED A PIC OF CHRIS COLLINS AND RAN IT AS A FRAGRANCE AD. WE GOT AN ATTORNEY AND HE GOT 80K...ITS ENOUGH ALREADY. I AM NOT AFRAID TO LITIGATE. BUT IT IS WORTH IT..ITS PHAT FARM FOR CRIPES SAKE.

ANYWAY

LET ME GET BACK TO WORK

J

DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES

HOW FRIGGIN BRILLIANT IS THE NEW SEASON?
LOVE THE NEW GAYS?
LOVE A IDE QUEEN DANA DELANEY

REALLY GOOD GUYS

YOU ALL WATCHING ?

SUNDAY 6 05 PM...REFLECTIONS

OK
SO I STAYED IN...TOTALLY BEHAVED..AND I WOKE UP WITH A STUFFED NOSE...UGH....SUCKS.
WENT DOWNSTAIRS TO THE BUILDING GYM..DID THE EYLPTICAL MACHINE FOR 20 MINUTES HARD...CHECKED MY EMAILS...SPOKE WITH SAM...CHECKED UP ON PHILIP.(MY NEPHEW) HE IS STARTING TO COME AROUND...SMILED FOR THE FIRST TIME YESTERDAY...HE GETS THE PADDING THEY PACKED HIS NOSE WITH REMOVED ON TUESDAY..HOPEFULLY HE WILL RETURN TO HIS USUAL CRAZY ASS...I USED TO THINK HE WAS WAY TOO WILD, ..I PREFER WILD THE SEE HIM SUFFER AND OUT OF IT.

MY SISTER SHELLY BOUGHT A HOUSE IN NEWPORT RITCHIE... OR AS SHE CALLS IT NEWPORT RICKETY. SAM AND I WERE SPEAKING ABOUT SHELLY TODAY AND WE BOTH SAID HOW F**KING PROUD WE ARE OF HER. SHE REALLY HAS GOT THING IN ORDER FOR HER SINCE OUR MOTHER PASSED. TONITE IS THE NITE WHERE YOU LIGHT THE YARZEIT CANDLE TO COMMERATE THE ANNIVESARY OF OUR MOMS PASSING. I LIT IT AT 5 22 PM AS SUNDOWN. TOUGH DAY...IT HURTS TO THINK TOO DEEPLY ABOUT IT.

I HAVE SEEN PEOPLE I LOVE SUFFER. SUFFER IN THEIR RELATIONSHIPS, SUFFER IN POVERTY, SUFFER IN SILENCE BECAUSE NO ONE WOULD HEAR THEM. SUFFER IN DISEASE, WITH LOSS. I AM TIRED OF IT. I TRY TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST I CAN WITH THIS BODY AND THIS MIND. I DONT WORRY TOO MUCH ABOUT MONEY( SAVINGS ETC) AS I WANT TO ENJOY IT AND HAVE THE PEOPLE I LOVE ENJOY IT WHILE I AM STILL HERE. I WATCHED MONEY OWN ALL OF MY MOTHERS DECISIONS( AND SHE REALLY DIDNT HAVE MUCH OF IT) BUT SHE DIDNT ENJOY WHAT SHE HAD. AND I REFUSE TO DO IT. I LOVE MY MOM, MY SISTERS MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS, BUT I AM SORRY,,I WILL SPEND MY MONEY AS I LIKE TO...ENJOYING THE NOW. SO I SAY TO YOU: ENJOY WHERE YOU ARE AT. I AM NOT GOING TO BE 50 YRS OLD AND REGRET ANY DECISION I MADE. I HAVE FUCKED UP ENOUGH IN 38 YRS. I LOST ENOUGH TIME . LOST YEARS WITH OUT MY MOTHERS LOVE :WHEN MY FATHER AND STEPMOTHER VIOLATED EVERY FIBER OF MY SOUL( AND MY SISTERS) WITH THEIR HATRED THEIR FISTS AND THEIR MOUTHS ...I AM NOT LOST ANY MORE AND I REFUSE TO SUFFER. SO TONITE AS I LIT THE CANDLE, I PRAYED OUTLOUD SOMETHING LIKE THIS " MOM I LOVE AND MISS YOU..YOU KNOW WHAT ITS ME AND MY HEART..SO I WONT SAY TO MUCH..YOU ARE MISSED AND I LL SEE YOU SOON..JUST NOT TOO SOON...WATCH OVER ME ..LOVE YOU!"...

SO,,I SEEM TO HAVE SAID WHAT I HAVE TO SAY HERE. BUT I KNOW ME BETTER THEN ANYONE AND WITH THAT I KNOW MY FAULTS AND MY DRAMA, BUT I F**KING LOVE WHO I AM .I AM REAL, I AM PASSIONATE AND FUNNY. WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU GET, I DONT PRETEND TO BE ANYONE I AM NOT.AND UP TIL NOW ITS WORKED FOR ME, WOULD I LIKE TO BE 50LBS LIGHTER( HELL YES) ..THATS IT, ONLY THING ID CHANGE ABOUT ME. SO IF YOU ARE READING THIS AND YOU FEEL ME, TAKE A SECOND AND LOVE WHERE YOU ARE AT IN YOUR LIFE AT THIS SECOND.

PEACE AND LIGHT

J


PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR:

SAM AND SHELL

ALWAYS AND FORVER

SATURDAY NIGHT AMBIVALENCE

OK
ITS 11 10 PM
MY MAN IS STILL OUT OF TOWN
I AM NOT FEELING 100% GREAT( HAD SOME WONTON SOUP) AND I AM WATCHING RE RUNS OF SEX AND THE CITY.

SHOULD I GO OUT? ID LOVE A FEW DRINKS, BUT MAYBE I SHOULD JUST REST AND ANTICIPATE MY WEEK. WE AE SO BUSY!

TOOK FRIDAY OFF , TO SEE MY NEPHEW PHILIP. HE IS SO OUT OF WHACK. HE COULD HARDLY BREATHE, WOULDNT SMILE AND DROWSY. SO NOT HIMSELF. IT WAS SOOOOOOO HARD TO WATCH. KILLED ME. MY SISTER IS AT HER WITS HER END, 3 RAMBUNCTIOUS BOYS UNDER THE AGE OF 9. SHE NEEDS A VACATION. SHE DESERVES ONE.

MY APARTMENT, IF I SAY SO MYSELF..LOOKS SO CHIC. I CANT BELIVE I LIVE HERE. I CANT WAIT TO HAVE MY SMALLISH HOUSEWARMING.

WORKWISE SO MUCH ON. FRENCH VOGUE WITH WEBER JUST CAME OUT..AND WE HAVE TERRON WOOD AND SIMON NESSMAN IN IT ITS ALLEGEDLY INCREDIBLE. I F**KING LOVE CARINE ROITFELD....SEXY SMART, DRINKS SMOKES HAS SEX...HELLLO A REAL WOMAN,,AND THE MAGAZINE IT IS THE SMARTEST BOOK IN OUR BIZ.

SIMON NESSMAN , TYLER SCEVERS AND SEAN HARJU ARE SHOOTING NUMERO HOMME ITH MATTHIAS VRIENS TOMORROW. TERRON WOOD IS IN GERMANY AT A PERSONAL APPEARANCE W/ DONATELLA VERSACE...MAGGIE BOOKED ISA RAHMAN, BEN PAMIES AND ENRIQUE MIRON FOR THE PHAT FARM/BABY PHAT CAMPAIGN SHOOTING IN LA NEXT WEEK.

ALL OF OUR STEADY WORKER BEES DOUG PICKETT CHRIS COLLINS MICHAEL ALTMAN WADE PONIC DAMON WILLIS ETC ARE WORKING CONSISTENTLY AND FOR GREAT MONEY....WE SEEMINGLY ARE IN A REALLY GREAT PLACE..BUT I WORRY(IM SUCH A JEW). WHAT COMES UP MUST COME DOWN.

SEX AND THE CITY IS GETTING ME INTO THE NOTION OF HAVING A COSMOPOLITAN...AND SOME HEALTHY FLIRTING.

MY FRIEND CAMERON, DEEP IN LOVE WITH WHAT EEMS TO BE HIS NEW LIFE PARTNER IS BARELY KEEPING IN TOUCH WITH ME. I HAVENT SEEN HIM SINCE THE BIRTHDAY PARTY I THRU FOR HIM. I AM REALLY OVER IT. I NEED TO MAKE A FEW NEW FRIENDS WHO ARENT AS FLAKY. I AM SO IN A BUBBLE , AND I NEED TO BE MORE PROACTIVE. I KNOW ITS MY FAULT, I AM WORKING CONSTANTLY AND WHEN I AM NOT WORKING I AM HOME. ITS A SAD CYCLE..I ACTUALLY DONT HATE IT BUT I KNOW ITS NOT SERVING ME WELL.

HAVE YOU ALL CHECKED OUT THE PICS OF MARCUS ON OUR MAJOR BLOG. OUCH SO FRIGGIN HOT. TOOOO MANY THINGS.

OK, I AM MOTIVATING
I AM GOING TO TAKE A SHOWER
SHAVE...THROW ON SOME CARGOS AND GET SOEM HOOCH IN ME

TALK TO YOU SOON

JK

THURSDAY 11 33 PM.......I BETTAH WORK

HI GUYS

I HAD SUCH A GREAT DAY TODAY
HAD BREAKFAST WITH COURTNEY KIVOWITZ..I JUST LOVE THAT GIRL. SO CONFIDENT, SMART..HAS HER SHIT ON POINT. SHE WAS FILLING ME IN ON ALL THINGS MAGGIE GYLENHAAL ( SHE IS HER MANAGER) AND THE PENDING S.A.G. STRIKE. ONCE AGAIN I TOOK HER TO MY FAVE BREAKFAST SPOT , THE MERCER.
WENT TO WORK, NUTS TODAY. SO BUSY. GOT GREAT NEW PICS OF MARCUS HILL BY GREGORY VAUGHN. SENT THEM TO EVERYONE..HE LOOKS SO HOT THAT ITS TOO TOO MUCH. CHECK THE PICS OUT OF HIM ON WWW.MAJORMODELS.BLOGSPOT.COM

BLAINE IS GOING TO MOROCCO TO SHOOT THE A 14 PAGE STORY AND COVER TRY FOR BRITISH GQ STYLE. SIMON AND TYLR S WILL BE SHOOTING NUMERO HOMME ON SUNDAY WITH MATTHIAS VRIENS. BRANDON MILLS DID A BIG STORY FOR REFRESH MAGAZINE WITH NIGEL BARKER. CHAD WHITE IS ABOUT TO DO A MASSIVE, SUPER MODEL TURN FOR A MAJOR EURO MAG AS A THEEEEE MODEL OF THE MOMENT. SEAN HARJU AND CHAD R UP FOR DSQUARED WITH MEISEL. Y3 WITH MCDEAN IS HOLDING NATE AND SIMON. ROBYN SINCLAIR IS SHOOTING 2 DIFFERENT THINGS FOR POLO.COM AND AN INSTORE VIDEO FOR POLO. TRAVIS DAVENPORT AND JOSH GOODWIN ARE UP FOR A MAYJAH GUERLAIN FRAGRANCE TV AND PRINT SHOOT WITH JEAN PAUL GOODE IN SOUTH AFRICA. WE R WORKING OUT AN EXCLUSIVE DEAL FOR BABY PHAT/PHAT FARM FOR JAMES GUARDINO, BEN PAMIES, ISA AND ENRIQUE MIRON...MAGGIE IS FINAIZING DETAILS AS I TYPE. HOPEFULLY IT WILL PAN OUT. JAMES GUARDINO ALSO SHOT A DECEMBER 1 GUY UNDERWEAR STORY WITH PAOLO KUDACKI. THE MAN WITH A BODY IS BACK YA'LL AND WE , AS AN AGENCY , HAS HELPED BRING IT BACK TO THE MASSES..AND ITS VERY EXCITING.

THOMAS IS GOING TO BE GOINGT O MILAN TO WATCH OVER THE GUYS. I AM HOPING TO GO TO PARIS FOR THE 1ST TIME IN NEARLY 7 YEARS.

I AM TAKING A PERSONAL DAY TOMORROW..TO SEE MY NEPHEW WHO BROKE HIS NOSE..I SPOKE TO HIM TODAY AND HE SAID "UNCLE JASON, IT HURTS WHEN I EAT AND TALK"...BROKE MY HEART! I LOVE THOSE GUYS SO MUCH AND IT KILLS ME TO KNOW HE IS IN ANY PAIN. I CANT WAIT TO SQUEEZE HIM AND JUST SEE HIM!

Y APARTMENT IS NOW OFFICALLY DONE. IT LOOKS SOOOOOO GOOD, I CANT TELL YOU HOW HAPPY I AM WITH IT. I JUST HAVE TO HANG SOEM OF MY ARTWORK ON THE WALLS AND I AM GOOD TO GO

WELL MY BLOGGING FRIENDS
I AM OFF

I WANT TO SEND LOVE TO MY FRIENDS IN SAN DIEGO

THE SNYDER FAMILY
DOUG AND HUBERT

HOPING AND PRAYING YOU GUYS ARE SPARED...
LOVE AND LIGHT
MISS YOU D

CIPRIANI'S AND LEMONCELLOS

TONIGHTS DINNER FOR BLAINE WAS ACTUALLY MORE FUN THEN I THOUGHT
FOOD WAS GOOD, SERVICE WAS GREAT..DRINKS WERE GENIUS

DAYS 2 IN NEW SPACE WAS TOUGH. I FEEL TRANSPLANTED. I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO MAKE IT ALL WORK
I DEF NEED A MONITOR IN MY HOME, ON THE BOOKING DESK SO I CAN BE TOTALLY PROACTIVE

SO MANY OPTIONS CAME OFF TODAY..I REALLY THOUGHT ID LAND BELSTAFF FOR NATE OR CHAD. NEXT TIME.

WATCHING AN OLD NIP TUCK RERUN

HEADING TO BED

PEACE

REMIX

HI

WELL TODAY WAS A REALLY LONG ASS DAY

WE HAVE A NEW OFFICE..ITS NOT WHAT I EXPECTED..BUT CERTAINLY IS AN UPGRADE. I THINK THE MODELS WILL LIKE IT QUITE A BIT. ITS VERY MUCH A MODELING AGENCY..AND KATIA AND HER HUSBAND DEFINTELY OUT THEIR HEARTS IN IT. I HAVE MY OWN OFFICE THAT SITS OFF TO THE SIDE OF THE BOOKING ROOM, AND I AM THRILLED TO HAVE MY OWN SPACE. ONCE I GET MY OTHER MONITOR, I LL BE WORKINGBETWEEN THE BOOKING ROOM AND MY OFFICE.

I MISS MY MAN, HE IS AWAY. I HATE THAT WE CANT SPEAK EVERYDAY AS I AM SLEEPING WHEN HE IS UP, AND VICE VERSA. WHEN HE CALLS, IM USUALLY IN THE MIDDLE F WORK AND CANT GIVE HIM THE TIME OF DAY AND WHEN I FIND HIM HE IS USUALLY ASLEEP ON JUST WAKING. JUST STINKS

I TOOK SOME AMAZING POLAROIDS OF CHAD WHITE TO DAY IN MY NEW OFFICE . YOU CAN SEE IT AT COACD.BLOGSPOT.COM
PEOPLE ARE BUH BUGGING OVER THM. HE IS IN THE SHAPE OF HIS CAREER. HE LOOKS HAPPY HEALTHY AND WELL RESTED. I HOPE THE OPTIONS WITH MEISEL AND TESTINO COME THRU.

I MET WITH TYLER G TODAY TO SET THINGS RIGHT ...LETTING HIM KNOW WHATS EXPECTED OF HIM AND HOW WE CAN MAXIMIZE HIS EARNING POTENTIAL. MODELING FOR US ISNT A PART TIME THING. AND HE SEEMS TO "GET IT".

WADE PONIC BROUGHT FLOWERS INTO THE AGENCY TO CONGRATULATE US ON THE MOVE. VERY SWEET

TOMORROWS DINNER AT CIPRIANI"S SHOULD BE QUITE FESTIVE(LOL). BLAINE IS LOOKING FOWARD TO IT, ETC. ALL OF MY FURNITURE GETS DELIVERED WEDENSDAY. CHAD IS PICKING UP THE OLD STUFF TOMORROW AROUND 4 OR 5 PM.

ROBYN IS UP FOR CONVERSE WITH TOM MUNRO COULD BE COOL. PHAT FARM WANTS TO BOOK 4 GUYS WITH US AS A PACKAGE DEAL BUT THEY NEED TO SHOW US SOME MORE MONEY IF THATS GOING TO HAPPEN. I THINK THEY WILL. SHOOTS IN LA AT THE END OF THE MONTH.TRAVIS AND TERRON ARE UP FOR DOLCE GABBANA WITH S KLEIN MID NOVEMBER. Y3 OPTIONED NATE AND SIMON WITH CRAIG MCDEAN. CHANCE STROOT IS IN ALLURE MAG THIS MONTH WITH DEMARCHELIER.
BIG GMHC SHOW NOVEMBER 1..WE ARE SPONSORS , AND WE ARE REALLY HONORED TO BE DOING IT.

I NEED TO FIND AN APARTMENT IN MIAMI FOR XMAS AND NEW YEARS. I AM LETTING TOO MUCH TIME TO PASS. ILL HANDLE IT THIS WEEK FOR SURE.

OK, I AM OFF LIKE A PROM DRESS.
PEACE BITCHES

GOOD NIGHT

WE MOVED OUR OFFICE
WE ARE 2 BLOCKS NORTH ON PARK AVENUE SOUTH
OFF OF 29TH
KATIA HASNT LET ANYONE SEE IT..I STILL HAVENT AND TOMORROW IS OUR 1ST DAY THERE

I AM EXCITED AND NERVOUS
I AM A SERIOUS CRETURE OF HABIT

NATE JUST TOLD ME THE TOWEL RACK IN HIS HOTEL IN LONDON WAS CURLING IRON HOT AND HE SLIPPED AND SCARRED HIS SHOULDER PRETTY BADLY. HE SHOT AGAIN THIS WEEKEND WITH MERT N MARCUS.

ANYWAY KIDS
I AM OFF


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J

SORRY ITS BEEN A MINUTE

SO MUCH HAS GONE DOWN SINCE LAST WEEK

BUSY BUSY BUSY
BOOKED 5 GUYS IN D AND G WITH MARIO TESTINO

RYAN DAHARSH
SIMON NESSMAN
TYLER SCEVERS
AJ JACOBS
TRENT GARRETT

EDDIE TUCKER GOT CONFIRMED FOR CK JENS IN LA..BUT HE IS IN LONDON AND HIS PASSPORT IS AT THE JAPANEESE EMBASSY SO HE CANT FRGGIN DO IT..SO MAJORLY BUMMED. UGH

CHAD WHITE IS GETTING IN THE SHAPE OF HIS LIFE RIGHT NOW..WORKING REALLY HARD. WORKING ON SOMETHING REALLY GREAT FOR HIM.

BOOKED 3 GUYS ON AMERICAN LIVING BY RALPH LAUREN (JC PENNEY) TV AND PRINT WITH BRUCE WEBER. MARK RICKETSON...MICHAEL LEMBO AND KERRY DEGMAN..SUPER SUPER BEAUTIFUL MEN

CHARLES DEVOE IS DOING CHAPS WITH RICHARD PHIBBS. IN FLORIDA

BLAINE GOES TO MOROCCO TO SHOOT GQ STYLE. TERRON WOOD BOOKED 12 PAGES OF BRITISH ESQUIRE IN LONDON.
DOUG PICKETT IS IN LONDON SEEING CLIENTS AS IS DAMON WILLIS AND CHRIS COLLINS.

IM FINE..I BOUGH A TON OF FURNITURE FOR MY NEW APARTMENT. I GOT THE SICKEST JONATHAN ADLER CHAIR AND OTTOMAN. BOUGHT A OVERSIZED LOVE SEAT AT POTTERY BARN. 3 ENTERTAINMENT CONSOLES FROM WEST ELM/ DINING ROOM CHAIRS FROM POTTERY BARN AND ABC....ITS REALLY COMING ALONG. MERYL BEN AND BRAD FLIPPED ON HOW GROWN UP IT ALL LOOKED. CANT WAIT TIL MY BABY SEES IT

MY 6 YR OLD NEPHEW BROKE HIS NOSE...I AM FREAKING OUT. HE SAYS HE IS NOT IN PAIN, BUT THATS A SERIOUS THING. I PLAN ON TAKING MY FAMILY TO DINNER ON WEDNESDAY NIGHT TO SEE THEM AND "CHECK IN".

I NEED TO DECIDE IF I AM DOING MIAMI FOR X MAS.

COURTNEY KIVOWITZ IS IN NYC FOR THE WEEK..HOPING TO SEE HER.

LOVING THE GOURMET NEXT DOOR ON THE FOOD NETWORK..HAVE YOU ALL BEEEN WATCHING IT?
AMERICAS MOST SMARTEST MODEL...WHAT WAS MARY ALICE THINKING..WHAT A BAD BAD MOVE. THAT GUY ANDRE IS HOT BUT WHAT A COLLASAL JACK ASS.AN EMBARASSMENT TO REPRESENT MODELS ON TELEVISION TO THE WORLD. SUCH CRAP

IM TAKING BLAINE COOK AND MARK FOLTZ FROM CALVIN KLEIN TO CIPRIANI TUESDAY FOR DINNER TO CELEBRATE HIS CONTRACT.

OK, IM EXHAUSTED
ILL WRITE LATER

XOXOXOX

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS

SO MUCH TO COVER

FIRSTLY, HOW FUCKING INCREDIBLE IS THE WEATHER IN NYC? LOVE IT! LOVE LOVE LOVE.COM. SO GOOD

THINGS R SO GOOD RIGHT NOW. I AM SO DEEPLY IN LOVE THAT I AM FEELING BLISSFUL. THE ROMANCE IS BACK, THE LOVE THAT I NEEDED...DREAMY

WORK HAS BEEN NUTS. SO BUSY..AND WE R MOVING THE OFFICE..SO BETWEEN THE PHONES RINGING, CLIENTS NEEDING THINGS NOW NOW NOW.....OUR WEBSITE CHANGED SERVERS(?)..SO GARY NEEDS TO SCAN IT AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN..SUCKS..ANYWAY

NATE IS FLYING TO LONDON TO SHOOT WITH MERT N MARCUS AGAIN FOR MORE ARMANI STUFF. BLAINE FINALLY SIGNED HIS OFFICIAL CALVIN KLEIN CONTRACT..FABIEN BARON IS SHOOTING IT HIMSELF(AWESOME). JOOP HOMME FRAGRANCE IS BEING SHOT BY STEVEN KLEIN NEXT WEEK IN NYC..WILL KNOW IF KERRY OR SIMON GET CK JEANS WITH DAVID SIMS TOMORROW. LUCAS KERR AND MICHAEL ALTMAN SHOT THE SPRING 08 TARGET CAMPAIGN WITH DANIEL JACKSON. TERRON FLIE TO LONDON TOMORROW..ROBYN GOT TO PARIS THIS MORNING. TYLER LOUGH SHOOTS CHAMPION..RYAN D , TYLER SCEVERS AND TRENT GARRET ARE ALL ON OPTION FOR D&G WITH TESTINO. ORAINE BARRET AND SIMONNESSMAN ARE FLYING IN THE A.M. TO SHOOT LORD AND TAYLOR WITH MARIO TESTINO/JOE MCKENNA. ARNALDO ANAYA LUCCA SHOT NATE FOR A CALVIN KLEIN UNDERWEAR TRIBUTE STORY FOR FLAUNT. CHAD WHITE HAS OPTIONS FOR LEVIS, BELSTAFF, DOLCE AND NAUTICA. MALO IS SHOOTING WITH PAOLO KUDACKI AND THEY ARE LOOKING AT SEAN HARJU. MISSONI OPTIONED SEAN AND NATE,BUT WAS RELEASED TODAY. JUSTIN T, MARK R AND KERRY ARE UP FOR POLO / AMERICAN LIVING WITH WEBER..SHOULD TOMORROW.



WATCHING HILARY CLINTON ON THE VIEW TIVOED..GOSH, WE NEED HER..A BREATHE OF FRESH AIR. SMART, SOLID..LIBERAL..PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE


ANYWAY

IM OFF
XOXOXOXO

J

FRIDAY 927 AM

OK
STILL IN BED
BARELY SLEPT
I FEEL LIKE MY TONSILS HAVE GROWN BACK(IS THAT POSSIBLE?)
I HAVE TO BE HOME BY 2 IN ORDER TO HAVE MY LANDLINES HOOKED UP

I HAVE TO HAVE BLAINE COOK SIGN HIS CALVIN CONTRACT
ID LIEK TO TAN
NEED TO BUY NEW BEDDING FOR MY BEDROOM AND GUEST ROOM
OH YEAH AND INEED A COUCH
HOLLAH

TTYL

IT IS WHAT IT IS....12 33AM FRIDAY AM

IM RESTLESS, UNSETTLED
WISH POOKS WAS HERE, ALSO GLAD I DONT HAVE TO TALK

NUMB

SAD
BUT ALSO BLANK

IM SO OVER THIS, WANNA GET SOME SLEEP

TTYL
J

R.I.P. BILL HEFFNER

SAD NEWS
AN OLD WORK FRIEND TOOK HIS OWN LIFE IN CALIFORNIA
WHAT GETS YOU TO THE POINT OF MADNESS THAT YOU WOULD WANT TO KILL YOURSELF?

ALOT OF PEOPLE IN OUR GOSSIP GIRL INDUSTRY HAVE SPENT THE DAY SPECULATING
ILL SPEND A FEW MOMENTS REMEBERING HIS ELABORATE STORY TELLING, HIS GENEROSITY, HIS SMILE AND HIS ADORATION FOR THE NOT SO SUBTLE NIP TUCKS. TRULY SAD

REST IN PEACE BILL

TTYL
J

AU MANDARIN

THE BEST CHINESE BELOW CANAL STREET
ME AND MY MAN DEVOURED GENERAL TSAO CHICKEN
RIBS
SHRIMP AND LOBSTER

SO GOOD
HAPPY TO HAVE HIM NEXT TO ME AS I TYPE THIS
HIM WATCHING UFC
ME COMFORTED IN HIS PRESENCE
WE R IN A BETTER PLACE

HE JUMPED ON ME WHEN HE WALKED IN AND SAID"HOWS MY BEAUTIFUL MAN: AND THEN BIT MY SHOULDER AND NECK
CAN YOU ASK FOR MORE??LOL

LOOKING FOWARD TO A LONG BROMANTIC NIGHT

PEACE AND LOVE BE WITH YOU
TTYL

WHAT A DAY

SO BUSY
BOOKED EGLE WITH FABIEN BARON AND ALEX WHITE FOR FCUK
SO BZ

SO MUCH GOING ON WITH THE GUYS THAT ITS NEARLY MPOSSSIBLE TO LIST IT ALL

TTYL

RUN AND BUY OUT MAGAZINE WITH TOM FORD ON THE COVER

SO SEXY AND SCANDALOUS
FEATURING SOME OF MY HOTTEST GUYS AT MAJOR
RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN

LOVE RAIN DOWN ON ME

DOES ANYONE OUT THERE KNOW IF JILL SCOTT IS TOURING FOR THIS ALBUM?

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR

CARINE ROITFELD

HISOO KIM

SAMANTHA PAPACCIO

JENNIFER DANSKA

JOSHUA FROM CT

HEATHER FROM ROCK OF LOVE

LYNNE SPEARS

MAXWELL

EDDIE VEDDER

ROCK OF LOVE REUNION

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SUNDAY 729 PM

HAD SUCH A QUIET DAY
AM I GETTING OLD?
I USUALLY AM RECOVERING FROM A CRAZY WEEKEND..BUT I HAVE TO SAY I AM REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF..I AM TAKING BETTER CARE OF MYSELF AND I FEEL BETTER. I HAVE EATEN ALOT OF CRAP THIS WEEKEND, BUT THAT MY DEAR, SEEM STO BE MY FIRST TRUE LOVE....BUT I AM EXCERISING MORE THEN I HAVE IN YEARS, SO HOPEFULLY IT ALL BALANCES OUT

MY TMOBILE SERVICE STILL IS AN ISSUE
I AM WAITING FOR IT TO SUDDENLY "FIX"ITSELF
I AM HELPING THE WOMENS DIVISION ON SOME BOOKINGS ON EGLE,WAITING ON BENETTON AND FRENCH CONNECTION

TONIGHT IS TV HEAVEN
ROCK OF LOVE REUNION
DESPERATE
BROTHERS AND SISTERS
AMERICAS MOST SMARTEST MODEL

KIND OF EXCITING

BEN AND BRAD WERENT PISSED THAT I DIDNT HANG LAST NIGHT
BOUGGH THE NEW FRENCH VOGUE AND VOGUE HOMMES TODAY
CALIENTE

TTYL

VOGUE HOMMES

VOGUEHOMMES.COM


GAGGGGING

10 52 pm SATURDAY

I COULD HAVE GONE TO MICHELE"S BDAY TO SEE BEN ND BRAD AND CO, BUT I COULDNT BE HAPPIER THEN TO WATCH GRAHAM NORTON AND WAIT FOR SNL.
ITS NICE TO JUST REST..USUALLY I AM PARTYING 1 DAY A WEEK..AND THE HANGOVER LAST 2 OR 3 DAYS..SO IT SGOOD FOR ME TO REST A LITTLE AND JUST BE FROM CRIPES SAKE.

I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO HAVE GONE OUT, BUT I AM SO OVER NOT HAVING THIS PHONE WORKING...AND ITS HUMID OYYOYOY.

DAWN FRENCH IS FABULOUS...SO FUNNY AND BRIGHT

NIP TUCK RERUNS ARE ON TONIGHT AS WELL

POOKS HAS BEEN TRYING TO CALL ME..MISS HIM...HE IS OUT OF TOWN..WILL SEE HIM TUESDAY

I NEED TO GET NEW FURNITURE...NEED TO HAVE IT ALL SORTED BY END OF MONTH

SUSAN SARANDON ON MAD TV..LOVES IT

NITE

JOE LALLI

JOE LALLI IS SHOOTING SIMON NESSMAN IN MY HOUSE FOR SQUINT HOMME AS WE SPEAK, J ERRIC FROM INTERVIEW IS THE STYLIST. SEEM SLIKE A FETISH UNDERWEAR STORY..BEING SHOT IN MY GUESTROOOM

BLAINE COOK IS HERE TO SHOOT THE FINAL PART OF THE MENS 07 POSTER FOR THE AGENCY. HE DID LOOKS AGAIN TODAY WITH KARL TEMPLER. CALVIN KLEIN IS REALLY FEELING HIM. TRES TRES EXCITING.

I THINK I AM HEADING OT MICHELE'S HOUSE FOR HER BIRTHDAY PARTY WITH BEN AND BRAD AND COMPANY . WE SHALL SEE HOW THE NITE GOES.

I AM OFF LIKE A DIRTY PROM DRESS

PEACE

TMOBILE SUCKS ASS

MY TMOBILE SERVICE IN MY APARTMENT HASNT WORKED IN 5 DAYS
I LIVE AND BREATHE BY MY CELL PHONE
ALL OF MY WORK IS CONDUCTED VIA PHONE;AND I AM ONE OF THOSE NEW YORKERS WITHOUT A HOME PHONE
SO FRUSTRATING

842 CLOUDY MORNING SATURDAY

HAD A NICE NIGHT
WENT OUT WITH MY FRIEND JOSH TO THE MARITIME
GOT A LITTLE TANKED, BUT NOT TOO WRECKED....
WATCHING CATHERINE TATE SHOW ...HILARIOUS

I AM DOING A LITTLE SHOPPING TODAY
BARNEYS ETC,,USE SOME OF THE GIFT CARDS I RECEIVED FOR MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR AND LAST YEAR

ORDERED A FATTY BREAKFAST
JOSH JUST LEFT TO GO HOME TO CT

I AM OUT TIL LATER
X

J

654 PM FRIDAY NIGHT

WHY I IT SO HOT IN NYC IN OCTOBER
I CANT TAKE IT

ANYWAY, I HAVE FRIEND COMING IN FROM CT, EXCITING
I AM MEETING UP WITH ANDREW CASTRO, AN OLD FIRNED WHO USED TO WOR AT MAJOR, AND WHO IS NOW HEADING THE RUNWAY DEPT AT MC SQUARED..TO HAVE A BEVVY AND A LAUGH
LAST WEEKEND I WAS WITH MY JILL...I MISS HER ALREADY

I AM LOOKING FOR A MONTH RENTAL IN SOUTH BEACH..SOMETHING WITH A POOL AND A GRILL AND I M THERE.

BLAINE IS SHOOTING DECEMBER EDITORIAL FOR DETAILS WITH CHAD PITTMAN...SO GOOD!

HAVING BRINCH WITH BENNY AND BRAD AND MICHAEL AND HILARY ON SUNDAY
SUPAH FUN

TTYL

4 51 pm..SHOOT JUST WRAPPED

OMG
WAIT TIL YOU SEE WHAT WE DID

SIMPLY, SEXY SHOTS OF THE GUYS
SIMON AND TYLER SCEVERS SHOT TOGETHER
TRAVIS DAVENPORT , TERRON WOOD, SIMON MESSMAN , SEAN HARJU AND NATE NESBITT..THE PARTY FOR THE POSTER WILL BE AT THE END OF THE MONTH AT EITHER THE MARITIME OR THE BOWERY HOTEL

JOE LALLI IS SOO GOOD...THE GUYS ATE ME OUT OF HOUSE AND HOME, HILARIOUS

BLAINE COULDNT MAKE IT AS HE HAD TO DO LOOKS FO CALVIN KLEIN WITH KARL TEMPLER
SIMON AND ORAINE FOR CONFIRMED FOR LORD AND TAYLOR CAMPAIGN WITH MRIO TESTINO
EDDIE TUCKER GOT BENNETON WITH DAVID SIMS

SOOO MUCH GOING ON
ILL BE BACK LATER
X

IT IS WHAT IT IS....7 14 AM FRIDAY

THIS WEEK HAS BEEN NUTS
TOM, MY WING MAN AT WORK, HAS BEEN OUT ALL WEEK DUE TO A NASTY CHEST COLD, AND THIS WEEK MARKED THE BEGINNING OF ADVERTISING SEASON....WE R SLAMMED
SO MUCH GOING ON ITS HAD TO GET INTO


JCPENNEY IS LAUNCHING AMERICAN LIVING BY RALPH LAUREN. TV AND PRINT BY BRUCE WEBER. MASSIVE CASTING, AND THEY ARE LOVING ALOT OF MY GUYS. TESTINO IS CASTING D AND G...SAME, LOTS OF BOYS N THE MOX
BLAINE WILL BE SHOOTING DETAILS WITH CHAD PITTMAN. TRAVIS WAS RELEASED AFTER BEING CONFIRMED FOR ENERGIE(CHANGE IN ART DIRECTOR..BALLS!)...LORD AND TAYLOR CAMPIAGN WITH TESTINO LOOKS LIKE SIMON AND ORAINE

BALINE COOK IS THE EW FACE FOR CALVIN KLEIN COLLECTION, EXCLUSIVE FOR SPRING 08
HUGE ASS NEWS
A
MAYJAH COUP FOR MAJOR
NATE IS FLING BACK TO IBIZA FOR MERT AND MARCUS FOR EMPORIO ARMANI SUNGLASSES.

EGLE HAS HAD THE MOST AMAZING SEASON WITH ANTHONY AT MAJOR PARIS. SHE HAS WALKED THE RUNWAY FOR BALENCIAGA, STELLA MAC, ANDREW GN, KATE MOSS TOP SHOOP, NINA RICCI, GIVENCHY ETC MAYJAH MAYJAH

TODAY WE SHOOT MY 07 PROMOTIOM POSTER WITH JOE LALLI AT MY HOUSE
TRES EXCITING

ABOUT ME AND MY LOVE LIFE
UGH
WELL I SEEM TO HAVE GOT BACK INTO THE LOVE SWING..MEANING I AM BLINDED BY OUR LOVE, AND FORGETTING THE MANY FAULTS IN MY RELATIONSHIP AS MY NEEDS ARE BEING MET. I KNOW, SAD SAD SAD....I KNOW ITS GOT TO END IN MY HEAD..MY HEART AND OTHER BITS CANT GET THAT MESSAGE
FEELING HIGH, BUT KNOWING THE DARKNESS IS TAPPING MY SHOULDER SOON

UGH
WELL I AM OFF TO WORK
X
J

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M LIKE

ITS 801 AM...AND FINALLY I HAVE BLACKOUT CURTAINS FOR MY BEDROOM...ITS DEFINTELY GOOD NEWS..I CAN GET A LITTLE MORE SLEEP.

TRAVIS D GOT CONFIRMED FOR ENERGIE WITH TERRY TSIOLIS AND PATTI WILSON. WAITING ON DETAILS CONFIRMATIONS FOR BLAINE OR NATE NESBITT.

POOKS AND I HAVE BEEN SEEING ALOT OF EACH OTHER,UT I STILL DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL. ITS HARD TO BE INTIMATE WITH HIM RIGHT NOW, BUT I AM TRYING. I DO KNOW THAT I NEED TO START CONCENTRATING ON MYSELF. I HAVE BEEN WALKING ABOUT 2 MILES EVERY MORNING....IT DOES FEEL LIKE I AM SLOWLY ACCOMPLISHING SOMETHING.

I HAVE MY EYE ON SOME AMAZING BEDROOM SHEET SETS AT MACYS..I NEED TO GET ON IT..I HAVE MY TWO UNCLES STAYING WITH ME FOR A WEEK IN NOVEMBER FOR THANKSGIVING..I WANT THI SPLACE TO LOOK AMAZING B4 THEY COME.

I M OFF TTYL

6 43 PM MONDAY ..JUST GETTING IN

TODAY WAS KIND OF ODD

WE WERE BUSY, THEN TOTALLY DEAD(SO EXCRUCIATING...NOTHING GOING ON)
SIMON HAS A MAYJAH SOTRY OUT ON ARENA HOMMES PLUS WITH PAOLO ROVERSI...IT HAS THE INDUSTRY BUZZING..AND THATS EXCITING..LOOKS LIKE TESTINO IS GOING TO SHOOT HIM FOR LORD AND TAYLOR AS WELL.

EGLE BOOKED BALENCIAGA IN PARIS, ALOBG WITH DIOR ETC. ANTHONY BOURGOIS IS KICKING MAYJAH MAYJAH ASS WITH HER. ITS EXCITING. FRENCH VOGUE IS NEXT FOR SURE ...WOW

RYAN SYNDER IS SHOOTING NAUTICA JEANS WITH MATT ALBIANI WEDENSDAY IN MIAMI. RYAN HEAVYSIDE CONFIRMED CALZEDONIA WITH NICK CLEMENTS. SCOTT W CUT HIS HAIR SO IT LOOKS LIKE HE IS LOSING TOMMY JEANS WITH DEWEY NICKS.

WAITING TO ANNOUNCE OUR BIG NEWS FOR BLAINE COOK SOON..ITS KILLING ME THAT ITS TAKING SO LONG TO WRAP THIS FRIGGIN DEAL UP. EXERCISE IN PATIENCE.

JUST ATE(DEVOURED) A PHILLY CHEESE STEAK WRAP..SOOOO GOOD. CHIS DATTOLLA WILL PROBABLY CAST IN RALPH LAURENS NEW JUNIOR RALPH WILD..NICE LITTLE BOOKING

TODAY I HAD TO PUT ANDREW STETSON USAGE IN FOR EUPHORIA BY CALVIN KLEIN (FRAGRANCE..ANOTHER GUY WHOSE HEAD WAS BIGGER THEN HIS CAREER. 18 MONHS LATER I HAVE NEVER SEEN HIM IN ANOTHER CAMPAIGN AGAIN. MAKES YOU WONDER.

PLANNING A VERY UNDERGROUND PROMO ON THE MENS DIVISION WITH JOE LALLI...ITS GOING TO BE MADONNA SEX BOOK MEETS V MAGAZINE...MEISEL MEETS RICHARDSON..BRILLIANT. QUEENS ARE GOINGT O GO NUTS. TRAVIS DAVENPORT, TERRON WOOD SIMON, NATE , SEAN HARJU, TYLER SCEVERS AND BLAINE COOK WILL BE FEATURED ON IT, HEAVEN..THE TWINK LOVERS ARE GOING TO GAGGGOON

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR:

JOE LALLI

JILL TRACEY

ROBYN SINCLAIR (SLOWLY REDEEMING HIMSELF,LOL)

KELLY STREIT

SIMON NESSMAN

ANYA AND PANOS

JEMIMA

KRISTEN BOWMAN ( F**KING LOVE HER)

XOXOXO
LATES

726 AM MONDAY

HI

SO, LOTS TO COVER, WILL DO TONITE

CANT WAIT TO GET TO WORK..LOTS TO DO

XOXO

725 AM

I FEEL BETTER, I GOT SOME GOOD REST.
SEEING MY DEAR FRIEND MARIA FOR BRUNCH BEFORE I SEND JILL OFF BACK TO ATL
I CANNOT WAIT TIL I GET MY SHADES UP IN MY ROOM, SO I CAN GET SOME REST.

SNL PREMIERED LAST NIGHT, HAD SOME VERY FUNNY ELEMENTS..BUT NOT NECESSARILY LAUGH OUT LOUD FUNNY....KANYE WEST WAS THE GUEST PERFORMER..AND HE DID A SKIT IN ORDER TO MAKE LIGHT OF HIS RIDICULOUS CHILDHISH BEHAVIOR AT AWARDS SHOWS, BUT IT ISNT ALL THAT AMUSING.....

LOOKING FOWARD TO WORK ON MONDAY, SO MUCH HAPPENING...LOTS AND LOTS.

ANYWAY SPEAK LATER

904 PM SATURDAY

I AM SO STRESSED OUT(AND NOT DEALING WITH IT) THAT MY EYES, AND FACE HAVE BEEN NERVOUS TWITCHING ALL DAY. I DONT FEEL STRESSED BUT SUPRESSING IT(ALLEGEDLY)....I DONT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE

I HAVE ALOT TO COME TO GRIPS WITH
I NEED TO DEAL WITH MY RELATIONSHIP ISSUES
I ALSO NEED TO BE HONEST WITH MYSELF ...BRUTALLY HONEST.

I KNOW WHAT IS NECESSARY, BUT I AM SO AFRAID OF BEING SINGLE. I HAVE A HARD TIME MEETING GUYS BECAUSE I AM NOT A STICK FIGURE, A GYM BUNNY OR A LEADING MAN TYPE. I AM JUST ME..ALWAYS WORKING....IN A BUBBLE. KNOWS TONS OF PEOPLE, BUT NO ONE REALLY KNOWS ME

I ALSO LOVE (HIM) ((ALOT))...AND SAYING GOODBYE SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE..I SAY IT, HE CHASES ME AND APOLOGIZES AND "BEGS" TO BE GIVEN ANOTHER SHOT..JUST ON ONLY ONE( TURNS INTO ONE A WEEK) AND I KEEP ON PUSHING THE LINE IN THE SAND FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY ..SOO FAR AWAY/SOMEWHERE THAT I FORGOT WHY I EVEN BOTHERED.

BOTH OF MY PARENTS SUFFERED IN BOTH THEIR FIRST AND SECOND MARRIAGES. MY SISTER SAM HAS SO MUCH TO CONTEND WITH IN HER OWN THAT I WORRY FOR HER(MORE THEN ILL ADMIT) . MY EDEST SISTER SHELLY HAS BEEN ENGAGED TWICE BUT NEVER MARRIED...AND I, HAVE NEVER HAD ANYMORE AS PERMANENT AS POOKS CANUCK.

I AM GOING TO TAKE SOEM TME AND OUT THIS ON HOLD AND SORT THRU THIS WITHOUT A PANEL VOTE; TONS OF TALKING WITH FRIENDS ABOUT SOEMTHING THAT I MUST CHOOSE FROM MY CORE. CAN I JUST BE HIS FRIEND AND HAVE BENEFITS ON THE SIDE? CAN I JUST BE HIS FRIEND AND BE THAT? CAN I BE A LOVER WITH NO STRINGS? CAN I JUST BE?

ITS TIMES LIKE THIS I WISH HE WAS HERE, TO TALK TO ABOUT ANYTHING. SITTING ON MY COUCH , WATCHIG HIM WATCH TV, HIS PROFILE, HIS LOUD LAUGH...HIM LOOKING OVER AT ME AND GRABBING MY HAND TO KISS IT AND THEN SQUEEZING IT HARD ENOUGH TO HURT...MAKING ME FEEL LOVED AND ALIVE. NOW ITS JUST TOGETHER AND ALONE..ME PUSHING HIM AWAY FOR EVERY ERROR , ME TRYING TO HURT HIM BY REMOVING MY LOVE AND SUPPORT FROM HIS AS REJECTION.

I AM GLAD JILL IS HERE, ITS KEEPING ME FOCUSED, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, ON OUR BONDING OVER 2 DECADES OF SUPER LOVING FRIENDSHIP.I WILL BE SAD TO SEE HER GO, BUT I FEEL RECHARGED BY HER LIGHT. SHE SEEMS HAPPY AND GROUNDED..AND WELL ON HER WAY AS WELL.

I CONFIDED IN HER THAT MY FRIENDSHIP WITH DARRYLL SEEM STO HAVE HOT SOME SORT OF NOTHINGNESS, AND I T CONCERNS ME.

SHE FEELS MY SITUATION WITH POOKS HAS TO CHANGE. SHE HAS BEEN VERY "TEAM POOKS" FROM THE DAY SHE MET HIM..BUT SHE HAS SEEN SOME OF THE DRAMA I CINTEND WITH, AND ADD TO..AND SHE IS LIKE " UM, NOT SO MUCH"....IS IT LIEK WATCHING A CAR CRASH IN SLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOW MOTION? OR IS IT WATCHING SOMEONE SIMPY GO THRU THE MOTINS? WHO KNOWS..I AM TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT MYSELF

ANYWAY
MY HEAD IS SLOWLY THROBBING
MY FACE IS TWITCHING
AND JILL IS LISTNEING TO USTIN TIMBERLAKE IN MY LIVING ROOM.....
I NEED TO BREATHE AND LET THIS SITUATION ISSUE BREATHE ON IT S OWN FOR A DAY OR THREE
LOVING YOU
LIVING IN THE LIGHT

J

WHEN DO YOU KNOW ITS TIME?

I HAVE SOMEONE IN MY LIFE WHO HAS BEEN MY MAN GOING ON 3 YEARS. OUR RELATIONSHIP, LIKE MANY PEOPLES RELATIONSHIPS, HAS HAD ITS UP AND DOWNS. WHEN WE FIRST MET, THERE WAS AN INSTANT CONNECTION..WE SAW EACH OTHER EVERY DAY..BECAME EACH OTHERS BEST FRIEND AND TOLD ALL THE STORIES YOU TELL EACH OTHER TO FORM THAT TRUE GROUNDED BOND
I DIDNT THINK ID EVER MEET SOMEONE LIKE HIM, AND SUDDENLY I HAD. HE WAS EVERYTHING TO ME..HE WAS LIKE A COLD DRINK OF WATER ; REVIVING ME. I HAD SPENT SO MUCH TIME WORKING ON MY CAREER; PARTYING ON WEEKENDS..NEVER STOPPING FROM WORK, TO CLUBS, ETC.....ALWAYS DISTRACTED. BUT HERE HE WAS, LOVING ME..NEEDING ME...LISETENING TO ME. I WAS GOBSMACKED. BUT WITH ALL THAT LOVE CAME THE INEVITABLE STORM. THE TSUNAMI OF INSECURITY THAT HAS FED OFF OF ME CAME EVEN HARDER..I STARTED NOT TRUSTING MYSELF, MY INSTICNTS(WHICH ALWAYS SERVED ME AT WORK) MADE ME FEEL UNWORTHY OF THIS TROPHY I HAD BY MY SIDE. WAS HE REALLY INTO ME? WAS THIS ALL AN OPPORTUNISTIC MOVE? ALL MY FRENEMIES , BITH STRAIGHT AND GAY , HAD THEIR OPINIONS, AND SHARED THEN REGARDLESS OF MY WILLINGNESS TO HEAR IT. BUT AS THEY GOT TO SEE US BE US, THEY ALL SAID" HE REALLY REALLY LOVES YOU"..LOVES ME? ME? FAT JASON KANNER? WELL WOW, I GUESS THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS....

WHEN YOU DATE SOMEONE WHO LIVES DEEP IN THE CLOSET, YOU HAVE TO EXPECT ALOT OF DISAPPOINTMENT. I DIDNT CARE(BUT I REALLY DID). WHEN YOU LIE TO YOURSELF, ITS THE MOST MALIGNANT BETRAYAL TO YOUR HEART. YOU MAKE A DEAL WITH YOUR SUBCONCIOUS THAT YOU CAN BLOCK YOU FEELINGS..BUT ITS WEAKENS YOUR SPIRIT. I THOUGHT I COULD DO IT. ACT LIKE WE WERE FRIENDS TO THE PUBLIC, TWO STEPS BEHIND..IN FRONT OF...NEVER HAND IN HAND....IN FRONT OF MY FREINDS WHO WERE "SAFE" WE WERE THE AFFECTIONATE ENVY OF ALL. THE SCRIPT WOUDL FLIP ON A DIME..BUT HOW CAN YOU REALLY ROLL LIKE THAT. I THOUGHT I COULD TURN IT ON AND OFF..BUT I COULDNT. AND BECUASE I TOLD THAT LIKE, IT MADE ME RESENTFUL. AND THAT MANIFESTED IN ANGER. ANGER AT HIM FOR "MAKING ME" LIVE A LIE. ANGRY AT MYSELF ( SO LETS EAT SOME MORE!) FOR ONCE AGAIN BEING IN A HALF OF A RELATIONSHIP. DREADING THE INEVITABLE DISUSSSIONS WITH HIM WHICH WOULD BE MET WITH QUIET APOLOGIES AND INACTION.

NOW WE ARE THREE YEARS DEEP AND I AM STILL IN LOVE, BUT HATE THIS MAN. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO LOVE SOMEONE AND HATE THEM AT THE SAME TIME? ITS SOUNDS LYRICAL, BUT IT ISNT. ITS CONFUSING AND DESTRUCTIVE. I WANT MY LIFE TO SOUND LIEK A JILL SCOTT LOVESONG. " A LONG WALK" , ONE OF HER FIRST SINGLES, TO ME IS PURE LOVE. I SPEAKS OF JUST BEING INTOXICATED BY THE NEWNESS OF A NEW RELATIONSHIP..BUT ALSO ABOUT FINDING THE THINGS YOU LIEK TO DO TOGWTHER AND DOING IT OPENLY..TAKING A LONG WALK, AFTER DARK, AROUND THE PARK....AND WITH MY MAN WE NEVER DID THAT. WE BOTH USED OUR SHAME TO STAY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP. HE LIVES A LIE( FAMILY CANT KNOW HE CREEPS WITH MEN, NOR HIS FRIENDS) AND HAS SHAME...I COSIGN THAT IT S OK TO HIDE IN YOUR CLOSET BECUASE I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO SEE YOU SUFFER ,AND I HATE MYSELF ENOUGHT TO SWALLOW THIS PILL OF SUFFERING. NO, HE DIDNT ASK ME TO DO THIS...BUT HE MADE SURE I WAS HOOKED ON HIM,LIKE A DRUG BEFORE ALL THIS MADNESS ENSUED.

WHAT DO I DO> BE FIERCE, TAKE A STAND..BE ALONE? I AM TRED OF BEING ALONE...I FEEL ALONE WITH HIM, BUT I FEEL SO ALONE WITHOUT HIM? DOES IT MAKE SENSE? IT DOESNT TO ME EITHER SO DONT FEEL ODD ..I BARELY GET IT MYSELF.

I WANT HIM, BUT ALL OF HIM . I ALSO WANT ME TO BE STRONG AND INDEPENDENT. HOW DID MY LOVELIFE BECOME SO MESSY? WHY IS IT SO? IF YOU AER OUT THERE AND YOU HAVE SOME SUGGESTIONS..I AM OPEN TO HEAR IT

LOVE AND LIGHT

11 22PM BACK FROM MR CHOW

HAD SUCH A GREAT DINNER
LOV EMY JILL

MR CHOW ON 57TH IS DEFINITELY SOME OF THE BEST EATING IN NYC
THE CHICKEN SATAY IS LIKE A BLOWJOB FOR YOUR SOUL

ITS EVERYTHING

ABOUT TO WATCH SOME TV AND DECOMPRESS FROM THIS DAY OF FABULOSITY

GETTING JILL INTO AMY WINEHOUSE,,,,SHE IS LOVING THE FIRST ALBUM "FRANK"

I AM OFF

XX'S AND OO'S

845 PM jill is here

JILL IS HERE
ITS BEEN A WONDERFUL DAY
DRAMA
WITH MY MAN
BUT JILL IS HERE, ALL IS WELL

JUST HAD A TONS OF COSMOS AT THE RITZ
HEADING TO CHOWS ON 57TH STREET

CANT WAIT FOR MY SATAY

GAGING

LOVE 2 LOVE U

10 56 PM..THURSDAY

EXHAUSTED
WHAT A DAY

IMG IS BEING COOL ABOUT HONORING OUR OPTIONS EVEN THOUGH WE DROPPED CLINT. AL DAVID IS STILL SPINNING. MICHELE POMMIER IS LIVING FOR THIS..AND WE R ALL LIKE,,HUH? WE DROPPED A PROBLEM, RID OURSELVES OF A CANCER..NOT A BIG ASS DRAMA HERE.

I AM WATCHING THE VIEW WHILE TYPING..ELIZABETH HASSLEBACK IS REALLY A RETARD. WHAT AN ASS!!!! SHE HAS A STORY TO TELL , ALWAYS HAS A COMMENT TO ADD..YET NOTHING OF ANY SOCIAL RELEVANCE. WHY IS SHE ON TV? SHE IS A "TALENT'!

BARBRA WALTERS HAS LOST ALL CREDIBILTY..TIME TO RETIRE GIRL

ANYHOO.JILL IS HERE AROUND 945/10
POOKS AND I ARE TAKING HER TO MR CHOW TOMORROW(CANT WAIT)

POLAROIDED A BUNCH OF GUYS TODAY FOR VARIOUS JOBS WE ARE WORKING ON...EXCITING NEWS COMING DOWN THE PIKE FOR BLAINE COOK. CANT WAIT TIL WE ANNOUNCE IT

NATHAN NESBITT WAS 1 OF 3 GUYS SHOOTING EMPORIO ARMANI, BUT THEY SENT THE OTHER 2 POOR BASTARDS HOME..AND SHOOTING ALL PICS ON NATEY..VERY EXCITING

SEAN HARJU HAS SHOOT OLD NAVY,, AMERICAN EAGLE AND DIESEL IN THE PAST 2 WEEKS..NUTSO

BOOKED JEREMY SIMPSON, SIMON AND TYLER LOUGH FOR ABERCROMBIE...TYLER ALSO SHOT THE POLO RUGBY CAMPAIGN WITH ARNALDO ANAYA LUCCA..ALONGSIDE MICHAEL LEMBO ( WHO JUST HAS A BABY ..CONGRATS)

WE BE BZ BOO

I AM OFF

FRESH DIRECT IS BEING DELIVERED...HAD TO STOCK UP


OOOH MOST IMPORTANTLY..I HAD LUNCH WIHT MY DEAR DEAR FRIEND HILARY SKLAR...SO GREAT TO RECONNECT ..SHE HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND CHARLOTTE FROM WILLIAMSBURG..LOVE LOVE THAT

TRIPLE LOVING U ALL

NITERS

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THURSDAY 8 32 AM

HIYA

24 HRS AND COUTING UNTIL JILL COMES
EXCITING I MUST SAY!

POOKS SPENT THE NIGHT, IT SNICE TO HAVE THE PLACE TO MYSELF..NO OFFFENSE
CANNOT WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND..STILL TRYING TO PLAN WHAT JILL AND I WILL BE DOING

MY SISTER SAMANTHA TOLD ME THAT YESTERDAYS OPRAH IS A MUST WATCH .SO I WILL TONIGHT
I AM HAVING DINNER WITH TERRON WOOD, BUT LUNCH WITH Y DEAR FRIEND HILARY.I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER

OFF TO SHOWER THEN TO WORK
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11 35 pm..getting ready for bed

LONG DAY
LOOKING FOWARD TO SLEEPING

JILL COMES FRIDAY CANNNNNT WAIT

PEREZ HILTON RAPPING ON MTV
SCARY AS ALL HELL
WHATS THE WORLD COMING TO

FUCKING EH

WEDENSDAY 6 47 PM

JUST GOT HOME

WHY IS IT HOT AGAIN
I HAVE WHITNEY HOUSTON FLOPSWEAT
NOT CUTE


LONG LONG DAY
NATE IS SHOOTING EMPORIO ARMANI TODAY
TRES EXCITING.

LOTS OF GREAT OPTIONS...SO MUCH GOING ON
RALPH LAUREN IS LAUNCHING A NEW FRAGRANCE..TRYING TO WORK ON THAT ASAP


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NEW CD'S

HI

BOUGHT THE NEW KEISHA COLE, JILL SCOTT..WILLI AM

NOT THRILLED
I AM A HUGE JILL SCOTT FAN

BUT THIS ALBUM IS TOOOO MELLLOW

POLO WRAP DINNER

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR:

BENNY ESKRIDGE
ABIGAIL THOMPSON
TERRON WOOD
TRAVIS DAVENPORT
ROBYN SINCLAIR

AFTER GOING THRU THE DOUCHE OF A WEEK, IT WAS NICE TO BE AROUND SOME MODELS WHO...(TRUMPETS SALUTE) ACTUALLY APPRECIATE THEIR AGENT AND THE WORK. YES I SAID IT, CAN YOU IMAGINE..UNJADED MODELS WHO ACTUALLY SMILE, ENGAGE YOU AND CAN SPEAK ABOUT OTHER THINGS THEN ABOUT THEMSELVES...I KNOW..ITS ALOT...ANYHOO

HAD A GREAT DINNER AT OLD HOMESTEAD(THANKS POLO) AND THEN DRINKS AT OUR USUAL WATERING HOLE..LA BOTTGEA AT THE MARITIME. HAD TOO MUCH TO DRINK AND DIPPED..HAD DOUGHNUTS MILK AND WATER(CLASSY) AND MUST HAVE PASSED OUT

WHY DO I DRUNK TEXT? WHATS THE HIDDEN DEMON..UGH..MORE CHANTING IS NEEDED....I NEED MY PHONE TAKEN FROM ME, AFTER DRINK 4....PLEASE ANYONE LISTENING?LOL

HAD LUNCH WITH THE LEGENDARY CHRIS COLLINS. HE IS A PERSONAL FAVE..ANYONE WHO THINKS I AM VERY DIFFCULT TO DEAL WITH , MAY BE RIGHT..BUT I AM A PUSHOVER FOR CHRIS COLLINS. HE IS A CLASSY( I AM SOUNDING LIKE TRUMP) STAND UP GENTLEMAN AND ITS TRULY BEEN A PRIVLEDGE WORKING WITH HIM FOR THESE PAST 12 YEARS....AND TODAY I HAVE LUNCH WITH THE SOON TO BE A LEGEND CHAD WHTE....LOTS OF LUNCHES..I PREFER BREAKFAST MEETINGS AT THE MERCER WHEN TESTINO IS IN TOWN..THE BREAKFAST AT MERCER IS EVERYTHING, BUT WHEN MARIO TESTINO AND MARC JACOBS ARE STAYING THERE, ITS ALOT OF COOL PEOPLE CHILLING AND A LOT OF BUSINESS GETS DONE..LOVE IT

MARIO IS REALLY FEELING SOME OF OUR NEW GUYS
JEREMY SIMPSON
CALVIN BODHAN
BLAINE
SIMON NESSMANN
NATE



CANT WAIT TO GET TO WORK

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OOOOH AND ALSO....HE HAS FLIPPED FOR ORAINE BARRET( SO EXCITING)

FLIPPIN THE SCRIPT

SORRY THAT ITS BEEN A COUPLE OF DAYS
I HAVE BEEN BZ , AND WORK IS ALWAYS A PRIORITY.

AFTER MUCH DEBATE, KATIA AND I DECIDED, ALONG WITH THE SUPPORT OF MAGGIE AND TOM TO"DROP" CLINT MAURO.
THE RELATIONSHIP WAS DOOMED FROM THE START.....AL , MY FRENEMY, DOING HIS USUAL POISONING OF THE MOND TO HIS LATEST OBSESSION WHO IS CLINT

PLEASE TAKE A MOMENT TO LOOK AT THE INSANE BIOGRAPHY ON CLINTMAURO.COM
THAT WILL TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IN REGADS TO AL AND HIS "THING" FOR CLINT

I HAVE DONE A STAND UP JOB FOR CLINT, ONLY TO BE MET WITH HIS VERSION OF BEING ALOOF AND DISTANT.
AL MADE A SERIOUS POWER MOVE AND WHEN IT BACKFIRED , I WAS THROWN UNDER THE BUS..BUT NOT REALLY ..THIS TIME RATHER THEN BEING EMOTIONALLY TORTURED BY AL FOR WEEKS..WE DECEIDED TO FLIP THE SCRIPT AND DROP HIM.....CLEAR AND SIMPLE..NO DRAMA..BUT BECAUSE AL CANT HANDLE NOT BEING IN CONTROL OF EVERY ASPECT OF EVERY SITUATION HE HAS LOST HIS EVER LOVING MIND. BUT , WHAT CAN I SAY? IF YOU PLAN ON TOYING WITH GROWN PEOPLE, YOU MAY JUST FIND YOURSELF ASS OUT.

I CANT SAY IF CLINT IS A GOOD GUY OR A BAD GUY HERE, AS I REALLY HAVE NO RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM. HE HADNT CHECKED IN WITH US FOR QUITE A FEW DAYS PRIOR TO THE DEVASTATIING NEWS(BEING SARCASTIC) THAT HE GOT RELEASED FROM AN OPTION. I GUESS SOME PEOPLE JUST WANT TO WIN WIN WIN, AND DONT REALIZE IN ORDER TO WIN YOU MUST LOSE ALSO, ITS CALLED COMPETITION..ANYHOO...I DO KNOW THAT CLINT DID CALL A CLIENT OF MINE, WHO IS ALSO A FRIEND, TO TRASH ME TO THEM, WHICH I THINK FURTHER DISTANCED US FROM EVER FINDING A MEETING POINT.

I KNEW MONTHS AGO THAT MY WORK RELATIONSHIP COULD NEVER LAST WITH CLINT. AS GREAT LOOKING AS HE IS,HIS LACK OF RESPECT TO ME, AND MY TEAM WAS A BONE OF MUCH CONTENSION IN OUR OFFICE. WHEN HE MADE AN ATTEMPT TO THANK US, AL WAS QUICK TO TELL US IT WAS HIS IEA FOR HIM TO SEND US CANDY..HOW SAD. AL MUST HAVE THE"BIGGEST DICK" IN THE ROOM AT ALL TIMES..BIG EGO, LITTLE DICK I AM SURE..

WHEN CLINT LET KATIA HAVE IT, THATS WHEN THE LINE IN THE SAND TRULY WAS DRAWN.WHO SPEAKS TO A WOEN LIEK THAT, F**K THIS, AND F**K YOU, SHE WAS IN TEARS...AND THEN SEND HER FLOWERS, LIEK THATS IS WIFE...IT WA DONE THAT LAST THURSDAY.

NOW CLINT WILL WIND UP WITH A PASSIONLESS AGENT IN NYC WHO WILL CAPITALIZE QUICKLY IN HIS AX SUCCESS, AND THEN HE WIL FIZZLE OUT FASTER THEN MOST..AS HE WORKS THRU AND IN HIS KARMA. I DO REALLY WISH HIM WELL, AND MEAN IT....HOPEFULLY CLINT CAN SEE, IN LESS THEN 16 MTHS AL HAS PULLED HIM FROM PAUL NELSON, IMG, SOON DAVID AT NOUS..AND NOW WE DROPPED HIM...SOMETHING MUST BE AWRY. BUT I DOUBT CLINT LOOKS MUCH PAST HIS MIRROR TO SEE THE TRUTH.

I KNOW MY FAULT IN THIS AND KNOW I WILL DEAL WTH TOSE CONSEQUENCES. I TRADED MY SENSE (SOMETIMES) TO REP WHAT I THINK TO BE THE BEST MODELS. KNOWING THAT SOMEONE WHO WAS FEEDING THEM TRULY HATED ME OUT OF PURE JEALOUSLY..NOT FRIENDSHIP, NOT EVEIL EITHER.

AL AND I HAVE HAD PROBABLY ONE OF THE MOST TWISTED AND DISHONEST FRIENDSHIS. TOO MUCH TO GET INTO, BUT LETS JUST SAY ID RATHER HAVE "LESSER" MODELS THEN DO ANY MORE BUSINESS WITH HIM AGAIN

HE PLAYS THE VICTIM, AS I AM THE DEVIL. BUT THE TRUTH IS THE TRUTH,,AND I KNOW THAT AL'S OBSESSION WITH ALL THINGS CLINT, AN ALLTHINGS MAJOR, AND ALL THINGS JASON HAVE BEEN DESTROYED.

THE JIG IS UP

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SUNDAY 4 31 PM

WHAT A FRIGGIN GORGEOUS SUNDAY

WALKED BY THE WATER
GOT SOME SUN, BOUGHT NEW VOGUE

ITS A GOOD SUNDAY

WHY IS ANNA WINTOUR MAKING DAVID SIMS TAKE STEVEN MEISEL STYLE PICS? I DONT GET IT
THE NEW VOGUE IS NOT ALL THAT

MEISEL SHOULD HAVE SHOT THAT COUTURE STORY...LOVE SIMS,,BUT ITS ABOUT MOVEMENT IN THE STUDIO FOR HIM
THE STORY IS MISSING THAT MEISEL POLISH..AND ITS VOUGUE..ITS MANDATORY

MS WINTOUR TRIED IT WITH MCDEAN, WITH KLEIN AND NOW WITH SIMS..AND ITS NEVER GOING TO BE STEVEN MEISEL LEVEL...HE IS THE SHT, THE POO..THE MEISEL

LIKED THE CHARLIZE THERON LIFESTYLE COVER STORY BY TESTINO. USUAL CHIC AND MARIOS SEXY PLUCK....

TOMORROW NUMERO HOMMES WILL BE WAITING ON MY DESK
RYAN DAHARSH, ROBYN SINCLAIR , CHRIS DATTOLLA AND EDDIE TUCKER ARE ALL IN IT..CANNOT WAIT!

SPOKE WITH PAUL N FROM LA,HE GAVE ME SOME NEEDED GUIDANCE AND ADVICE ON MY ISSUE WITH NIPSEY RUSSEL AND HIS MANNEQUIN ...NEEDED THAT .

POOKS AND I ARE HAVING SOME GROWING PAINS, BUT ITS DEFINITELY GROWING APART

TTYL

TOOK THE BATH: FEELING LIKE A CHAMP

HEY YA

ITS TIME TO MAKE BOLD MOVES,AND STAND IN TRUTH

I DONT HAVE TO BE THE BEST
I DONT HAVE TO BE A COUPLE
I DONT HAVE TO BE FAT
I DONT HAVE TO WORRY

CHOICES
WHATS IT WORTH?
DO THEY MAKE OR DEFINE YOU?

I WANT TO BE MORE THEN MY WORK, MORE THEN MY CHOICES
I WONT SELL MYSELF SHORT FOR MY CAREER
MY EGO

E
G
O

EVERYBODYS GOT ONE

EGO BLOCK THE LIGHT
IN ALL OF US
AND IN ME

THE OPPOSITE OF IT
INSECURITY

YING YANG

PREFER BEING WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE
ON TIME

STOP THE WORRING
THE MADNESSS
PERHAPS, THE SHAME

IT AINT ALL BAD
SO MUCH GOOD AND LIGHT

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6 02 PM SATURDAY

FEELING LIKE A SCHMO

WISH I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO STAY FASTING TIL SUNSET
I DID CLEAR 22 23 HRS..BUT I WOUDL HAVE PREFERRED TO WAIT TIL SUNDOWN
NEXT YR FOR SHIZZ

STORY OF MY LIFE, NOT FINISHING THINGS
THAT NEEDS 2 CHANGE

NEED TO SHAVE MY HEAD, AND SOAK IN THE TUB TIL CAMERONS B DAY PARTAY

LOVE THAT KID!

F**K

I LASTED TO 130

IT IS WHAT IT I

LIVING FOR

PEOPLE WHO R DISCIPLINED

12 47PM REALLY HUNGRY

ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS FOOD
IM WAITING TIL 230 AND IM EATING

LEAVE ME ALONE IM STARVING

11 58, AND I HAVENT EATEN SINCE 2 30 YESTERDAY, NO EVEN SIPPED WATER
I HAVE A HEADACHE AND IM NONE TOO HAPPY

I DO APPERCIATE THAT I COULD JUST GET UP AND GO TO KITCHEN AND JUST CHOW...BUT I CANT. I AM REPENTING....

ITS NOT AWFUL, BUT I COULD REALLY USE SOME FOOD....
SHOUT OUT TO MY SISTER SAMANTHA, WHO IS FASTING TOO

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805 AM

ITS SOOO OVERCAST

I HAVENT EATEN SINCE 3PM......IM HOLDING OUT TIL SUNDOWN...
ITS HARD TO 'REFLECT"..I JUST KNOW I NEED TO SHUT MY MOUTH MORE..NOT BE SO SHARP WITH MY TONGUE AND MY EMOTIONS
ALSO I NEED TO LEAN DOWN, AND WATCH MY EMOTIONAL EATING
DEF PLAN ON SPENDING MORE TIME WITH MY SISTER AND THE BOYZZZZZ

IM OK, IM FINE

IM ALREADY HUNGRY

THE MIND
PLAYS GAMES
NOT GONNNA DO IT

CURB YOUR ENTHUSIASM

CATCHING UP ON IT

SO BRIZZILIANT

655 PM SUNSET YOM KIPPUR STARTS

ITS THE DAY OF REPENTING

AND ALTHOUGH I DONT DO PEOPLE DIRTY, I DO HAVE A MOUTH ON ME, AND AT TIMES I CROSS THE LINE WITH IT

FOR THAT AND IN HONOR OF MY MOTHER
THE BEAUTIFUL BERNICE GLUCKMAN, I WILL FAST AND REPENT.SHE IS MISSED BY ALL OF US!!!!!!
I WONT BE EATING,,,IF I DO ..ILL THINK OF MOM AND NOT DO IT! EAT NO NO NO
BUT I WILLBE WATCHING TV., MOVIES ETC
READING BLOGGING
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, OBSERVING WHERE I AM AT WITH MY JUDIASM, IN MY SOUL
AND WORKING OUT MY KARMA

HERES TO A HEALTHFUL AND SMARTER NEW YEAR FOR ALL JEWS AND THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE THEM
LETS HOPE FOR A MORE PEACEFUL, HONEST AND TOLERANT WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

LOVE AND LIGHT

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR

HILLARY CLINTON

OPRAH WINFREY

STEVE JOBS

HARVEY WEINSTEIN

JULIUS POLLE

MARK FOLTZ

DAMON WILLIS

BLAINE COOK

SARAH HAMILTON BAILEY

JESSICA ROVINS

MATTHEW SCRIVENS

LAST MINUTE BOOKINGS UGH

OK
SO SEAN H IS GETTING BOOKED FOR DIESEL JEANS WITH LAURIE BARTLEY
IN LA
CANT FIND A FLIGHT AND HE HAS TO LEAVE NOW!
HE IS THERE FOR A DAY
THWN HAS TO FLY TO MIAMI TO WORK WITH MATT JONES

OY YO YOY

CNN

HI

I AM WATCHING CNN

MIT STUDENT WALKS INTO LOGAN AIRPORT WITH BOMB STRAPPED TO HER CHEST
ITS FAKE, SAYS IT ART

NOOSES AROUND TREES AND BACK OF TRUCKS IN LOUSIANA
SICK WORLD

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO US?

820 AM...UP AND AT EM

TAKING A DAY OFF
PREPARING FOR YOM KIPPOR
TAKING KIDS TO SAN GENNARO TONIGHT

THE PRES OF IRAN IS STAYING NEXT DOOR TO MY HOUSE FOR UNITED NATIONS SUMMIT
I LIVE NEXT DOOR, LITERALLY , TO THE RITZ CARLTON..THAT IS WHERE HE IS STAYING

ITS GOING TO BE MADNESS

ILL BEBLOGGING ALL DAY

IM TALKING SQUARE BIZ

HEY

JUST GOT HOME 745 PM

BZ DAY AT WORK..THE USUAL GRIND BUT AMPED UP

HAPPY TO BE RID OF THE SCAVANGER AND HIS DIGITALLY ENHANCED MANNEQUIN...I WONT BE TREATED POORLY..GROW UP AND TAKE YOUR POOR DECISION LIKE A MAN; I CERTAINLY STAND BY MINE

TONS OF SHYT GOING ON
I THINK BLAINE HAS SOMETHING MAYJAH MAYJAH GOIN DOWN

OUT NEW BRIT TOBY IS THE POOH..AMAZING..CANT WAIT TIL PEOPLE MEET HIM THIS COMING WEEK
TYLER KENYON HAS SOME SERIOUS BUZZ AS DOES TYLERR SCEVERS NEW COIF.

JUSTIN T SEEMS TO BE BACK IN THE SWING OF THINGS, WORKING..CONTENTED...AS IS WHELAN AND ISA RAHMAN

SEAN H IS WORKING DAILY..AS IS TERRON WOOD. MIKE ATLMAN , THE LEGENDARY CHRIS COLLISN, DAMON &WADE ARE SEEMINGLY MODELING ROBOTS WORKING AND MAKING THAT LETTUCE(LOL)

I AM JUMPING IN TO MY TUB AND SOAKING..THEN DIN DIN WITH POOKS AT SOMEPLACE YUMMY AND HAVE A FEW BEVVYS AND LET THIS DAY WASH AWAY

LOVING YOU AND LOVING THE LIGHT
TOMORROW NIGHT I FAST AND I AM LIVE BLOGGING THAT EXPERIENCE ON SATURDAY
SHOULD BE INTERESTING


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733 AM UP

HI
HAD A LONG RESTFUL SLEEP
BOTH TUESDAY AND WEDNESDAY I WALKED 2 MILES EACH DAY TOWARDS WORK..TODAY I AM TAKING THE DAY OFF.
GLAD TO BE RID OF AL AND ALL THAT THAT COMES WITH. ITS LEIF STACEY ALL OVER AGAIN..AND THERE IS NO WAY I AM GOING TO FIGHT THAT FIGHT ANYMORE.

HAVE LUNCH WITH LUCAS TODAY..AND POOKS AND I ARE HAVING A NIGHT ALONE.

YOM KIPPUR IS SATURDAY, AND I AM FASTING (ONLY WATER) AND THEN ITS CAMERONS BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY.

IT SEEMS TO BE SHAPING UP TO BE ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL DAY IN NYC.

SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO MAKE A BRAVE STEP TO ELIMINATE CHAOS FROM YOUR LIFE. LORD KNOWS, I HAVE PLENTY..BUT SOME CHAOS IS RELEVANT, SOME TOXIC. NO MORE TOXIC CHAOS.

GOTTA GET UP AND GET MOVIN

TTYL

GOSSIP GIRL

KINDA GOOOOOOD

IT IS WHAT IT IS

ONE OF THE MOT INFURIATING THINGS THAT OCCUR IN THIS BUSINESS IN WHEN A MODEL GETS DRUNK WITH THEIR SUCCESS. THEY BELIEVE THIER OWN HYPE, AND SUBSEQUENTLY , FUCK THEMSELVES

IF YOU MAKE A POWER MOVE, TAKE RESPONSIBILTY FOR IT..IF YOU SCREW UP, TAKE IT LIKE A CHAMP
SIGNING A FEW AUTOGRAPHS DOESNT MAKE YOU A STAR....STARS ARE IN THE SKY

BOTH FEET ON THE GROUND
GRACIOUSNESS
HONESTY
HAVING THE SMARTS TO KNOW WHATS REALLY UP
AND BE CONCIOUS OF WHATS BEING DONE FOR YOU
YOU MAY HAVE BEEN TAINTED TO NOT LIKE WHO IS WORKING, REALLY WORKING..NOT JERKING YOU...BUT WHEN YOU REALIZE THE TRUTH YOU ARE USUALLY SOULLESSROADKILL

YOU CANT EXPECT TO ONLY TAKE, AND GIVE NOTHING BACK
THE UNIVERSE HAS A DARK SENSE OF HUMOUR AND WILL TAKE WHAT WAS GIVEN FROM YOU ..IT S IS OUT OF YOUR CONTROL WHEN YOU ARE OUT OF CONTROL...SORROW THIS MORROW..

LISTEN TO THE SECOND RATE SCAVENGER..EATING OFF YOUR CARCASS FOR HIS PERCENTAGE...HE HAS FEASTED ON MY AN ERECT GLOSSY 8 X 10 OF HIS MASSACRES..HOLDING THEGLOSSY OF YOUR HEAD BY GETTING IN YOUR HEAD, AND MAYBE GIVING YOU HEAD..SELL YOUR SOUL TO THE DEVIL, AND BABY YOU LOST YOUR SOUL

GOOD RIDDANCE TO OLD RUBBISH

PE

WEDNESDAY 6 58 AM

JUST WOKE UP
MARIA MY HOUSEKEEPER COMES TODAY..ALTHOUGH MY PLACE IS SPOTLESS
I THINK I AM GOING TO WALK AGAIN FOR AN HOUR TODAY

NEED TO CHECK MY TONSILS WITH MY DOCTOR

USUAL WORK EMAILS. NOTHING MAYJAH

IM OFF

11 27 BED

THAT CHRIS CROCKER SHIT ON YOU TUBE IS SO HILARIOUS
WHAT A MESS
COURTNEY LOVE CRAZY
KIND OF BRILL THOUGH

FUNNY
SCARY

WORKS

8 07 pm HOME

LONG DAY
VERY FULFILLING THOUGH
NATE IS SHOOTING PRECOLLECTION ARMANI WITH MERT N MARCUS
AND EMPORIO ARMANI WITH ALASDAIR MCLLELAN

CLINT GOT PRECOLLECTION WITH M AND M AS WELL

WALKED FROM BATTERY PARK TO CHRISTOPHER STREET. ONE HR STRAIGHT..FELT GREAT
MET WITH JON AND STEPAHNIE PASSAVANT FOR AGREAT LUNCH

ATE CHINEESE , WATCHING JENNY MCCARTHY ON OPRAH...ABOUT AUTISM
PICKED UP THE NEW POP MAGAZINE...AMAZING JOSH OLINS STORY BY ANDREW DAVIS

BOTH BEN AND I ARE EXHAUSTED, SO WE ARENT GOING TO CHRIS BOALS' B IRTHDAY 2NITE.
TOMORROW NIGHT I SEE POOKS, I THINK

I THINK SAM AND I ARE TAKING THE KIDS TO SAN GENNARO FESTIVAL THURSDAY. COULD BE FUN
I HATE TO SOUND LIKE A ALTA CACCA BUT MAN, THE WEATHER IS AMAZING IN NYC RIGHT NOW

ANYWAY SPEAK SOON

TUESDAY 636 AM..UP

UGH

I AM UP ALREADY..I NEED SHADES FOR THIS FRIGGIN BEDROOM
HAD A NICE QUIET NITE
HAD CRAZY DREAMS, NOTHING I FEEL OK ABOUT WRITING HERE.
LOOKS LIKE IT IS GOING TO BE ANOTHER GORGEOUS DAY , YOU CAN JUST TELL BY THE SUNRISE..

CHECKED EMAILS AGAON
MAX NEEDS NATE TO FLY TODAY TO IBIZA FOR ARMANI
BLAINE IS DOING WELL FOR UK SHOWS

TONIGHT IS GQ PARTY...50 YR ANNIVERSARY..NOT GOING...SEEING CHRIS BOALS INSTEAD FOR HER B DAY. KANYE WEST IS PERFORMING..BUT I WIL PASS.

MUST WORK OUT THIS MORNING.

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LIVING FOR

CATHERINE TATE
GENIUS COMIC IN THE VEIN OF JENNIFER SAUNDERS..GENIUS

737 PM HOME

LONG DAY
LOTS GOING ON
NATE GOT ARMANI WITH MERT N MARCUS THRU MILAN..VERY EXCITING
ROBYN TERRON AND TRAVIS GOT CONFIRMED FOR POLO SPRING 08 WITH ARNALDO ANATA LUCCA
WAITING TO HEAR IF CLINT GOT DOLCE PACKAGING THRU WHYNOT

TOMORROW IS CHRIS BOALS' BIRTHDAY....GOING WITH BEN
I TOOK A CAB HOME, AND ROLLED DOWN THE WINDOW AND LET THE COOL RUSH OF AIR REINVIGORATE ME.I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR IN NYC..ITS COOL, CLEAN AND THE NEW SEASON AWAITS.

ORDERING IN..COULD BE CHINEESE(LOVE) OR MEXICAN

I MISS MY JENN DANSKA, MY HEART......SHE STARTED OFF AS ONE OF MY FIRST ASSISTANTS WHEN WE WERE BOTH KIDS, AND TURNED INTO LIFELONG FRIENDS, TRUE FAMILY. COULDNT PICTURE MY LIFE WITHOUT HER IN IT, HER HEART, HER SMARTS, HER SOUL AND STYLE...SEE YOU SOON TOO!

WELL, I AM OFF TIL TOMORROW
ENJOY

MONDAY MONDAY

ITS 733AM
CHECKED MY EMAILS
THE USUAL SUSPECTS:

MAX FROM D MANAGEMENT..MORE OPTIONS ON NATE NEBITT
PATRICIA FROM BANANAS...RYAN SYNDER

I HAVE TO WORK OUT THIS MORNING..BUT I AM WAKING UP TIRED AGAIN.
WORK SHOULD BE BUSY, IT ALWAYS IS!

I EMAILED A BUNCH A PICS OF NEW GUYS WE HAVE TYLER KENYON, JEREMY SIMPSON THAT JOE LALLI SHOT OVER THE WEEKEND AND ANDREW DAVIS FROM ARENA ALREADY RESPONDED ABOUT TYLER..DOPE! WOULD BE PRETTY GENIUS IF YOUR FIRST EDITORIAL BOOKING WAS FOR ARENA MAGAZINE!

LOOKS LIKE CHAD WHITE IS HEADING TO LONDON TONIGHT TO DO THIS HUGE FASHION SHOW THAT NAOMI CAMPBELL IS PUTTING ON..

MY A/C IS ON IN MY BEDROOM IS ITS FREEZING..JUST LIKE I LIKE IT..BUT DAMN ITS COOOOOLD.
NEXT DOOR TO ME, THERE IS A NEW BUILDING BUILT..THEY SURE DO THIS PRETTY FAST THESE DAYS. IT SEEM SONLY DAYS AGO THEY WERE LAYING THE FOUNDATION, NOW ITS 25 FLOORS AT LEAST ABOVE THAT.

CAMERONS BIRTHDAY IS ON SATURDAY AND I AM PLANNING HIS DINNER PARTY. SHOULD BE A HOOT. I NEED TO GET TICKETS TO SEE TEH CURE NEXT MONDAY AT MSG. NOTE TO SELF!

ANYHOO, I AM OFF..HAVE A GOOD ONE

LIVE BLOGGING

AS I AM TYPING, MY BODY DOUBLE, CHAD WHITE , IS READING MY BLOG, DEVOURING IT.
I BET HE IS WORRYING THAT I WRITE NOTHING SCANDLOUS ABOUT HIM

EMMYS PART DEUX

OK, IS IT ME OR DOES JOELY FISHER LOOK AMAZING! MOTHER HOOD IS THE BEAUTY SECRET....AND AGUILERA GLOWED.
I MUST SAY THAT HEIDI KLUM NEVER LOOKED BETTER AS WELL

EMMY BEST DRESSED

I HAVE TO SAY , SOME OF THESE BITCHES FINALLY GOT A CLUE

LOTS OF WELL DRESSED MAMAS

BEST DRESSED TO ME

ALI LARTER
ANA ORTIZ
VANESSA WILIAMS ( REDEEMED FROM LAST YEARS HEINOUSNESS)
SANRDA OH ..SHE JUST GETS IT



THATS IT SO FAR

GENIUS MODELS OF ALL TIME..LEGENDARY

THIS WILL BE ONGOING

CHRISTY TURLINGTON..THE ONE AND ONLY

LINDA EVANGELISTA...THE MADONNA OF MODELING

MARCUS SCHENKENBERG...THE ORIGINAL

SUSAN HOLMES

NIKI TAYLOR

ROBERTA CHIRKO

RHOSHUMBA

SEBASTIAN CARDIN

BRYAN RANDALL

CARLA BRUNI

EMMA BALFOUR

CINDY CRAWFORD

JANICE DICKINSON ..SHE WAS FIERCE, NOW A TRAINWRECK WITH NO SOUL

PADMA LASHMI

DAVID BOALS..NOW A DAD, AND STILL HOT

JOHN PEARSON

STEPHANIE JAMES

BERI SMITHER ..BACK IN THE DAY

CHRIS COLLINS..THE EMBODIMENT OF "LEGENDARY"

TALISA SOTO...BRUCE WEBER DID A VOGUE COVER OF HER IN 89 THAT IS STILL ONE OF THE BEST VOGUE COVERS EVER

JOHN FRANCIS

SCOTT BENOIT

KATE MOSS....MILF

PEOPLE I AM LIVING FOR

THEE ARE SOME PEOPLE THAT I AM LIVING FOR LATELY

KIMORA LEE SIMMONS...LLLLLLLLIVING.
HAVE YOU ALL BEEN WATCHING HER SHOW ON STYLE? GENIUS.....SHE IS LOUIS VUITTONS NUMBER 1 CLIENT IN NORTH AMERICA. WOW

ROSIE O DONNELL..BRAVE HONEST OPEN...CONNECTING TO THE "LIGHT"..CHECK OUT HER SITE WWW.ROSIE.COM ..HER BLOG IS EPIC

PEREZ HILTON..SHARP. BRILLIANT..REINVENTING THE WHEEL

THE "NEW" MARC JACOBS...WOW, A HOTTIE GROWS ON 7TH AVENUE

JENNIFER HUDSON SIGNING ON FOR SEX AND THE CITY..FIERCE

AMY WINEHOUSE...A LOVE A HOT MESS, AND I LOVE A VOICE DRENCHED IN SOUL...THATS AMY WINEHOUSE IN A SOUND BITE. GET HER FIRST ALBUM "FRANK"..AWESOME BEFORE HER "BACK TO BLACK" SOPHMORE CD. CHECK OUT YOUTUBE.COM AND SEARCH FOR HER SONG"IN MY BED" (LIVE VERSION) FROM AOL SESSIONS..BONE CHILLING-LY GOOD.

CHELSEA HANDLER ..SMART DOESNT COVER IT, AND F*KING HILARIOUS...CHEK HER OUT ON E!

TIM GUNN..A TRUE CLASS ACT..LOVE THAT VERONICA WEBB IS ON THAT SHOW....SO GOOD. SO "ON"

THIS LIST WILL BE ON GOING..LIVING FOR

OK, IM OBSESSED

OK..I AM A PHOTOGRAPHY JUNKIE..BIG TIME.

MY FAVORITE PASTIME YOU ASK????? LIKE A LADY GETTING HER HAIR DONE..THUMBING THRU MAGAZINES IS ONE OF MY FAVE THINGS TO DO. FRENCH VOGUE, ITALIAN VOGUE IS MY ESPN....I CAN LOOK AT STEVEN MEISEL'S WORK FOR HOURS. I KNOW IT SOUNDS DEMENTED..BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS,PEOPLE. HIS WORKS MAKES ME CRAZY. HE IS TRULY A BRILLIANT ARTIST. I HAVE EVERY ITALIAN VOGUE ISSUE HE HAS EVER SHOT. EVERYTIME I MOVE, IT COSTS ME THOUSANDS OF BUCKS TO CART AROUND ALL OF MY MAGAZINES..BUT I WILL NEVER PART WITH THEM.
SOME OF MY FAVORITE PICS STEVEN HAS SHOT HAVE BEEN OF LINDA EVANGELISTA(NATCH),NADJA AUREMANN, MEGHAN DOUGLAS, AMBER VALLETTA( WHO I USED TO REP EONS AGO),GISELE, CARMEN KASS, STELLA TENNANT AND MORE RECENTLY CAROLINE TRENTINI AND HILARY RHODA. I HOPE ONE DAY STEVEN DOES A BOOK OF HIS WORK...ILL PROBABLY BUY 2 COPIES..ONE TO LOOK AT DAILY ,,AND ONE TO NEVER OPEN ..JUST KNOWING I HAVE IT UNTOUCHED, UN THUMBED THRU GIVES ME PLEASURE..ITS SICK ,I KNOW.
MARIO TESTINO IS ANOTHER ONE....I ALWAYS JOKE AROUND THAT I WANT TO LIVE IN A MARIO TESTINO PICTURE..WHO THE F**K WOULDNT? GORGEOUS EVERYTHING. CLOTHES, PEOPLE, LOCATION...HIS PICTURES , TO ME, HAVE A SMELL..THEY ARE INTOXICTING. HIS RECENT VANITY FAIR COVER STORY ON BRAZIL WITH GISELE ON THE COVER WAS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL,COMPELLING PEICES I HAVE EVER SEEN. I WANTED TO JUMP ONTO THE PAGES AND BE AT THAT PARTY. HAVE ANY OF YOU SEEN THE NEW V MAN 9? WITH MY GUY( AND SELECT IN LONDON) DAVID GANDY? ITS SO HOT AND POWERFUL. THE MALE SUPERMODEL IS BACK BITCH..GIMME MORE..OKWAY?

BRUCE WEBER. WOW..HE MAKES A MAN LOOK LIKE A HERO. HIS PICTURES IN MY OPINION ARE SO BEAUTIFULLY PURE...THEY CAN BE EROTIC AND THEY ARE ALWAYS INTELLIGENT.WHENEVER BRUCE CALLS MY OFFICE, I GET A LITTLE NERVOUS..HE IS LIKE A ROCK STAR TO ME...TO ME ITS LIKE GETTING A CALL FROM MICK JAGGER OR SOMETHING. HE HAS PUBLISHED SOME INCREDIBLE BOOKS OVER HIS CAREER..MY FAVORITE BEING BEAR POND( WHICH SOME JACKED FROM MY APARTMENT YEARS AGO AND CHOP SUEY CLUB. I ALSO FEEL THAT HE HAS TAKEN SOME OF THE MOST CAPTIVATING PICTURES OF KATE MOSS EVER TAKEN. HE IS THE REAL DEAL..A TRUE ARTIST..

THEN THERE IS STEVEN KLEIN. I MEAN COME ON..THE PICTURES HE DOES OF MADONNA MAKE ME WANT TO PULL WHATEVER HAIR I HAVE LEFT OUT OF MY HEAD. SHEER GENIUS......DID YOU GUYS SEE HIS RECENT W STORY ON NAOMI CAMPBELL? JUST WICKED I TELL YOU. AND WHAT HE HAS DONE FOR DOLCE AND GABBANA IS LEGENDARY. HIS WORK IS TRULY PROLIFIC AND COMPELLING. I LOVE WHEN MY MODELS GET BOOKED WITH HIM AS I KNOW IT WILL BRING OUT A SIDE OF THEIR BEAUTY THAT IS DARK AND UNIQUE.

I LIVE FOR DAVID SIMS, INEZ AND VINOODH, AND REALLY STARTING TO FEEL TERRY RICHARDSON.

YES, IM OBSESSED

I"M MISSING YOU

I MISS MY FRIENDS , JILL AND DARRYLL


JILL IS ONE OF THE COOLEST GIRLS A GUY CAN CALL A FRIEND. SHE IS DEEP AND VERY INTELLIGENT.SOME OF THE BEST CONVERSATIONS I HAVE EVER HAD WITH SOMEONE HAS BEEN WITH JILL. SHE HAS INFLUENCED THE MUSIC I HAVE LISTENED TO OVER THE YEARS. I CREDIT HER WITH TURNING ME ON TO JILL SCOTT,MARY J, ARETHA FRANKLIN AND EARLY PRINCE.
JILL AND I MET IN MIAMI IN 1989, WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS EVER SINCE. SHE HAS TRAVELLED WITH ME TO HAWAII, JAMAICA AND HAS VISITED ME DOZENS OF TIMES IN NYC. JILL LIVED IN MIAMI, MOVED TO LA TO BE ON THE REALITY SHOW" STARTING OVER" AND NOW RESIDES IN ATLANTA. JILL IS VISITING ME HERE END OF SEPTEMBER..I WILL DEFINTELY BLOG PICS FROM HER VISIT

I MET DARRYLL A FEW MONTHS AFTER MEETING JILL, HE IS FROM VIRGINA BUT LIVES IN MIAMI. HE IS A FORMER MODEL, EMPHASIS ON FORMER, AND NOW WORKS AS A DESIGNER FOR HIS OWN LINE OF SPORTSWEAR FOR THE BODY CONCIOUS GAY GUY. DARRYLL HAS BEEN MY CLOSEST CONFIDANTE...NEVER JUDGEMENTAL AND ALWAYS THERE TO HERE MY BIG BAG OF BULLSHT WHEN NECESSARY. DARRYLL AND I USED TO SEE EACH OTHER ALOT; TRAVELLING TOGETHER TO PARIS, LA ETC..BUT DARRYLL HAS BEEN TO NYC TO SEE ME IN AWHILE..WHICH STINKS..WE HAVENT GROWN APART BUT THINGS HAVE CHANGED, BUT MY LOVE FOR HIM HASNT; AND NEVER WILL.

I HAVE A CLOSE CIRCLE OF GREAT FRIENDS IN NYC,,BUT I MISS THESE TWO ALOT

A SHOUT OUT TO MY NYC BESTIES..CAMERON CARPENTER AND BEN E.